LOG # 627
Super Squats Day 9
Felt a little better, put 215 on the bar. Hips and sacrum/tailbone area were all kinds of tight and stiff so I spent like half an hour doing tissue work, and stretching. Which felt great afterwards, but I’m mildly disappointed in myself that I let myself get this stiff over the years.
Didn’t substitute anything this session.
LOG # 628
SS day 10
Same as usual as far as movements are concerned.
Added weight to the hypers (25lbs), 245lb for squats. I felt a bit better in terms of work capacity so was good timing to push a bit more.
LOG # 629
Strength focused.
Warm up: Defranco’s Agile 8
Top set:
335 1x5
I fought this insane urge to work up to 400lbs. Everything was moving so smoothly, cues came as easy as breathing…buuuuuut…the little voice in my head convinced me otherwise. I’m glad I listened to it because I had the sneaking suspicion I would’ve irritated something. Don’t know what, but something.
Bench:
135 10x5
Pull variation:
Trap bar
135lb
x5
x5
x5
x5
x5
Im STILL bummed that my body slowly just let know that it’s done with deadlifts. Im also still rather envious of the people with good deadlift leverages lol
AMRAP set for reverse hypers and push ups. I say AMRAP, but it’s more like “a bunch of reps I do whilst not counting”.
20 min lap swimming
Mobility/deep tissue stuffs
LOG # 630
Super Squats Day 11
Working weight 200lbs. Breathing pace was pert near perfect. Which had been one of my goals to get down. Granted I backed off about 20-25lbs per what I usually do, but I’m not mad at it.
Did the squats after upper body, so the first to the last rep was a bit of a grind.
Lower back miraculously felt great, so I swapped the hypers for deficit deadlifts. I have a wonky set up so I don’t take a sumo nor conventional stance, but mostly squat stance. Swapped the rep set up for a straight set of 20. Used 225, and against my original plans, about halfway in, everything turned into touch n go’s. But once I stopped touching the bar I wanted to be done.
LOG #631
Higher volume
•Strict Press:
bar x10
90x10
115x3
115x3
115x3
115x3
115x3
Back off
100x7
100x7
100x7
•Push ups:
x10
x10
x10
x10
x10
•BB rows
125x5
125x5
125x5
Back off
100x10
100x10
100x10
•Lat Pulldowns
40 3x12
50 3x12
70 straight set of 10
85 3x7
Back off
50 2x10
40 2x10
•Squats:
225
x10
x10
x10
Back off, slow tempo
135 straight set of 30
•Hip thrusts:
135
x10
x10
x10
x10
x10
•walking lunges
4 sets, ~40 meters
Rehab and mobility work
LOG # 632
Swim
Timed freestyle 500m
Was fighting for under 5 mins but approached 6 min 35 seconds. Hella deconditioned.
Spent the rest of the time doing swimming drills.
LOG # 633
Super Squats Day 12
Working weight 215lbs for squats. 135 for bench, 135 for deadlift variant (trap bar). Again, I substituted the hypers since I’ve been less and less injured. However, my period came right after this session, which made sense since everything felt horrid.
LOG # 634
Strength focused
•Floor Press:
Using DBs (managed to rig up something that allowed me to roll a pair of 80s off of those little step up things. Otherwise I’d have probably broken my wrists or dropped them on my face trying to fiddle with them. Do I wanna use the 100s? Yes, but I think next time I’m just gonna make use of the bottom pins in the rig.
x6
x6
x6
x7
x7
x6
x6
•Squats:
Top set
320 1x6
(On a more technical note, my 1RM calculator has me at 400, given the working weight. Again, I’m fighting the urge to scratch the 1RM itch, because I have no idea how that is gonna translate given my training isn’t set up for peaking. But…. I’m eventually gonna test it. Because I’m hard headed. I’d like to test it after reaching some kind of 10rm though. Don’t think anything over 315 is gonna be doable without hurting my hips. So I figured more reps would be preferable. But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.
Back off sets:
225lb
x10
x10
135lb
x20
x20
•Trap Bar Deads
135lb
x10
x10
x10
x10
Did A3 and A5 from this article
reps and sets as prescribed. Awesome burn which sucked, but my knees responded really well to it. My sciatic nerve issues affect the outer parts of my knees the most so this was great for that.
•Hip Thrusts
Just the bar x20
100lb
x10
x15
x10
x15
x10
DB rows w/ 30s
x10
x10
x10
w/ 20s
x20
Rehab and mobility work
LOG # 635
AM swim
40mins. More of a leisure swim
LOG # 636
Super Squats day 13
I got through the cycle yay!
Don’t know if it’s worth a write up, but if people ask I’ll write one.
LOG # 637
Strict Press:
Bar x10
100x5
115x3
115x2
125x2
125x1
135x2 (hella shaky), but I finally have a strict press PR.
