Definitely leaner. Not lying.
I see some forearm veins, delt separation and the abs are looking to pop. Ignore that crazy scale.
Noticeable changes looking good, keep at it! Oh and donāt step on the legoās 
[quote]LiftingStrumpet wrote:
Definitely leaner. Not lying.
I see some forearm veins, delt separation and the abs are looking to pop. Ignore that crazy scale.[/quote]
Youāre my favourite !! swoon
[quote]scoots2 wrote:
Noticeable changes looking good, keep at it! Oh and donāt step on the legoās [/quote]
LOL! WHatās funny is, my son and I made an agreement that I was never allowed to clean his play room. Since I annoy him with my cleaning in every other area of the house, that room was supposed to be sacred.
So he made a mess and I never touched it. He just made a mess for the sake of having a mess, he doesnāt even really play in there.
So one day I was getting anxiety about not having enough chores so I decided since he hasnāt been in there in a month I would clean it.
BAM!
Comes home from school and instantly like WHY DID U CLEAN MY PLAY ROOM!!!
Then he made the EXACT same mess, played with nothing, and just left.
Hasnāt been back in there sinceā¦
Not a play room
A mess room, not for play or cleanliness apparently
=)
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K unleash the beast
(me)
Shoulders
cable rear delt fly
diff. pin heights for each set + drop sets
x 12
x 15
x 20
x 25
x 50
cable one arm lean away lateral raise SS lean away DB lateral raise
5lbs/10lbs
x 12arm/15arm
x 12arm/15arm
x 12arm/15arm
x 12arm/15arm
cable bar pull through front raise SS cable upright row narrow grip
15lbs/30lbs
x 15/20
x 15/20
drop sets
15lbs x 15
10lbs x 15
5lbs x 25
///
30lbs x 20
25lbs x 20
20lbs x 20
seated smith machine shoulder press
10lbs per side x 12
15lbs per side x 10
20lbs per side x 8
22.5lbs per side x 6
drop sets
15lbs per side x 8
10lbs per side x 10
5lbs per side x 12
military press SS plate raise
65lbs/25lbs
x 6/15
x 6/20
x 6/25
straight arm lateral raise/bent arm lateral raise/10&2 raises/front raise
12.5lbs
x 8/8/8/8arm
10lbs
x 8/8/8/8arm
7.5lbs
x 8/8/8/8arm
5lbs
x 12/12/12/12arm
rear DB fly partials SS rear DB fly
25lbs/10lbs
x 25/15
x 25/15
x 25/15
bent arm lateral raise machine
30lbs x 15
50lbs x 8 + 2 + 2 (extended)
30lbs x 15
hammer strength shoulder press machine
30lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8
20lbs
x 12 partials
facepull drop set
30lbs x 20
25lbs x 25
20lbs x 30
K one of the best damned shoulder workouts. Period.
You look great. Lean, muscular, good definition. You are killing it.
K leg day - hamstring focus
Squats
95lbs x 15
115lbs x 15
135lbs x 10
145lbs x 3 sets of 10
7 second pause squats
135lbs x 4
145lbs x 2 sets of 3
155lbs x 2
165lbs x 2
175lbs x 1
barbell hip thrusts
135lbs x 12
155lbs x 12
185lbs x 12
1 drop
135lbs x 15
smith machine wide stance squats SS smith machine split squats SS DB RDL
25lbs per side/25lbs per side/30lbs
x 10/8leg/12
x 10/8leg/12
x 10/8*leg/12
ass machine
drop sets
130lbs x 8*ass
110lbs x 10 + 10 partials *ass
90lbs x 12 + 12 partials *ass
lying leg curl
rest pause
40lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8 + 8 partials
seated leg curl
3 triple drop sets
100lbs x 6/85lbs x 6/70lbs x 6
85lbs x 8/70lbs x 8/55lbs x 8
70lbs x 10/55lbs x 10/40lbs x 10 *held
sorta standing single leg curl
30lbs per sie
2 x 6 *leg
leg spreader
85lbs x 50
70lbs x 25 partials
And thatās it for today folksā¦
I feel like I didnāt work very hard today, I donāt know why
Maybe itās not that I wasnāt working hard, but more like everything felt hard, so I felt like I was being lazy
I usually taken on everything like iām king
but today I was a whiney bitch without passion mostly
Could be the new diet+cardio, etcā¦ take some getting used to
I donāt know
Could just be where Iām at mentally right now
Tired/stressed/not happy
I was thinking yesterday
Why would someone be so cruel to someone who was so nice to them?
