I’ve always been very interested in medical stuff. I remember trying to read my dad’s medical dictionary in middle school
That’s why I’ve waited for so long to watch House. It’s hard for me to have it playing in the background because I stop every 5min to google what they’re talking about and go down a pub med rabbit hole
Well, I guess I need to find other hobbies that don’t make sense to schedule (it’s bit difficult not to schedule cooking and blogging and I haven’t had much inspiration to draw- I like fashion sketching )
Yeah, I’ve been thinking about this. In terms of youth, I think I’d regret the physical stuff more than not “having fun”
I “missed” a lot of the “highlights” of high school like prom, parties and I now go to a school where ppl do math problems at parties and is known for their LACK of “fun” in the traditional sense.
The thing is, when I think about it, I get the feeling that I “regret” not going to prom because I’ve been told that it’s a big deal. I don’t actually enjoy a lot of what most ppl (especially my age) find fun or enjoyable. Reading your log, I think you might relate somewhat.
I don’t know how I’d feel tbh. The literature on advanced directives and hot cold empathy gap makes me very skeptical about making predictions about how I will behave
I do think I would probably regret not living long enough to make a meaningful contribution to the world or significant financial contribution to my family , which motivates me to study more and join organizations trying to solve issues I’m passionate about.
The problem with people experiencing mental health problems and the deathbed conundrum is that their real answer (which they will not share) is “I’d feel relief.” or “I’d finally be free” or some iteration of that.
I’ve found that working with alcoholics and drug addicts that when asked that question the answer is “Yes!” and too many times is fulfilled shortly after.
Well having fun doesn’t look the same for everyone. It doesn’t have to involve parties. I don’t know what’s up with you Americans and proms, although TV shows tell me it’s a complicated experience, haha. I had a blast at my graduation ball.
I’m not concerned with you missing out on drinking and partying if you’re not into that. I am concerned with you not chasing fun for the sake of it at all from what we see in here. So much of your thoughts are directed at the future and how to build up to it. Like you’re trying to follow buildings instructions to build a robot.
That’s the most robotic answer I could have imagined (and I’m not building on my metaphor, that’s just a coincidence).
Also it’s beside the point.
We’re just very different people. I realize and respect that. As I said earlier, I’m not trying to stir you into any direction, I am trying to provoke thoughts, I admit in part because I am concerned.
Although I don’t think I’m doing a good job/ getting through to you.
I understand that. I have been pretty open about my health struggles and have actually been deathly sick before (physically and mentally).
I don’t think it applys to Anna (I mean from what we can judge), I just wish we could prevent it from applying in the future.
Oh, me too. I think a little touch of regret is a good thing. It can be a learning tool. Like “Oh, you don’t like that? Then don’t do things that create it”. Change is the work of suffering.
Unfortunately, without the necessary impetus, there is no change. Just suffering.
Anyhow, enough sidetracking. That deathbed conundrum just spurs these thoughts for me.
I’m sure she’ll figure these things out in due time.
yeah… I never thought I was particularly bright, but I thought I at least understood myself. Then I start studying behavioural science and realize that I don’t know ANYTHING.
I guess it’s also part of the way I think- if I don’t understand something, learn about it. I joined a sorority last month, and one of my first reactions was to look for market design papers that might explain sorority matching- turns out there is one!
LOL!!! that reminds me, my econ class was talking about why labour force participation by young people is dropping. My professor no so subtly hinted that the “value of leisure” has increased with a slide containing a picture of a guy playing video games.
I’ve heard the argument that young people are “maturing slower” many times, and am very interested. haven’t had time to trawl google scholar yet though.
Having a laugh every once in a while can be a part in accomplishing the very same.
Not that I believe you have overtly stated it, ever, I get the impression that a lot of what your future intentions are stem from oughts. What you ought to do. Not so much, what you want to do or what aligns with your values and vision but only that which aligns with the demands and expectations you’ve set for yourself.
press went a lot better than expected considering how heavy warming up with the 25lb felt, nothing else of note
Still look crap…
I never thought I’d say this, but I just realized something: math is cool.
It’s the only place where you can “prove” something
In every other context, your either misinterpreting science or making speculations with a lot of evidence
That’s to say, I really regret not listening to my parents and doing more math. All the cool econ stuff requires a lot of math, and I’m enjoying my proofs class even though it’s a massive struggle. I will be studying over the summer- probability theory (for market design) and abstract
@cyclonengineer my diff eq professor last semester is too amazing. He was a great teacher (first time I actually enjoyed a maths course), but just yesterday, I had to download my transcript for an application, and realized that he gave me an A. The cutoff was 87 and I had an 86.2.
Also, my proofs class professor literally gives the answers to the HW in his office hours the day before it’s due. I must say I’m a bit disappointed, even though it’s helped my grade
Math is definitely cool and you are right one of the only place where you can truly prove something. Science “proves” a theory by getting test evidence that conforms with the theory repeatedly. This essentially reduces the the probability a given test will show an unpredicted outcome to very near zero, but one cannot technically say it is exactly zero (those little nuances are awesome, like I can say i don’t believe in past lives but there is still a non-zero probability, however small, that I had one because I can’t prove it conclusively).
I am considering going for mathematics when I go back for a doctorate. It would pair nicely with my two engineering degrees.
I have found most professors if you are close in tough classes will give you the next grade up. An A in diff eq is extremely impressive. I know I didn’t score that highly.
I will also say probability theory is the hardest math I have studied so far. It doesn’t really follow calculus or anything like that. It’s a lot of set theory mixed with some combinatorics.
Yep, which is why I spent winter break studying and will spend summer studying probability.
@Iron_Condor 3blue1brown is AWESOME! There are also professors who put their full classes on YouTube. It’s amazing. The Trev tutor is a life saver right now and Patrickmjt played no small part in me not failing diff eq.
@cyclonengineer to be fair, it took 1/2 the semester for me to be able to understand the homework problems on my own. I was very lucky that my friend (the guy I always talk about) switched into the course at the last second
Also made a friend there who’s a math genius. He’s been helping with my current course
That’s perfectly okay - it’s the whole reason the class exists. Even if you didn’t understand it until the day before the final - you learned it. Nothing worth doing is easy for very long.
yeah… I never thought I was particularly bright, but I thought I at least understood myself. Then I start studying behavioural science and realize that I don’t know ANYTHING.