Lat pulldowns:
50x12
50x12
60x7
60x7
85x5
85x5
Squat:
300x7
Increase volume
185x25
185x25
185x10ish (super fatigued)
Hamstring curls:
20x20
40x10
40x10
50x5
50x5
Trap bar:
225x5
225x5
225x5
225x5
KB swings:
15 reps 1 min rest
5 rounds altogether
LOG # 638
Tagged along with a friend. I was mostly there for support/guidance. But took it upon myself to do some other things.
•Tire flips: 10 flips, 1 min rest, 5 rounds
•Sandbag carry: ~40-45 meters. There and back counted as . 5 rounds altogether.
Please write one!
Update:
Still been here. Haven’t logged because it’s been rather hard. My husband and I are no longer together. I really wish I could say there was something else I could’ve done to keep pushing forward and work on the very deeply rooted problems we faced, but after almost a decade I realized I was the only one carrying my weight. It’s not like I did so perfectly. Absolutely not. The problems were just as much my fault as it was his. But between the codependency, cheating on both our behalf, drinking, self harm, verbal abuse, and complacency, it just felt like I was suffocating. Amidst all of this though, I was seemingly the only one regularly going to therapy/psychotherapy. I’m not blaming him, but it was very frustrating that he resisted marriage counseling, personal therapy, or any other third thing I suggested. And what hurts the most is that I watched him, and myself turn into very different people as the years went by. Beginning of March I explained why I no longer wanted to be together. To which I watched him break into pieces. Feeling guilty, was very much an understatement as to how I felt. Couple weeks ago, I received walls of very angry texts from him, with one part in particular begging me to just be with him, sit on the couch, and watch Tv late into the afternoon like we always used to do. And I just told him I couldn’t. I didn’t want to sit and watch Tv, and act like everything was fine. It wasn’t. Given the situation and the VERY painful mistakes we made, we did not have the luxury other married couples do to just coast and relax. All I wanted was for us to get to the bottom of what caused us to hurt eachother. And just like it took years for us to find ourselves where we were, I was willing to still be there for the years it was gonna take to work on things. But every time I asked if he wanted to go to therapy, he just wouldn’t. And the perpetual cycle would just…keep going. Needless to say, I’m still in the gym, and while I’m taking it second by second, I still feel like I could’ve done something, anything better, I feel like I gave up, and I just don’t feel like a decent woman whatsoever.
Give yourself some grace. No one is perfect and it takes two to make a relationship work. You can’t be the only one doing the heavy lifting it’s not your responsibility alone to have fixed it. Just keep doing everything you can to work through your feelings and emotions and keep taking care you you. Sending you a BIG hug!!
Early morning yall! Good to be back here. Been doing better after a long break from here, and from training. Needless to say, I’ve been through quite a bit. Divorced, withdrew from extensive schooling, back at Costco, lost our house. All that.
Amidst all of that I have been thriving and learning a host of new things all from the strength of Christ. Out of everything that has happened, I have a new found hope for life. What I once cared for and held onto for dear life, I finally let go of. All the things I’ve let define me, just no longer matter. And I now finally have been truly set free.
I’ve moved back in with my mom, patched things up with my dad, working on things with my stepdad, and were finally closing the deal on a new house to move into. Have been in a very healthy and healing relationship with a new person, and am comfortable with my day job, having received another 2$ raise. I also am a part time nail technician, and may or may not try to get back into counseling/therapy. It’s not high on my list, and at this point in time, I’m just thankful for the learning experience. Per my perspective, I see nothing wasted. Neither time or money, or a degree.
As for training, it’s been 7-8 months of absolutely no training, with the odd walk in the park, or dip in the pool, alongside a quick dumbbell session.
I have no idea where my strength levels are, endurance levels, or anything of the sort. All the aching joints, callouses, cuts, scrapes, and bruises have long healed, so to me, its a new start.
I still have the familiar strength itch I’d like to scratch again, but this time around, I have no desire to compete. No desire for solely aesthetics based goals, and quite frankly, I’m alright with that. I’d like to find joy in whatever the day’s session brings. And I’m sticking to that.
Have joined the T-ransformation challenge for this year, so let’s jump on in!
I am so ridiculously delighted to have read these paragraphs. I’ve never met you, I’ve never actually spoken to you, I only know you as text and photos, and yet my heart is so full of joy to know you are in this place right now.
I am so excited for your journey from here.
@T3hPwnisher
Ahh! so good to see you again friend! How have you been?!
Thank you for the encouragement as well! It means one heck of a lot. Having you here in the community for such a long time is indeed a blessing. I’ve always felt that I’ve bothered you in one way or another during our online interactions so I’ve usually tried to just stay out of your way. If I’m being honest. But again, It’s been another pop of joy added to my day by having you visit my log. Truly.
