Am I Crazy???

Training Over 35 Lifter
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[quote]Dr.PowerClean wrote:
Flew out of town for a few days to try to repair my broken family life…signs of hope flickering among the ashes. Gotta speak in tongues here…too much at stake to be putting details onine here. But I’ll let you guys know if I pull a winner out of this hat.

I do gotta tell you guys one thing, just as I shared a good moment with the wife, I said "you know, I think I just might be getting to understand what you want". And she batted her eyelashes and quickly replied back..."Well honey, you know, us women dont even know what we want, so quit trying!"

Analyze that!                     Doc[/quote]

Pilgrim, if you, your wife or anyone else here figures out what the hell women want, by all means - shout it in my ear!

I’d hate to miss out on THAT news.

I gave up trying to figure out what they want a long time ago, then I realised I have no idea what the hell I want, so I’m working on that instead.

EDIT** If anyone else figures out what I want, be sure to tell me that too! Love these antidepressant drugs :slight_smile:

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Doc, did they/do they teach or hit on the differences in the male and female mind in school or is the mind looked at as being the same for both. I’ve read a little on left/right side but that doesn’t appear to have anything to do with gender. I’ve always assumed each sex is more prone to different problems. Women have all the neurosis and we have women to make us crazy.

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[quote]hel320 wrote:
Women have all the neurosis and we have women to make us crazy.[/quote]

Amen.

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Was stopping the HRT your choice or did you have to for medical reasons?

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[quote]hel320 wrote:
Doc, did they/do they teach or hit on the differences in the male and female mind in school or is the mind looked at as being the same for both. I’ve read a little on left/right side but that doesn’t appear to have anything to do with gender. I’ve always assumed each sex is more prone to different problems. Women have all the neurosis and we have women to make us crazy.[/quote]

When I was in school, it was in an era of "gender equality" so any discussion of differences was politically squashed. Over the years, I have read of some differences seen on MRI's or PET scans or on certain other functional tests. But the minute they come up with a difference, someone else gets pissed and "refutes" the data. For instance, there have been several studies indicating men outperform women on math. However, that was recently "refuted" after someone no doubt spent years trying to find some study that showed little statistical difference.

 I think all of this is nonsense. The biggest studies of the past twenty years show that women statistically have twice as much depression as men, men have twice as much alcoholism. Women have 5-10 times as much "Borderline Personality Disorder"(hysterical, self-destructive personalities), whereas men have 5-10 times as much antisocial personality disorders (criminals and sociopaths). 

 There are differences between men and women beyond pussies and dicks, and the differences dont always favor the men. To want to minimize or ignore these differences is just PC bullshit.                                  Doc
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[quote]ecogenx wrote:
Was stopping the HRT your choice or did you have to for medical reasons?[/quote]

Had to, because of concern over possible prostate cancer (PSA was high at 6.9, now down to 2.5). In a month, I get to repeat it, and if its below 2.5 I think I'll be cleared to take HRT again. I was given mixed advice about a biopsy, they are not reliable unless you take EIGHTEEN sites (a major procedure), and that biopsy has a small but real risk of increasing ED, which I already have been stuggling with. No thanks. Ultrasounds and MRI may be an alternative if I get another borderline test result. Doc
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Doc, have you conisdered becoming a coach? I would have loved to have someone like you in high school/college to show me proper form and routines. In 10th geade some of us started cleaning but gave it up because we had no idea what we were doing. I still need a pro in the O lifts like yourself or Hel to tell me proper form.

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[quote]ecogenx wrote:
Doc, have you conisdered becoming a coach? I would have loved to have someone like you in high school/college to show me proper form and routines.

In 10th geade some of us started cleaning but gave it up because we had no idea what we were doing. I still need a pro in the O lifts like yourself or Hel to tell me proper form.[/quote]

 This post made me smile. Thanks ecogenx. Yes, I have thought of being a coach. I love to teach, and I have an opportunity to teach in my professional field of psychiatry coming up possibly very soon. I have often thought how fun it would be to teach my profession half a day and be a lifting coach half a day.

I thought this might also keep me motivated to lift heavy and force my students to really work hard to outclean me!

 I'm still bogged down in my life crises, but its always good to dream, and this dream is far more realistic than some I've had.                                  Doc
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[quote]Dr.PowerClean wrote:
ecogenx wrote:
I have often thought how fun it would be to teach my profession half a day and be a lifting coach half a day. I thought this might also keep me motivated to lift heavy and force my students to really work hard to outclean me!
Doc

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If you care to take on a 47 y.o. lifting student…

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Wouldn’t that be great j_willy to have someone (like Doc) who knows how to really do an O lift show you the correct form. My cleans are a glorified upright row.

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Doc,
I haven’t posted in a while but I too am glad you’re back. I’m re-reading some of your old posts with tears in my eyes…
The adversity I have gone through the last years (and is still ongoing) still pisses me off, but I can’t let it define who I am. I am sure I have done that in the past, and maybe sometimes still do.

Damn, you’re so strong to not throw in the towel after repeated “beatings”. Re-reading your stuff reminds me to walk with my head up, instead of staring at the ground all beaten up. With the 4 bad discs I have, I WISH I could do O lifts, but alas, no dice. Please keep sending your semblance of sanity to share with us (okay, me), as I can still use your “help”.
As always, thank you.

