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LOG # 295
Was this Wednesday afternoon? Idk I cant remember. This was kind of an all afternoon type deal. Started at 2, finished around 6pm. Half was at the gym, few things I did at home.
All correctional movements.
Have a bit of hip shift going on. Left leg is being favored, so the goal was to bring the right leg in a bit more. Shift the hips towards the left slightly, bring the right foot just a tad bit further than the left.
135lbs, start from a dead stop at the bottom of where my squat is. (e.g, pin squats). About 65 reps total.
Had a rhomboid tweak some months ago. When looking over my posture, and the initial setup for deads, I shrug my shoulders up slightly, instead of putting them back and it’s making my neck extremely tight as well as my jaw. Opted for assisted pull-ups, with a band. Forget how thick it was. However it was enough for me to target my shoulders and upper back without straining so much. Goal was to keep the chest up and out, squeeze shoulder blades together. On the descent let the shoulder blades ease up first, then lower.
7 sets total, kept the reps 1-3.
Lower back strengthening stuff. My hips have completely loosened up, however I do have a bit of scar tissue that I now have to work around. Holding still too long or resting too long will aggravate my back. So I’ll kick it up a notch and go back to three a week’s. Lately I have been training two times a week, and favoring a bit more cardio/conditioning.Does my deadlift good, and my bench okay-ish, not so much for my squat.
Goal was to involve the glutes as much as possible.
Very wide stance, turn the feet out quite a bit, sit into the squat. 275 x10 all pauses.
Unilateral work with dumbbells
Walking lunges. Shift weight to the heels, so I don’t screw upthe tracking of my knees. Forgot the weight I was using. Wasn’t anything over 35. x20
Pressure release work:
Dead hang. Loosen the lower back. Dangle there for about 45 second. Did this about 5-6 times.
Lying scorpion: hold for 2 mins
Hook lying hollow w/ pelvic floor activation 3 times by 2 mins
Fascia release. With hands and with foam roller. Foam roller for back, hands for flexors, and down the iliac area. (Looked like I was touching my crotch. Have no idea why I didn’t just opt to do this at home)lol. Wasn’t keeping track of time on this. I was just focusing on getting the knots and kinks out as best as I could.
Calf and hamstring strengthening stuff. Because my quads steal almost everything from them being to share the load concerning my lower half.
RDL’s very light weight. ~125lbs. As to not bring the lower too much into it. x20. Slow and controlled.
Seated and standing calf raises. Light weight for however many.
Sled push. 50m. About 5 times. Did this at home, and pushed my husband in a shopping cart basket that’s always at the side exit of our neighborhood. Did that down one of the main streets in our neighborhood. Don’t know who managed to get that thing all the way down here, but whatever. Decided to keep that thing, because improvising. And I now have something I can put my tire and cinder blocks in.
I find it funny that most of the stuff I’ve accrued are things I’ve just found, or reused in a different way. Never got the trap bar from my dad for Christmas. He did get me the weighted vest, however it’s too small, and I can’t even seem to fasten it about halfway up, but I’m still keeping it because this summer I’ll shed some fat and probably be able to fit the darn thing.
Sort far I have a tire, cinder blocks, Pressing board, pulling straps, mobility and foam rolling stuff, dumbbells from my brother, jump rope, and now a shopping cart for sled type stuff. My dad also has some chains that dangle off of his rig, that he’s willing to give to me since he’s got some spare ones. Or give me the spares. I think they’re 30 pounds in total. Yay for improvising!!
Next thing I want to do is grab a decent sized log or something and hack it down to size and carve some handles, and practice log pressing. There’s a field across from my neighborhood and a company that’s cutting trees down and I’m tempted to find a decent sized one, shove it in my car and hack away at it. We will see.
As much as I want to drop some money on some quality stuff and start a home gym like I planned last year, money is just way too tight right now. Which I’m okay with.
Kind of trailed off…
But that’s mostly it for this log.
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LOG # 296
A.M of Thursday? Yeah.
Jump rope
1 min on
1min off
10 mins total. Hate.
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LOG# 297
DE squat
Warm up: KB swings 3x10, leg press (light)x10
Work up:
135x3
185x3
225x2
275x1
Working set: 315 2x6
Wide stance squat: 135lbs 3x15
Leg extensions: 120 lbs 3x10
Back extensions: 205 2x15
Cable crunches: 100lbs 4x9
Mobility stuff
Foam rolling.
Concerning my squat I think I see the problem.
At this point in my training, I’m going to have to train the dynamic effort days more frequently.
