This is definitely a solid goal to have! I’m sure, given your drive and determination that you regularly display, that you will succeed.
Also well done on your push press! You honestly have an incredible amount of strength. I know A LOT of military guys that can’t squat or put that weight overhead.
LOG # 552
LOG # 553
12 mile bike ride
You’re both exactly right in your observations about the sheer difficulty of living for Jesus. He himself said, 13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad and easy to travel is the path that leads the way to destruction and eternal loss, and there are many who enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow and difficult to travel is the path that leads the way to [everlasting] life, and there are few who find it." (Matthew 7:13-14, Amplified translation)
Morality is absolutely something taught to us, not something we derive from within ourselves. God’s character is the basis of morality, and he explains it to us in His word and demonstrated it to us when Jesus - Immanuel, God is with us - came to earth and lived here.
God indeed tells us to learn about Him AND to teach our children:
“You shall love Adonai your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your might. Take to heart these instructions, which I charge you this day. Impress them upon your children. Recite them when you stay at home and when you are away, when you lie down and when you get up. Bind them as a sign on your hand and let them serve as a symbol on your forehead; inscribe them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.” Deuteronomy 6:5-9
Freaking SWEET!! That’s serious weight, congrats and keep going!
Which now leads to say something my mom says very often.
She says we are made with a space inside of our souls/hearts. Often times we try to fill it with earthly things. Money, attention, sex, drugs, drinking, knowledge, etc. and how it’s a constant need to have that space filled with meaningfulness. She mentions that such a space was made for God to fulfill. I often refer to Gods character as his attributes. So I’m a sense this longing, and wanting for such a fulfillment comes to fruition when he line ourselves up with Gods attributes. Or amplify such attributes we were given as his creation.
I need to find the verse that speaks about it, but a paraphrased version mentions that we are now dead to the flesh essentially. I was listening to an older sermon from my last pastor and he mentions having to “die” in a sense to ourselves in order to “come to life” through Christ. And when I finally got a hold of that concept it was also a bittersweet thing. More sweet than bitter when I realize how such a principle goes far past things of this world.
Update:
As far as weight goes, it isn’t budging AT ALL.
Since me last weigh in I went down maybe 3-4 pounds. And the couple of times I weighed myself in between it’s been EXACTLY the same. 187. However. I know I’m losing fat because I’m developing brand spanking new stretch marks. They’re all in my hip areas towards the back more so than the front, and they’re higher up than the ones I’ve had for years now. I’m not really one to give much of a care about stretch marks, but I’m mildly annoyed this time around.
I’m also VERY tired upon waking. I’ve cut my calories down to around 14-1500 and I’m mostly miserable at this point. However my training volume is at an all time high AND I’m hitting PRs. At this point in time it’s me grinding through it now. It’s helping a lot with my recovery considering I don’t have room to overeat, I don’t really deviate from the allotted food choices I’ve given myself, AND I allow small bits of snacks whenever I feel I’d like one, and I’m putting in enough work nearly every day now to where my mind has something more positive to focus on.
However I’m noticing the lack of calories along with higher volume and frequency is really screwing with my joints. In particular, my sciatica. Most days I can’t walk around barefoot at all. I HAVE to wearing something on my feet. Hard surfaces, combined with I guess…the sheer amount of weight that I carry around really aggravates my sciatica. Not to mention I haven’t been vigilant about post workout re-hab stuff. The last flare up I couldn’t even put my right foot on the ground without pain shooting down my leg.
I have noticed how tight my hips are. Once I hit a certain depth when squatting I come to a crisp halt. Or when I’m deadlifting I’ll stop completely just a bit before the lockout point. Needless to say I have quite a bit of mobility work I need to get done to start feeling better. Do I squat too much? Probably. Your point? Lol. I’m also now fully aware that I have quite crap shoulder mobility. That’s the main reason I don’t bench much anymore, but if I wanna start benching more and progressing with pressing, I’m gonna have to put in work concerning being mobile enough to not be in pain after doing pushing movements.
It isn’t so much my form, as it is the poundages I’m moving. I’m not sure what to call this phenomenon, I know it has a name, Its just not coming to me, but it’s like…I’m strong enough to move the weight concerning…like the actual muscles moving the weight, but my joints just aren’t getting with the program much, if at all.
