First off, thank you for thinking of me. It’s a wonderful feeling to know someone has me on their mind (in a good way, not in a I hate that asshole kind of way). Just as a warning, I just finished a particularly good run and so my brain is both very clear and very full so this could end up being lengthy and a bit scattered. I apologize In advance.
I think one of the things I love about this place is that there are so many brains to pick and perspectives to get. I can pick and choose what bits of advice best fit my needs. And there is such a large variety of people with so many different experiences and so many different ways of approaching the same problem. I have decided to go with your advice of taking off the training wheels. I know myself well enough to know that I can’t give up BOTH scales, so my food scale is getting a much deserved break. I’m going to see how well I do just eating good, real food. I also think that I will go with @T3hPwnisher in the knowledge that I am an abstainer. I think I like the idea of not having to worry that I will slide back into food addiction. Much like the booze, what I get is not worth what I suffer.
I will also be keeping this in mind. It’s easy for me to forget that in the world of people that I know, I am the exception. I live outside of what the norm has become and that is a very good thing.
I know this to be true. I’m working on accepting it.
I love that when my mind goes to dark places and I begin the doubt myself and my capabilities there are people here who help to turn the ship around. I have no doubt that I would not be doing as well as I am without the support of this place. Thanks to all!