I can use 315 even on crappy days, I just need to do it more frequently. A bit like how my bench had been stagnating, I’ve been training my squat in a rather staggered way. As you can see sometimes I’ll take full on week breaks between squatting lately.
What I’ll do is tweak the ME day for squat and replace it with a second DE day. At least for maybe another month cycle. Gonna have to step it up a notch and accrue quite a bit of volume with 315. Really no other way to do it. I can feel 315 getting slightly easier with the two rep setup, however I will now be working toward a 3-4 rep scheme with the usual 6-8 set setup. The reps do add up even when I don’t notice. Just gotta tighten up a bit with my schedule. Around the time for the meet I’ll back off completely, and run a rough draft of a peaking cycle. Just a rough draft, nothing serious.
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Yes. I will add an update picture to the Transformation check in. Just bear with me.
Concerning how I look it’s not too different. Slight differences here and there.
Concerning my arms the fat that’s on the underside has gone down, and there’s veins that will show themselves starting to creep over my elbows when I wake up the morning. They leave once the day stretches on.
Upper chest looks a lot more shapely and defined, even when wearing a shirt.
Waistline is slowly dragging along. It’s flattening out much to where I was when I was hovering in the mid 170s. Still at 30.5 though. Just looks, shifted? Idk.
Weight has settled at 190. Yay!
My legs are on some other stuff right now. Measured them and they’re 30.3-4 inches soft, and 1-2 cm away from 31 after a pump. Kind of confusing me, on why they don’t wanna get with the program concerning squatting. Calves aren’t all that disproportionate from legs. They’re 18 inches. They’ll catch up eventually.
Hips are at 45 inches. Can’t fit shit of what I used to wear concerning concerning jeans, and shopping slacks is a freaking nightmare. Don’t really like skirts
or dresses all that much except for Church, but those are about the only things that I struggle to find and wear.
Bust area (boobs not included), where my lats are is 41 inches. Back fat has gone down one hell of a lot.
Traps are meh. Lol
Other than that, that’s pretty much it.
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When my calves get tight it makes my Quads take over. With out the ankle mobility I get on the balls of my feet and that pushes me forward and my quads do all the work…and aggravate my knees really bad.
I tried these when you recommended them (thank you) but I felt them mostly in my hip flexors so dropped them.
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Ahh I see. Still glad you gave it a whirl lol
I’m extremely flat footed, and my feet tend to supinate, so it’ll creep on the sides of my knees and just irritate the whole thing.
I think my quads take over because I simply train them more than my hamstrings and calves.
As much as I don’t care to train them, I still need to. Meh.
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May or may not be able to compete this year.
I’m not sure what’s going on with my mom.
I woke up to her screaming and yelling at me. And telling me she wanted me to leave.
I’m not sure what I’ve done wrong.
One day she’s congratulating me, and thanking me for helping her, the next she’s saying I need to do better, or I’m not doing enough.
She’s always complaining about the kitchen, the living room, cooking. And when I clean up she either doesn’t pay attention or tells me I can do better.
Me and Kelby have been working on redoing the hallway tile, and she’s complaining about how junky it looks. It’s fucking ripped up tile. It won’t look good until we lay the new tile.
The entire back section of the house is carpet, and shit happens, yet there’s no carpet shampoo vacuum thing. If she bought one I’d clean the back rooms.
She’s complaining about how I don’t walk the dogs, however our backyard is huge, and it wraps around our entire house. We don’t live in apartments anymore.
What I can’t seem to understand is how she cherry picks things, or only wants to focus on the mistakes of others. If I try to defend myself modestly, she immediately calls me a liar.
When I had a job and was working well into 10 hour shifts, she still gave me shit. Despite me giving her my entire check.
I’ve entrusted her with my school information, and federal aid info, and have missed two semesters because she keeps putting off resending my info in order for my fasfa so regenerate. However when she wants something done it better be done faster than light can travel.
There’s five of us here. There’s a shit ton of foot traffic, there’s five animals, we all eat, we all use the bathroom, what the fuck does she expect. Everything isn’t going to spotless all the time.
Me and husband would have more money, if we weren’t giving well over 75% of the money we make to my mom. And yet my mom still manages to say we need to “better our money management”.
She isn’t slick. I see her buying shit that is very hypocritical to the crap she’s complaining about. Don’t bitch about groceries, if you’re going out buying sodas (that you hide), hair stuff, and new clothes.
I thought she was very good at budgeting until we couldn’t pay the light bill and I figured why. My husband and I aren’t the best a budgeting either, however we aren’t the only ones. And my mom did a great job making us think we were.