Lastly, I’m growing impatient with the leaning out process. Usually by this time, I’ve caved in and gone back to maintenance calories. But I’ve come to a couple of conclusions. First being: I’m heavy as hell for a five foot woman. I know I don’t really…look like it? But my body is getting fed up being this heavy. In particular my knees. They hurt pretty much daily, ESPEACIALLY at work. I’m not concerned with strength loss because it seems I’m at a point where it’s not really gonna go anywhere.
While I’m not really built to be anything sub 125-130ish pounds, I’m also not built to be nearly 200lbs. I wish to be in the mid high 150s mid-high 160s, but I’ll even settle to be hovering in the low 170s. I do realize that the scale isn’t moving mostly due to slightly muscle gains (which I really didn’t even think I had much more of). But then again, obviously I have more if I’m getting stronger in certain movements.
That’s where I’m at with everything really. Will update more as I go along.
Nice work, congrats on the pr
This isn’t a thing. 
I feel you with the knees and joints thing. I can’t imagine BBers being 300+
Maybe a liiiiitle bit? Lol
Yeah It slips my mind that your body doesn’t really give much of a care if you’re heavy because you have a lot of fat, or you’re heavy because you have a lot of muscle. You’re still heavy either way.
I couldn’t imagine being 300+ either. Perhaps for much taller athletes, but being like mid/high range in the 5 feet, absolutely not. Gotta be killer on those knee and hip joints.
LOG # 554
Rest-pause style full body DBs 30lbs
Targeted rep total was 50 for each movement, with the exception of squats goal was 150.
•Strict press
20 reps
Rest 30 seconds
15 reps
Rest 30 seconds
10 reps
Rest 30
8 reps
Rest 15
2 reps
Ouch 
•Bent over rows
Left arm
20 reps
Rest 15
15 reps
Rest 15
7 reps
Rest 15
6 reps
Rest 10
•push ups
10 reps
Rest 30
10 reps
Rest 30
10 reps
Rest 30
6 reps
Rest 30
6 reps
Rest 30
5 reps
rest 15
3 reps
•SLDL
15 reps
Rest 30
15 reps
Rest 30 seconds
10 reps
Rest 15
10 reps rest 15
•goblet squats
50 reps
Rest 1 min
25 reps
Rest 30 seconds
40 reps
Rest 30 seconds
20 reps
Rest 30 seconds
15 reps
Rest 30 seconds
20 reps
Jump rope: 50 swings
Hit 335 in today’s training. I am convinced I’m a tad bit high, but I’m not gonna make that into an issue. Felt heavy as heck, but I’m satisfied considering how low I’ve dropped my calories as of now, I’m not entirely sure if this was my max. I felt like I had one maybe two more left?
Nice work!
LOG # 555
Push press:
85x5
115x2
115x2
130x1
115 5x5
Squat:
135x5
185x5
225x4
275x3
315x1
335x1
Leg press:
135x100
225x60
270x40
300 x40
Seated rows:
40x15
40x15
85x6
40x15
Glute stuff/ activation. Mostly high rep stuff you see everywhere nowadays. Body weight stuff, DB hip thrusts, fire hydrants, kickbacks. Kept it around 40-60 reps per movement, mostly AMRAP stuff.
Push-ups:
3x10
I felt extremely tired this session. Everything moved slowly, and a lot of my problem areas on my body felt very stiff and cranky today
Strong squat, a lot of guys would be happy to hit that and you made it look easy, sure you’ve got more. You never use sleeves? Also are those monopoly socks I spy?
Sorry haven’t replied to previous reply, just passing by quickly today (crazy busy week) but will give a proper response asap.
Awesome. Really awesome. And I’m one of the guys who wishes I could squat that.
Not familiar with any of those, which is good gives me some to look up!
This one’s new to me too, will check him out.
Ha definitely, it’s one of the big things for me, I know that when I became a Christian it wasn’t because someone convinced me, it wasn’t because I wanted to change, I was successful, fulfilled, happy and not looking for anything or looking for change, God just got hold of me and transformed me, it caused a rift with my wife for years, she said I wasn’t the man she married, threw the ring in my face several times, but fortunately she stayed and she’s since become a Christian, which is awesome.
I use them kind of on and off. I prefer Kinetic Tape, since it’s nicer on the backs of my legs. Sometimes even the extra large sleeve tear up the back of my legs. At least with KT it…conforms better? If that makes sense?
Indeed those are monopoly socks. Got an Apple Jacks pair too lol