ok, one more. last one im posting.
caption this!
wow awesome photos! smokin’
The first pic is my favorite.
Hmm… a caption for the third…I don’t know how about:
(A) “The Hidden Rose Bush”
(B) “The beauty of a wild rose bush”
(C) “Beware of the thorns”
(D) “Every Rose has a thorn”
Be composed-- be at ease with me-- I am Walt Whitman, liberal and lusty as Nature,
Not till the sun excludes you do I exclude you,
Not till the waters refuse to glisten for you and the leaves to rustle for you, do my words refuse to glisten and rustle for you.
My girl I appoint you with an appointment, and I charge you that you make preparation to be worthy and ready to meet me,
And I charge you that you be patient and perfect till I come.
Till then I salute you with a significant look that you do not forget me.
-To A Common Prostitute
How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being?
-Oscar Wilde
They are all fan-fucking-tastic CBear, but I like ^^^^ that one the best. Just gorgeous.
here i thought FA was bad. sigh.
will do an update type post tomorrow…
alright. here i am.
Starting back to training tomorrow, but as for my week off-
I got a new toothbrush- the sonicare with the uv cleaner box. sah-weet! i’d had one a couple years ago, but threw it into the garbage bag with the rest of my ex’s shit before i left it on his porch in the rain. i probably should NOT be this excited about a toothbrush, so i’ll attribute it to lack of training.
I got my first pieces of Under Armor. yeah, i sold out… i guess. i gave in. 2 t-shirts, 1 black 1 grey. also, from old navy, my new favorite black yoga pants and a sport tank, and 2 sports bras.
been showering twice a day (bc of the piercings) and often foam rolling after 1 or both. using the electric heating pad while i’m on the couch and getting up to stretch every so often, like when my internet times out my streaming netflix movie… CUNTS!!
worked all weekend with my manager bossman friend and my 2nd fav coworker. got details abt this years charity golf tournament… pirate themed. i have reasonable suspicion that my boss’s friends pushed for this so that they could see me in a wench outfit. bossman doesn’t deny this. looks like i have more shopping to do, as this will DEFINITELY not be a onetime use outfit ;-D
spring quarter started today, 3 of my 4 classes fall on M/W. my awesome will be tested and I will prevail. there’s times it’ll suck but the rewards are worth it.
so lets talk about my sci-fi lit class for a moment. packed with people, and some of them i really, really hope i’m not working with in group presentations. i think it’ll be interesting, as Galileo has been pushing scifi stuff on me for a couple years now, and it seems as though his taste is either tolerable or amazing.
i skipped a 201 class at some point, so now im taking it with a bunch of freshman and juniors… oh joy. it’s the same prof as i had for irish film and lit last quarter, so at least i know how the mofo operates. we had the mandatory first day reading aloud of the syllabus and although thrilled, i’m literate and was entirely too bored. it’s a wonder i caught the explanation of a cartoon drawing (no shit) assignment that finished like this-
“I like this assignment because it gives you the opportunity to say things that you probably normally wouldn’t say about a piece of work, if you’re not Bear.”
no shit. we hadn’t even done the kindergarten level introduction of self with name, major, year, and what you like to do outside of class. apparently, this prof knows how i operate, as well.
when we DID get to the intros, i made the meathead joke i always do about pling- “I like to pick up heavy things and put them right back where they belong. most people call that Powerlifting.” his response–> “is powerlifting really a sport?” honest question. he had no idea.
also, i started The Wave in that class, 4 times, from the middle.
its gonna be entertaining, at least.
one more thing about the pics-
i really, really appreciate everyone’s comments, and i’ve linked the photographer to this log so she can see em, too. she’s awesome and i love telling her. i also love for her to see it herself.
also, i’m not upset abt the 27%. DEXA is the most accurate scan possible and i’m not gonna argue with it. I love how i look, how i feel*, and where i need to be for my sport.
had a discussion with my mother when she found out that there were pics of this nature (she hasnt seen em) and because she raised me, i completely understand her mindset and dismay. what i got to tell her, and its something i hope everyone can say in their lives, is this-
“mom, this is the first time in my life where what i see in the mirror and what i feel on the inside matches. i see myself and i can appreciate every ounce of muscle, every curve thanks to my fat, and every bit of ink and metal. that’s not to say i still wont want to tweak here and there, but i wanted to capture those moments on film so that when i’m 30, 40, 50, 60… and im not as firm, or things hang that shouldnt, i can look at those pictures and not only see how good i looked, but remember how good i FELT ABOUT ME. life’s a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death.”
yes, i really used the line from “Mame” bc i love it and it seemed appropriate. I won’t say that she came around after that, but at least we understand each other, and agree to disagree. Her biggest fear is that the pics will negatively affect me later in life… scandal during promotions, or hiring, etc. I trust my girl implicitly, and that possibility is why i ask that anyone who knows me IRL keeps my name out of my online dealings.
alright. goodnight, bitches.
sci-fi lit classes were my favs.
pics of wench costume are a must of course.