I was patient and understanding/respectful and caring for over a year about all the shit going on in his life.
It was always the Eminem show too, nothing stressful in my life was ever discussed.
It was always
wah wah wah, poor me, I knocked up my ex and now my life is ruined.
Work is stressful, wah wah wah.
Debt problems, wah
Friend problems
Wah
Guess what bitch?!
I had stressful shit to deal with over this year too. I never once took any of it out on you, or dumped it on you, or used it as an excuse to treat you like crap.
I mean gah, and then to just dispose of someone so quickly like they meant absolutely nothing to you. What a horrible feeling.
I feel horrible, and stupid.
Also pathetic
Devastated
Disgusted
Grief-stricken
Disappointed
ā¦
Upset
Heartbroken
Shattered
Crushed
Worthless
Empty
ā¦
Other negative words Iām sure
Well, I donāt know
BEY
BEY
BEY
BEY
BEY
BYE
[quote]hkd wrote:
You look great. Lean, muscular, good definition. You are killing it. [/quote]
Thanks buddy !
Holy Batman that is a lot of volume. I think I need to rethink what a āshoulderā day is.
Your progress pic is impressive; whatever you are doing is working.
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Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
K buds
Hey buds
Hereās what I did today
deadlifts
135lbs x 10
185lbs x 10
195lbs x 10
210lbs x 2 sets of 10
super setted wide grip pull ups
x 8
x 6
x 2 sets of 5
x 2 sets of 4
x 2 sets of 3
deficit deadlifts
215lbs x 2
220lbs x 2 sets of 2
225lbs x 1
230lbs x 1
235lbs x 1
t bar row
bar +++
50lbs x 12
75lbs x 8
85lbs x 3 sets of 8
1 drop set
50lbs x 23
lat pull down
27.lbs x 15 *slow neg
32.5lbs x 15 *slow neg
35lbs x 12 *slow neg
42.5lbs x 12 *normal
27.5lbs x 8 *paused + 8 partials
20lbs x 20 more partials cause I didnāt like the previous 8 partials
hammer strength iso lateral row
70lbs per side
3 x 15 *arm
smith machine bent over row SS 2 arm DB row
20lbs per side/27.5lbs
x 8/12
x 8/12
x 8/12
incline DB curl SS BB curl
12.5lbs/40lbs
x 10/8
x 10/8
x 10/8
ropey bicep curl drop sts
25lbs x 8
20lbs x 8
15lbs x 8
10lbs x 10 + 10 partials
hammer strength front pull down machine
30lbs x 15
50lbs x 15
30lbs x 15
back ext. x 20
K, hated everything, Lol.
My workout program needs an overhaul
Two days without my fiery passion and you might as well stick a gun to my temple
Where is THE LOVE
Just gotta totally change up the split
I feel like a wanna-be figure athlete on a wanna- be powerlifter program
I feel big
I want to be small
With secretly huge muscles that come out to play when I lift
BLAM BLIM BLAM BOOM
Thereās where they are
Oh, look at that small girl, WAHHHHHH LOOK AT HER MUSCLES I DIDNT REALIZE
Thatās what I want
Whatever training program gives me that, thatās what I need to be on.
I dunno, Ill figure it out, I always do.
I also want to implement some kind of, dare I say it, normalcy into my training.