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[quote]KNB wrote:
Doc,
I haven’t posted in a while but I too am glad you’re back. I’m re-reading some of your old posts with tears in my eyes…

The adversity I have gone through the last years (and is still ongoing) still pisses me off, but I can’t let it define who I am. I am sure I have done that in the past, and maybe sometimes still do.

Damn, you’re so strong to not throw in the towel after repeated “beatings”. Re-reading your stuff reminds me to walk with my head up, instead of staring at the ground all beaten up. With the 4 bad discs I have, I WISH I could do O lifts, but alas, no dice.

Please keep sending your semblance of sanity to share with us (okay, me), as I can still use your “help”.
As always, thank you.

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KNB, once a few weeks ago I reread some of my old posts, and I got teary eyed myself. I mean holy shit what the fuck happened to me? I saw that video of me power cleaning 290, and remembering all I thought about at the time was how pissed I was at missing 300 four times afterward.

I am so far removed from that life I had then, in that brief half a year or so of a glorious recapturing of my youth.

I used to read lots of books on mental toughness, but nothing I ever read prepared me for the combination of possible banktupcty, divorce, cancer, return to brutal work conditions and endocrine problems out the ying yang. I havent gone to any shrink because I know they dont have any answers I wouldnt have thought of already.

My therapy is here, and that is why I continue to share personal stuff with “strangers” online. After a time, I can tell the nature of folks like yourself who continue to add to this thread, and the quality of my friends here more defines me than the problems I have. I am determined to make my problems go away, and when they are gone, I will still have my friends.

What have I learned? I have learned the fight is a daily struggle, but you dont have to win the battle every day, you just have to never quit fighting.                              Doc
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[quote]Dr.PowerClean wrote:
What have I learned? I have learned the fight is a daily struggle, but you dont have to win the battle every day, you just have to never quit fighting. Doc

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That’s something for all of us to remember. Thanks

Stu

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[quote]Dr.PowerClean wrote:
KNB wrote:

What have I learned? I have learned the fight is a daily struggle, but you dont have to win the battle every day, you just have to never quit fighting.                              Doc

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Yet another jewel of wisdom I will write in my little book of best practices, best ideas, best ways to cope.

Thanks Doc

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[quote]Dr.PowerClean wrote:
KNB wrote:
What have I learned? I have learned the fight is a daily struggle, but you dont have to win the battle every day, you just have to never quit fighting. Doc

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Doc,…hell, I totally agree.

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I wondered what kind of shrink a shrink sees - I know the Soprano’s shrink used to see a shrink about Tony, who wouldn’t? But I thought there might be some senior shrink or something that the other ‘normal’ ones go to see…

Haven’t got a clue have I ! hmmm.

Anyway, I gave my shrink the flick because she just let me talk and never offered any solutions and it cost me $120 per hour.

I could have talked to an empty chair and got the same outcome.

Good to read your stuff though Doc…
Go ahead, I’m listening…

crosses legs, takes out pencil and scribbles on notepad
:slight_smile:

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Duke, I’ve climbed the shrink ladder so high I’m pretty much the senior shrink, unless I went to some superstars at the National Institutes of Mental Health in Washington D.C. (Shrink capital of the world).

 I saw a psychoanalyst during my training, we all had to "sit on the couch" whether we needed it or not. It was kinda funny, after months of talking about anything and everything, with very little response from this guy, i finally got fed up and said "OK, doc, i've poured my guts out to you, what do you think?"

The guy says..."You're basically normal, except you have something unusual I would call a "bigness complex. You like everything very big, big muscles in you, big weights to lift, big boobs in your women, big dream houses, big dreams period."

I said "Well, you got me there, but is this a terrible thing?"

He thought for a while, and then said..."I'm not sure, I really kinda love big tits too."

 I swear this is true. I havent been to a shrink since for therapy, but if I need some meds, I call up a fellow shrink who is at least competent and he'll help me if i need it. I need some help now from a really smart medical doc, but the mental stuff i sort out here.

Doc

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[quote]
Go ahead, I’m listening…

crosses legs, takes out pencil and scribbles on notepad
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Damn, you’re good Duke; brought him right out his shell. Got time for anouther patient?

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Working hard and watching THE OLYMPICS.

But not just Michael Phelps. Real T men should join me in watching weightlifting! Of course, it won't be shown on prime time, theyre busy showing synchronized diving (no kidding). Go on NBCOlympics.com and you can watch a weightclass every night live on perfect streaming video.

Last night, I felt good about my OL eyes. I picked the eventual winner of the 69kg class, some dude from Moldovo (where the heck is that?) Anyway, this guy was much less athletic looking than his competition, and he clearly was less strong than at least three of his competitors.

But I saw two things, he had ass to grass perfect technique, and he had a look in his eye that he would not be denied. He looked like he would be slaughtered in the Clean and jerk, as he struggled to lift both his first two attempts before the stronger guys even started.

But he did his third at 145kg, clean was so hard the bar did not have any movement when he stood up, and he walked all over the platform trying to hold the jerk. Then the stronger guys all missed their tries at higher weights. Awesome stuff.

 I'll never remember his name, something like Alexsandr Duduglo, but I'll remember that effort. Can't wait for the heavier classes.                              Doc
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Doc,

I was on MSNBC Sunday and they showed the cat from Vietnam win the Silver. He weighed 10 kilos (56Kg actually). His C&J was a thing of beauty.

I did same as you, went to the internet and watched the vid stream.

While you are poking around check out team handball. What a great game! its a combo of basketball, hockey and wrestling, with elements of soccer and lacrosse (but with no sticks).