[quote]CBear84 wrote:
had a discussion with my mother when she found out that there were pics of this nature (she hasnt seen em) and because she raised me, i completely understand her mindset and dismay. what i got to tell her, and its something i hope everyone can say in their lives, is this-
“mom, this is the first time in my life where what i see in the mirror and what i feel on the inside matches. i see myself and i can appreciate every ounce of muscle, every curve thanks to my fat, and every bit of ink and metal. that’s not to say i still wont want to tweak here and there, but i wanted to capture those moments on film so that when i’m 30, 40, 50, 60… and im not as firm, or things hang that shouldnt, i can look at those pictures and not only see how good i looked, but remember how good i FELT ABOUT ME. life’s a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death.”
alright. goodnight, bitches. ;-)[/quote]
Amen.
you are lovely.
Also. Read moar science fiction. The cool kids call it SF, not sci fi.
Glad that you’re feeling comfortable in your own skin. One of life’s true pleasures IMO.
We are all waiting for the wench pix…
[quote]Nadia Comeandeat wrote:
The first pic is my favorite.
Hmm… a caption for the third…I don’t know how about:
(A) “The Hidden Rose Bush”
(B) “The beauty of a wild rose bush”
(C) “Beware of the thorns”
(D) “Every Rose has a thorn”
[/quote]
Nick Cave & Kylie Minogue - The wild rose - YouTube it made me think of this nick cave/kylie duet.
how bout (e) tHorny rose-girl
SCI FI LIT!!! OH MY GOD! I am so jealous!
oh man… about the mom knowing the pictures exist. try accidentally emailing two MUCH less artsy ones to your mom. That’s what i did last winter. YEP. i offered and was asked for no explanation… just whoops…wrong…file :{
but your mom probably is most proud of the woman you’ve become–and her fantastic genetics shining forth:)
I studied Philosophy at university and, up until that point, I had a notion to become fantastically well read and forced myself to read all sorts of weighty tomes, whether I enjoyed them or not. But, after having to deal with Kant, Hegel, Heidegger et al, my brain craved something lighter. Something I could read for fun and enjoyment.
A friend loaned me Neuromancer and his Watchmen comics (this was back before Watchmen had come out as a single volume) and I was enthralled. I really think sci-fi gets a bad rap. Yes, it dates more than other genres and some of it is awful, but there is a wealth of well-written and brilliantly imagined sci-fi out there.
Regarding the photos, perhaps you should show your mother some of them and I’m sure she’d come around. They are beautiful pics.
My favorite yoga pants are from Old Navy too…the kind that roll over? ya.
no doubt you will kick ass this semester…and then do you get Summer break?
n- well, DUH. 
alisa- i’m sure im gonna get a hell of an education with this one. no sarcasm. im already loving some of the people watching and character analysis, and i havent cracked a book yet.
veg- not just pleasure, but satisfaction… another one of those overused under-meant words. pics will be a couple weeks! hold on to that counter!
bre- i’ll be honest. i let the song play but i hated it. i tried listening to it and i’ll try again later, but it didn’t strike me. sigh. glad you meant good things with it, tho.
brute- she IS proud of me, and that was part of the discussion. about her amazing genetics, you get a rant.
rant-
all 5 of us kids look alike (same parents) but my bro-across-the-hall and i look like mom’s side, and the other 3 look like dads. all five of us are good looking and very intelligent, and are good at whatever we put our minds to. this baffles my parents. theyve said, on multiple occasions, that they marvel at ALL FIVE of us being blessed with good looks and brains.
you see, my parents are average looking, average height, average athleticism, and have common sense but had to study for their smarts. imagine THAT talk when i brought home C’s in high school. from dad- “through all 9 years of college i had to work so hard. i was good with my hands but i figured out how i needed to study and it was a struggle day in and day out. learning comes so easily for you, and you just don’t care, or try. you have so many gifts that i never did and you’re wasting them.” wouldve been easier to deal with if he yelled or grounded me.
it wasn’t until i sat down with dad one night after i started lifting (2007ish) and was all fired up about how much i love it that he told me about my circus freak genetics.
so brute (and i guess everyone), mom wouldnt even take a lil bit of pleasure in seeing her beautiful daughter be more gorgeous. what she wants out of me comes from my brain, and knows that everything will come to me more easily because of my looks. /rant.
cal- i dig the heavy stuff as much as the light reading… left to my own devices, i’ll often read 2 or 3 books at the same time, of entirely different natures. last triad i had was “the god delusion,” “tipping point,” and “choke.” what i enjoy about SF is the “oh theres a line i’m no sposed to cross? fuckit. physically impossible? fuckit. imma do it anyway, and do it with style,” mentality.
MIM- taking a class this summer, too! just one, which will seem like a vaca, i’m sure… ugh. good thing im not interested in a tan!
sky- 27. one more than 26, one less than 28. almost 30. 9, three times over. twentymotherfuckingseven. thats me.
climbing before class, class 1-3, then lifting, then a family dinner party.