She’s always telling me how she understood why my grandma lived by herself. Why? Because my grandma refused to accept people as they are, and refused to compromise? And what happened? She felt lonely, every single damn day, and when we went to see and help her, despite all of that, she still couldn’t let go of her stubbornness.
It’s always fucking Grandma this, Grandma that. She isn’t fucking here anymore. She just isn’t. My mom told me a lot of her childhood, and how rough parts of it were, and how my Grandma put very heavy and unrealistic expectations on her, and loved her based on performance. But I’m not my grandma. And neither is my mom. And whenever my mom realizes she has the ability to leave my Grandma at peace where she needs to be, maybe she will calm down.
I understand I’m adult. And I’m grinding my brain to dust trying to get it together, and I don’t know if it’s on purpose, but my mom is refusing to understand. Refusing.
If she wants me to leave I’ll leave. That’s not what’s bothering me though. If I leave, I’m not coming back. I have in the past, but this is very much different. And I already know she’s going to want me to come back.
She said that me and Kelby asked to move in, but I specifically remember asking if she wanted us to come because I knew she needed emotional and financial support. If I knew it was going to her regurgitating the past actions and words of my Grandma, I would’ve stayed put and kept pushing through the struggle with my husband.
I’m not perfect. I don’t expect my mom to be. But when my mom is lacking a shocking amount of understanding and perspective, it’s still a problem.
Don’t bitch about how no one is helping. We all are. I didn’t put up over 10 feet worth of fencing just to be told I don’t do shit to contribute to the house. I don’t clean and vacuum at four in the fucking morning to wake up to yelling and screaming and being called a liar. Don’t bitch about how you “feel” like you’re doing all of this by yourself. You aren’t. And dont bitch about how no one understands you, when you refuse to try and understand others.
I was really looking forward to competing. Hopefully I still can, but it looks like I’m going to have to spend an ungodly amount of time looking for a new place, hoarding all of my money to save, and pitching in working overtime.
I told myself I wasn’t going to cry, but I did. I’m not even upset at my mom. I’m just hurting because I’m the ONLY one out two kids who actually gives a damn about my parents, and my step father. My brother isn’t going to take care of them. He can’t even take care of himself. I break myself down at school, and work whatever job I can find. All to make sure in the next 10-15 years that my husband and I are set, and that my parents can rest easy knowing their daughter will take excellent care of them. My brother thanked my parents by being a drug addict and racking up prison points. Hes 13 years older than me and doesn’t even see the bigger picture. But I do. But a few fucking dishes in the sink, trumps all of that. According to my mom.
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You need to move out. Period. I’m sorry you’re going through this but I’ve realised there is nothing special about family. Just because someone is a blood relation doesn’t mean shit. If a person is a piece of shit, they’re a piece of shit and you don’t need them in your life no matter what their relationship to you is. You don’t owe a person anything simply because they’re a parent, sibling, cousin or whatever. You only owe them any loyalty if they did something to deserve it.
Case in point: I cut off all contact with my mother a year ago. I’ve never been happier. My wife talks to her sometimes, and I don’t mind that, but I’ve made it clear I want nothing to do with her. At saw her at our wedding and Christmas, both my wife’s idea, and that’s all I intend to see of her. It took me a while, but I realised how much better my life is without that negative aspect still in it that I tried to balance because I thought I should simply because she’s my parent. Fuck that. If my skin crawls whenever a person is near me I’m better of without them.
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I think my parents deserve my loyalty.
They’ve helped me and loved me through quite a lot.
My dad doesn’t give me a hard time like my mom does. He’s just working a shit ton. He’s upset me, and whatnot. But he’s apologized and worked on fixing the things I’ve pointed out to him.
But it’s like my mom is slowly morphing into a more angry and unforgiving person.
But moving out is a priority now. I keep trying to help my mom the best way I can, but I don’t think she needs my help. Perhaps she just needs time to herself.
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Kids are supposed to move out and move on. You are not responsible for taking care of your parents, and they’re no longer responsible for taking care of you.
Kids don’t have to pay their parents back for their childhood. If your parents can’t take care of themselves then that’s their fault. Responsibile people manage their money so that they can pay the bills and plan for the future.
It sounds like you’re here…
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I mainly meant taking care of them when they reach old ages. You know, like decrepit.
My mom and stepdad work and whatnot.
My biological dad works too. He’s been by himself for years since the divorce. I see him whenever he isn’t busy.
But that’s I meant when I said take care of them
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Hey. It is possible to love your mom with your whole heart, and know you can’t live with her. I’d die for my sister, but we can’t be in the same zip code for more than half a day.
