Well hello there ladies and gents.
Let me start out by saying the week got very interesting and it was all due to me being the center of the universe LOL. K but first today’s insane holy fuck hardest workout ever
Squats
155lbs x 10 sets of 4
bench press
100lbs x 10 sets of 4
smith machine reverse lunge SS bulgarian split squats
10lbs /10lbs
x 8/ x 8
20lbs/10lbs
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8 + BW x 10
leg spreader
100lbs x 10
115lbs x 12
single leg ext.
40lbs
x 2 sets of 8
x 6
leg squisher
something x 2 sets 8 or some shit
step mill intervals x 20 minutes
WT: 124.4 staying the same
this might not really seem like a lot, but it took over two hours because squats took like FOr EVE RRRRRRRRRRRRRR holy hell.
i am so weak
beching took five min LOL
I feel like light weights shouldn’t be challenging even with the tempo aspect, but i have to remind myself these weights were only light when i was 20lbs heavier and not working.
100lbs when im 125lbs for bench would be like 120lbs at 145lbs and for 10 sets of it it would have been equally as taxing, same goes for 175lbs of squat, especially with the tempo added in.
My brain still thinks these are light weights because these were barely even warm up sets for me a year ago.
Oh well, W/E
Shit is crazy hard, this is the hardest program i’ve ever done, have i said that yet? If i have get used to it because ill say it every post, LO>
K Anyway
LIFE
NEWS:
So for whatever reason last sunday i started having a panic attack and was flipping my marbles all over the place. It continued into a very sleep deprived monday and a shaky as fuck, basket case Tuesday.
AS stated previously, we’ve all been having issues with the manager.
He makes offensive jokes, awkward sexual remarks at times, talks negatively about other staff, gossips, so on and so fourth.
People have quit, left home in tears (including me as you know), and things were bubbling up inside all of us.
But it was up to me to explode because i am the most emotionally unstable, or was on that day anyway (tuesday)
He took me into his office to put down some shit i was doing or what have you, and i literally went insane. I let it rip, and can’t even remember a single thing i actually said, it was like a state of shock. I have done this three times in my entire life (one with my most recent shit ex, and one with my kids dad) and now this person. I guess i do it once a decade LOL.
I didn’t care anymore, the work environment was so toxic i wasn’t functioning.
Anyway, i was a merciless bitch, and maybe someday ill remember what i even said.
He avoided me the rest of the day and i actually felt quite happy, like the least anxious ive felt in weeks. I finally slept that night and had absolutely no anxiety when i woke up.
THursday morning he took me into his office and apologized for all his wrong doings. He promised to change, he said i was doing an amazing job and it was wrong of him not to be saying so. He was going to be more careful of his humor and more respectful basically. It’s like a different work place. He treats everyone differently in a good way. He greets people and is respectful towards people he used to treat like garbage, he’s acting more maturely , and isnt bashing staff behind their backs.
I took a huge risk and literally changed the work place for dozens of people (humble brag) .
I also now feel a lot freer and more confident.
Not being scared to go to work is also a pretty big plus, LOL.
K
BYE
and you lift weights and you’re losing weight, and from that recent photo you’ve got one hell of of a body.
