Oh shit you got a point I just realised how it contradicts.
Hmmm that is a very true point, but in all fairness I completely agree it is dumb to do but I will go ahead with it, it’s weird ik it’s not the right time and I can hold off etc but I just want too and to be fair that’s an indicator for me that I’m still young and dumb, but I think my mind has been made up unfortunately it annoys me to say the least. I am still very excited nonetheless