Sorry to hear about your mom too. Were they able to catch it early?
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Yeah, from what we can tell, it’s stage 2 at most. She’s having the surgery on Thursday and her doctor pioneered the treatment so she should be fine 
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Week 4: Day 1
Jumps: 3x3-25lbs, 2x5-11lbs
Press: 2x2-45lb pushpress, (1x14/side, 3x13/side)-25lbs
Cossack Squat: 3x7/side-45lbs
Pistols: 1x4/side-45lbs- PR!!!
Russian Twist: 4x24-25lbs
- felt quite shit going in, everything pretty tight, press SUCKED, but got it done- push press actually felt quite good, decided to try cossack squats to help with hip shift- had trouble holding the KB and form breaking down so made a deal with myself, 4 pistols and I can finish- @alex_uk STRESS PR!!! Russian Twists not too bad
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Week 4: day2- easy day
27min fitness blender cardio kickboxing workout
Rows: 2x(10/side-45lbs+20 knee tuck crunches)
Shoulder mobility stuff
- Lower body really pissed but had good energy so decided to switch the schedule around a bit, kickboxing felt really good, loosened things up and am now a lot less sore, rows harder than expected but felt good
Weekly checkin:
Weight: 95.4(High sodium and blocked up)
Note: I’ve been eating 16-1800 and even that’s been hard
- still not feeling great and appetite very low- I’m really confused how I ate 2000 every day at school @Voxel is this a sign that my energy requirements have decreased? It doesn’t feel right to essentially force feed, but I also don’t want to “decrease my metabolism” since my activity will likely decrease once classes begin
- I’ve also been feeling unusually sore (muscles and joints)
I have no idea.
Again, you seem to maintain a very reductionist view of metabolism wherein you miss out on how much impact NEAT can have. Maybe you fidgeted a lot in school or something.
Example: I’m running somewhat moderate calories at the moment (35*BW(kg) training day, 25-30*BW(kg) off-day/climbing).
With this caloric intake I’m on my back replying from the couch and after my post-workout meal I tend to just deck out in front of Netflix. When I ran higher calories I’d find myself stretching out to recover better and get less sore and I’d usually be standing at my desk replying to this instead.
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Idk if activity has decreased since I’ve consistently been getting 5-7k more steps in a daily basis and standing a lot more (no sitting for lecture)
How many steps are you walking now per day?
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28-30k, I was averaging 20-24k in school
My main question is: should I try to keep eating 1800 or should I listen to my body and stop when I’m full since I’m not exactly happy with either how I’m looking or feeling (performance has been decent) ?
I don’t think you should eat any less. I think you should maybe exercise less though.
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Week 4: day3
Sprints: 3x20m,2x50m
Pistols: 4x(3/side +5goblet squats)
Push-ups: 2x7/side, 1x6/side, 1x5/side- right failed (mental) this time
Rows: 2x8/side-45lbs, no rest
- felt pretty terrible going in and didn’t get better, pretty happy w/workout progress, definitely took LONG rests, dead afterwards- idk if I’ve ever felt so crap doing so little work…
Just to pick a nit, why so much? I know you are small, but I have a sneaky feeling that you move fast when you walk. You are burning anywhere between 500 and a 1000 calories with all these steps, and I cannot imagine that being a net positive for you.
Also, just a comment that the extra pound or whatever is invisible on your recent pics.
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Either do what you want to do or do what you think is best for you.
You already know what everyone’s opinion here is. and it’s not walking 30k steps per day.
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no shit 
it’s one of those “leave it to a therapist” issues. Cutting back on workouts was already quite hard for me
Hey, I haven’t chimed in much here because there are others that are much more eloquent than me. But I’m noticing a significant pattern in the last few weeks that you may or may not notice, but need to acknowledge and address.
You are saying you feel like shit almost every single day and it appears to have gotten more frequent lately. It shouldn’t happen at any age, let alone to an intelligent and active person your age. That’s your body telling you you’re actively destroying it and that the future you believe you’re planning for is in jeopardy because of your current actions.
Seriously, please get help. Everyone that sees this log knows you have massive potential, both in lifting and in life, and that you’re risking everything by carrying on. You’ve accomplished an awful lot despite your struggles, imagine what you’d be able to do if you truly got healthy.
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Are you in therapy now? Otherwise, I recommend trying to figure out what alternatives a hypothetical psychotherapist would put forward and opt for the least objectionable option that is aiming towards amending the behaviour.
For instance, let’s say someone seeks therapy because they obsess about calories. End goal: not counting calories. I don’t think tracking everything in a calorie tracker (current status) is the one that’d be encouraged. It’d be a matter of finding a least effective dose in the right direction. Is that first step not counting calories on a single day? Implementing rule based eating instead? Or some combination.
In this case, maybe some options would be,
- Cap steps at 8k on a training day.
- Have one off day
- You make up your own option here
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Totally, I’ve seen it too
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probably increased stress from pandemic uncertainty+ (more recently) mum’s cancer+ little bro struggling w’college apps+feeling unproductive/useless
Mentally feel like shit, physically or both?
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both