Also, Dana Linn Bailey added some new stock to her clothing line and I ordered a pair of HER PANTS, but a size smaller than me, so itās like motivation to stop being hugeā¦
They will be here in 8-15 days
Hereās what
Yesterday afternoon Marshall texted me
After us not talking since he told me he was going back with his ex, and shoving it in my face that it was only physical between us and how dare I get all clingy and gooey
Gooey
I was fucking gooey
But anyway, so he texts me
āHey how ya doinā strangerā
Except he spelt stranger wrong
āHey how ya doin starngerā
HOW AM I DOING
ILL TELL U HOW IM DOING
Fucking mESSY IS HOW IM DOING
I spent a week feeling like my SOUL Was being burned from the INSIDE, unable to expel it from my BODY, with nothing to do but just LIe around in agonizing PAIN
I spent anywhere for 4-6 hours PER DAY crying in my closet because anywhere else was too BRIGHT for my weary, tired, DEAD EYES
I MISSED WOrk
My kid stayed with my PARENTS
I HUGGED TEDDIES
Friends came over and sat in my closet WITH ME trying to console ME
THAT IS HOW I AM FUCKING DOING
HOW ARE You!!!
I hope youāre great !!!
I didnāt answer anything back though ā¦
Wtf random text to make small talk, why?
Not needed
Never needed
Not good
Never good
But I digress,
Thereās an upside
I feel like Iāve lost the majority of my sex drive
I feel sick about it actually
Donāt want none
Going to swear off men for now
Will be very good for me
Maybe for a year
Right around this time last year was when I started being heartbroken by HE on a weekly basis
I think a full year not caring or thinking about the opposite sex and just focusing on my physique goals/life goals will be remarkably rewarding/healthy
Time will tell
Change is in the works
BYE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I think a full year not caring or thinking about the opposite sex and just focusing on my physique goals/life goals will be remarkably rewarding/healthy
[/quote]
This.
And play more with Gabe.
[quote]LiftingStrumpet wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
by the end of this log I will look like a figure athlete.
[/quote]
In. You definitely will!
[/quote]
Deus Vult!!!
K workout planning overload- brain on verge of Xxxxploding
So my not-so-new plan for my workouts will be as follows
Shoulders/cardio
Quads
Back/biās/intervals
Chest/triās
Shoulders/cardio (maybe ill move this cardio to chest day if thereās time since I donāt want the stepmill ruining both my shoulder days :/)
Hamstrings
Back/biās/intervals
Also, I am going to do LESS. I was watching some figure chicks do their routines online and I was like DAMN what these bitches be doinā for their whole workouts I what I be doinā for my dang warm up.
My OCD mentality is that more is always better and less is a waste of time.
But increasing volume AT FIRST, can help get you our of a rut, but when youāre at crazier than crazy levels of volume, some times the one place you need to go is downnnnnn.
Yesterday:
cable station one arm rear delt fly SS lean away cable lateral raise w/holds at the top
1st pin
x 10arm/10arm
x 10arm/10arm
x 10arm/10arm
ropey cable front raise pull throughs SS facepulls
10lbs/
Shit I forget everything
Yesterday is over, itās a different dayā¦
Quad day today:
Squats
All Slow decent (like 3 sec)'s
95lbs x 8
115lbs x 8
135lbs x 4 sets of 8
hack squat machine
45lbs per side x 15
55lbs per side x 15
65lbs per side x 12
45lbs per side x 8 1&1/2 reps
smith machine close stance split squats SS smith machine close stance squats SS DB squat
25lbs per side/25lbs per side/30lbs
x 8leg/10/12
x 8leg/10/12
x 8*leg/10/12
Drop sets DB sq
25lbs x 12
20lbs x 15
ass machine
150lbs
x 10ass
x 10ass
130lbs
x 10 + 10 partials *ass
seated leg press machine rest/pause set
130lbs x rest/pause = 100
single leg ext.
