That’s kind of one of my concerns as far as my husband goes. He’s not bothered by my faith, and has told me he too believes in God, but I think he’s just…not sure what to do, or how to exercise such faith to where it grows, etc. I don’t interfere much with that, except to follow biblical principles concerning being a supportive wife. And he’s always been receptive and open to spiritual concerns I have, or even when I feel like I’d like to vent about my own spiritual struggles he’s always been very receptive, respectful, and helpful in his support. At this point in time I’ve noticed it’s more or less just being patient. He picks up on what I do a lot, and with that he usually begins to asks questions. Usually when he asks questions, he’s been thinking about and is now showing interest. That’s when I offer insight and as much assurance as I can concerning whatever it is he wants to talk about and confide in me with.
There was a thread a while back about festive socks. I think there is a correlation between interesting socks and great squatting.
Yeah didn’t @Flipcollar have some snazzy sock pairs he’d show off?
Yep. That’s who I was thinking of, but wasn’t quite sure. 
I think I’ve been influenced by that then, because I’ve been slowly buying more socks that have cool designs and logos on them.
LOG # 556
Squat:
Heavy singles
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x1
Push press:
90x5
110x3
120x2
125x1
135x1
Barbell rows:
100x10
100x10
135x5
135x5
100x10
Back extensions
AMRAP
70 reps total
150lbs
Lying leg raises
3x10
Treadmill Sprints:
30 seconds on, 1 min rest
7.5 mph speed
5 rounds
LOG # 557
DeFranco’s Agile 8
Swimming laps
30 mins
Mostly freestyle
Also made a pickled veggie mix. That I’ve been eating straight out of the jar. It’s spicy but I love it.
Lol oops, wrong log.
But that jar of spicy pickled veggies looks awesome!!!
LOG # 558
I unfortunately…CANNOT remember what the heck I did on this day. It’s all just…not coming to me. Lol
LOG # 559
PPL
Squat:
225x10
225x10
225x10
Leg press:
225x20
225x20
225x20
Deadlift (conventional)
135x10
225x5
225x5
225x3
BB RDLs
135x10
135x10
135x10
Bench press:
100lbs x10
135x5
135x5
155x5
160x3
Push-ups
x10
x10
x10
x10
x10
Glute bridges (body weight)
x20
x20
x20
Goblet squats (25lbs)
x20
x20
x20
Stair master
5 mins
LOG # 560
9 mile bike ride
Note to Self:
Fast food Salads…ARE STILL BULLSHIT. Thought I could venture off and let myself have a Wendy’s Jalapeño salad. Nope. My stomach is very unhappy.
Update:
I felt this heavy blanket of sadness wash over me. Started off small, and now it’s to the point that I don’t even leave my room much. It’s been about a week now of me just not doing anything.
Praying has been on my mind, and is about the only thing that has been helping. I usually set aside time to be alone in prayer. Today seems less…gloomy. I’ve been going against the grain about taking my medication. Last night I actually took the new meds I’ve been prescribed. It does take about 2 weeks to notice their effect, but I noticed stuff almost immediately when I woke up.
I haven’t been eating much, if at all. I just read and sleep mostly.
Today is still an okay day though. I’m still happy…somewhere inside myself. But I’m also just…sad. I can’t pinpoint what caused this, and I don’t really have a need to pinpoint it. I just feel this way. It’ll subside, as it usually does. Just not now.
LOG # 561
2 rounds
Wishing the best as always.
Find solace in heavy squats maybe?
Absolutely. Found a very nice psychiatrist today, and just hearing her voice helped a lot. Very nice lady indeed. Feeling a lot better today. No crying, or anything. Been about a weeks worth of deload so I just did some pump work this afternoon to ease back into where I left off. I find morning workouts do me well for sleeping at a decent time, granted I feel like I push heavier weights in the afternoon/dusk. Changed meds to a low dose of Prozac and while I do like it, and have had time to get used to it, it gives me this…unusual energy, especially if I haven’t eaten much. However it’s done me well in the mental department more so than the other medications I’ve taken.
For this guy only being 19 or 20, he’s killing it in the riddim sub-genre of EDM. Talented I must say.
I think I should respect that it’s not entirely my place anymore to keep defending her. I think it is my place to be nice to her though. I genuinely care for Anna. I care for a lot of people here really. Despite not saying it much. But I get sensitive quite a bit in her log, possibly due to whatever emotional attachment I have with familiarity concerning her predicament.
Im pretty open and actively discuss my own own issues on here, which I think provides insight for people, hence, nothing but support. Anna doesn’t really go about things how I do, or how anyone does, and so I think it sparks this kind of disconnect, because it’s behavior we aren’t given any insight into.
Whether that’s due to her not giving it attention by way of not finding any issues with it, fear of being criticized, not knowing how to say it, not knowing if there even is anything to say about it, or even wanting to speak about it, validation seeking, lack of perspective, etc. whatever it is, it’s still…okay. And by okay I mean it’s still okay to at least talk to her in such a way that’s constructive despite of. You know?
I think if she ever feels comfortable being at that level of vulnerability on here with us, maybe others will kind of figure out how to vibe with her better.
Hey just catching up on your log, really sorry to hear about this, but glad to hear there’s some hope and that you’ve got help close on hand, I’ll be praying for you.