Guys, I need help.
I’ve just realised how stupid I am and I am starting to think about the big picture when it comes to my health and lifting.
I have been in the gym nonstop for maybe the past 2-3 years. (I have been working out even before that for about 2 years but was suffering from eating disorders)
I have gained over 20 kg, but I honestly don’t look like I lift. Normies will say tha I do, but my muscles are flat and I can’t even get a pump.
I honestly think I have been overtraining or overreaching for a very long time. For these past 2 years I have been always feeling weak, unmotivated, but I often had a surges of energy where I felt great for a period of time and then is started again. I just cant recover properly, my sleep is bad, I don’t even want to think about gym sometimes.
I have just been tested for testosterone and for my age, 21, it’s low - 456 ng/dl.
I am looking at my lifestyle overall, and I am starting to believe that my “overtraining” is a very big contributor to my lowered T. I am really dreading going to the gym right now.
And now, I don’t know what to do.
I need to recover somehow. Even when I sleep for 9-10 hours, I just don’t feel rested and recovered.
I am thinking about just not going to a gym for a while (that’s going to be extremely hard mentally) but I see it as an only option to somehow recover.
The second thing is that I don’t know for how long should I “deload” like this.
It’s 2 years of damage and I don’t think that one week rest can really do anything spectacular.
I am starting to feel hopeless. Will I ever be able to make normal gains in the gym and not feel constantly likd shit?
Diet: 3000-3200 kcal, 180+g protein.
Training: nsuns 531, cap2, cap3, reddit linear ppl,…
Also I’ve got high prolactin levels.
I just feel that I have been somehow accustomed to volume and nothing helps me to grow