30lbs
x 3 sets of 20 *leg
2 x 8 *leg w/ one leg held and the other one doing paused reps
leg spreader
160lbs x 8
130lbs x 8
100lbs x 8
85lbs x 8 partials
stability ball hip thrusts x 50
K kept rest periods short and kept the pump-a-goinā
Also gained a pound, so kindly fuck off world.
Iāll get there, somehow, somewayā¦
BYE
[quote]2busy wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I think a full year not caring or thinking about the opposite sex and just focusing on my physique goals/life goals will be remarkably rewarding/healthy
[/quote]
This.
And play more with Gabe.[/quote]
Great minds think alike 2B =)
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]LiftingStrumpet wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
by the end of this log I will look like a figure athlete.
[/quote]
In. You definitely will!
[/quote]
Deus Vult!!![/quote]
Youāre posts always make me very thankful for google 
Nice plan. I think less volume could really benefit you for a while. Also, chasing a little boy around counts as cardio 
K so more programming thinkings:
Iāve decided to move on from Dana Linn Bailey and idolize a new lady, Jessie Hildengberg, or something (we can just call her Heisenberg).
I think in too many areas of my life I have a bit of a guy mentality. I read T-Nation all day, and listen to rap music non-stop, grew up playing with all my brotherās friends, watch only action/super hero movies, and I have very few (one) female friend.
I THINK TOO MUCH LIKE A DUDE.
Are any of my thoughts my own?!! JENN I CANNOT HEAR YOU!! You are a woman, for godsakes.!!!
So might not be the most popular opinion, but I am going to make my workouts a little bit more girly, same with my diet.
Not like I am going to do all cardio and eat special K or anything though, LOL .
I also think to make my arms look more the way I want I need to pay more attention to the triceps. I pretty much do like nothing for them because I thought they didnāt matter :s.
Um so today
Chest/triceps/intervals
Smith machine incline chest press
10lbs per side
x 2 sets of 12 (warm up)
20lbs per side
x 4 sets of 12
slight incline DB power fly SS plate squeeze
25lbs/10lbs
x 15/30
x 15/30
x 15/30
cable cross over
started at the bottom and did sets until I was at the top
2nd pin
x 5 sets of 20
hammer strength incline press machine
30lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8
20lbs
x 12 partials
ropey tri ext.
20lbs
x 3 sets of 10
Partial/shitty Dips
x 3 sets of 8
Gonna really work on those
close grip bench
65lbs
x 3 sets of 12
reverse D handle tri ext.
5lbs
x 3 sets of 15 *arm
Hill sprint intervals x 20 mins
K workout was only like 1hr 40 min including cardio, so I am happy
Gonna always try to remember to keep my rest periods shorter, like back in the old days when I was 126lbs 
Upon this rock, I will build my church !!!
Me being the rock
My ideal body being my churchā¦
If you didnāt get it
Heh.
KEEP ATTER
BYE
K today was some stuff
Back/biceps/intervals
Bent over row
95lbs
x 4 sets of 10
Wide D handle lat pull down
70lbs
x 3 sets of 20
EZ bar curls
45lbs
x 3 sets of 10
one arm DB row
40lbs
x 4 sets of 12*arm
hammer curls
17.5lbs
x 3 sets of 15
kayak rows
25lbs
x 15 arm + 15 straight arm
x 15arm + 15 straight arm
x 15arm + 15 straight arm
x 15arm + 15 straight arm
bicep curl machine
45lbs
x 3 sets of 12
chin ups throughout
x 50 all together (mostly sets of 5ās)
step mill intervals x 20 minutes
back ext. 2 x 25
K, I donāt feel like I really didnāt do that much, but I was there for foreverā¦
I donāt even know why, maybe itās cause I felt like I spent an hour looking for the fucking wide D handle thing
CONFLICED about everything in the whole world, thatās whatās up.