Step 1. Total money makeover by Dave Ramsey. Should be required reading for HS graduation. You have to tell your money where to go. Almost everyone sucks at budgeting as a young adult (and most older adults). We were so bad at it we instituted “false scarcity” where we take what we want to save/payoff and move it out of checking on payday. Somewhere we can’t get at it without major effort. Without the money available to spend, we don’t spend it. Voila.
Later read Rich Dad Poor Dad after you’ve got savings and have moved out.
Step 2. Get a lease (even if it’s a rat whole first place) hug your mom and go make your own way. You can work through college. We did, I got a 3.8 and she got a 4.0 working two jobs each.
You got this.
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@Basement_Gainz has the correct answer.
The way you were venting made me think they needed you now. 75% of your income…
And I second @Basement_Gainz. Dave Ramsey guides our household and it’s glorious! Money is not a stressor anymore.
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Me and my husband have been on our own two times before. The rundown tends to be the same. I haven’t been in highschool since 2014.
We aren’t the best a budgeting. We do struggle and money tends to be tight, but that’s typically how it is at this age. And by struggle I mean we just live according to what our budget tells us.
Concerning school I don’t take out loans, or anything. We don’t do credit cards at the moment. We don’t need to. We file our taxes on time. We don’t really buy anything lavish or try to rent stuff. Occasionally one of us will buy something stupid. Like a video game or order pizza when we have food already, and then ask the other for an extra 5-10$. But that’s mostly it.
I feel like an idiot a bit because we’ve completely exhausted what we had saved up, for fixing this house.
We don’t expect to have extra when me move out. We didn’t expect extra the first time. We aren’t really expecting much until I graduate. Which is okay. My husband busts his ass with logistics work, so most of our income comes from him, while I plow through school. Then we’ve decided once I get up and running in my career, he can cut back on work and finish his degree.
I can’t work two jobs and be In college. Some people can, but my school life suffers tremendously.
The first apartment we just moved to another apartment for cheaper pricing. Second one we left because of my mom. We’d still be at our old place if I said no.
But thank you for the input. I’ll be sure to read up on the book. Reminds me of some similar books my dad gave me a while back.
I’m not worried about moving out. My feelings are just hurt as to why I’m moving out.
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Switch needed with wanted. Perhaps.
I was giving her all the money because she had me fully convinced she was using it for stuff we all needed.
But alas I was proven wrong.
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Don’t have much advice to give because I’ve had little life experiences but i can give my support. Hope you’ll be alright.
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Just read your post, and I am sorry for what you are going through with your mom, it sounds like you love her a lot. I had a mother who was critical and hard on me, we had a very poor relationship and she died without being able to understand why she behaved the way she did towards me. I tell you this because my biggest regret in life was not being there for her when she died because I was hurt. Whether you continue to live with her or not may not be the issue, perhaps trying to get to the root cause of her anger might be. I hope you are able to communicate with her, and figure out how to resolve any issues (especially on your side), but sometimes you just have to let it go and it does eventually hurts less. I am not sure how long ago your grandma died, but sometimes people have a delayed reaction to grief as well.
I hope you are doing ok, you always have such great advice for others.
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Thank you so much.
That’s mostly what’s eating up.
Tearing back all the layers. This, that, and tomorrow’s junk. I just care. Sometimes I wish I couldn’t. But I just freaking do. And sometimes it seems involuntary.
My grandma has been gone since the middle of last year. Right around there. I think A few more months into this year and it’ll have been a year. I’d have to go back and get a more accurate date.
I don’t know what’s it’s like to lose someone. I’ll be honest I don’t. But I’m willing to sit there in all the emotional shit WITH her. I’ve always given the upmost fuck about people’s feelings. I may not particularly like someone, but their feelings still matter. Someone with more grit than I have would probably tell me not to do that. When my dad wasn’t around, when my brother wasn’t around, I was.
I know she’s angry. She needs to talk to a professional. She needs to keep digging some more and tearing at whatever hardened mess has formed within her over the years. I see all of that.
I’m always there for actual conversation with her. I’ve spent quite a while sitting on a therapists couch re-teaching myself how to talk to others, and how to talk to myself. Yes, there’s a better phras for that. Somewhere. She knows she needs more help. But whether she gets it, that’s up to her.
I don’t think many people pay attention to how kind I am. Or care, rather.
Which is fine. I care. And the only other human being that cares is my husband. Which is enough.
I don’t even think I want an apology from her. I just want her to help herself. And now that I think about it, she might have to do that on her own.
She’s 51 however, so I don’t know if she ever will.
But thanks. I really appreciate you adding into this.
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