Itās like this
You think youāre right about something, or you have this belief in something and youāre almost certain. You believe what you believe is accurate because you trust yourself.
Then you find out youāre wrong, VERY wrong, and then you begin to doubt every decision you make about everything, or every decision you have made thus far.
Well that one thing was super fucking wrong, so how do I know what the hell shirt to wear to the gym today?!
How can I program a workout routine or a diet when Iāve been doing shit for years and never really attained the body that I want.
I think that I do not know exactly where to go from here is all.
But I will say this
As of today, May 5th, it has officially been 12 days since I have texted. And thatās def. progress is something anyway.
ANd sometimes itās super hard cause Iāll be watching my evening Netflix documentary and I feel so lonely and I just want to be like heyā¦imissu
But I canāt
And I have to remind myself HEY Maybe at this exact moment heās with his GIRLFRIEND giving birth to HIS DAUGHTER. How lame and pathetic of me to send a text during that.
Heyā¦ itās just me, that girl you never had feelings forā¦howās the stuff in your life that matters to youā¦(?)
No, grow some balls. Shut up and watch your documentaries without bitching. 
Itās been about African animals as of late.
Before that it was sex traffickingā¦
BEY
BYE
K my workout has been replaying over and over again in my head for the past 7 hours so maybe if I type it out it will go awayā¦
Ooops, I mean, k hey.
Chest /tri:
Incline bench
65lbs x 15
85lbs x 12
95lbs x 4 sets of 8
75lbs x no idea, 15 I think
flat bench
95lbs x 10
95lbs x 10
95lbs x 10
*short rest
DB incline SS plate squeeze
25lbs/10lbs
x 15/30
x 15/30
x 15/30
1 drop where I paused the DBs at the bottom portion of the lift
17.5lbs
x 15
ropey tri ext.
20lbs
x 10 + 10 partials
x 10 + 10 partials
x 10 + 10 partials
cable cross over
low setting
2nd pin x 15
1st pin x 25
middle setting
2nd pin x 15
1st pin x 25
high setting
2nd pin x 15
1st pin x 25
hammer strength incline press machine
30lbs per side
x 12
x 10
x 12
x 12
20lbs
x 15 partials
reverse D handle tri ext. SS DB tri overhead ext.
5lbs/25lbs
x 15arm/10
x 15arm/10
x 15*arm/10
step mill intervals x 20 mins
triangle push ups x 15
Honestly, Iāve been having tricep anxiety
I forgot that I wanted to put more focus on my triceps
I shoulda done dips or something
Iāll do extra tricep shit on my shoulder day (wed)
I know I will, so thatās the big deal.
Fuck shut up.
In scale news:
I have been losing over 0.5lbs per day
Last weekend (sunday) I weighed 135lbs
As of today I weigh 131.8lbs
Holy fuck the woosh effect Iāve been waiting for
UH HELLO YES BODY Iāve been dieting, thanks for finally noticing.
Today is day 19
Once today is completed I will have gone 19 days without sending a text
Which I will because I already crossed today off my calendar as a motivational tool.
I know Iām a mess of a human being.
Hereās my daily thought of reassurance:
We all have issues, we all have demons. Itās how we chose to fight that separates us.
So Iām hurt, but more angry with myself for allowing the hurt to occur, so my response is to fight tooth and nail to improve my body composition in order to feel better about myself.
I see that as a good method
VS like drug or alcohol abuse
Or fucking around to find replacements
Or throwing bricks through windows and sending hateful drunk texts or something
No, Iāll just sit here and feel upset that I should have done dips
Essentially I am slaying my demons with a sword made out of cardboard
Either they are very strong and I am very weak
Or they are very weak and I am very strong
I mean, maybe theyāre children with plastic knives and Iām fighting them with assault rifles. OR AK47ās
PP7
Silenced PP7
Cougar magnum
Laptop gun
Train of thought is officially lost
K one day closer to figure athlete dreams
BYE