Dude, I’ve told them countless times I’m not a clueless woman. Countless. I did get a laugh in through all the rage though. Shop manager brought me “my” parts. I told them those aren’t even mine dude, that’s off a newer truck. He was like but the tech who did the work said they are yours. I told him no, those are from another customer y’all fucked 
. They about melted with embarrassment.
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I cut across a playfield a few weeks backs that nobody was on that everybody plays with their dog on. Some 60ish your old man started yelling at me but I had my headphones in so I pretended to ignore him, he keeps saying shit, so I take them off and he’s yelling “no dogs allowed on the field”, mind you I cut across like 15 feet with him on a leash and this asshole isn’t wearing a mask. So I respond “shut the fuck up”, he says “no dogs on the field” and I tell him to “shut the fuck up and walk away” which he luckily did. Like motherfucker, I know this is Seattle and nobody confronts anybody but I don’t have time for your old ass being a nitpicker.
Felt good to get a little angry though.
Doesn’t it though? It was suuuuuper strange to get to this point and not hit anybody or get hit. First time I’ve got to that level mentally and nothing (physically) happens, my body was like wtf bro you brought me this point and now we leaving!?
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Yea, super cathartic. I was thinking about signing up for some form of fighting/marital arts before covid just to let a little rage out but obviously that didn’t happen. Still might try at some point later this year.
Most altercations I’m in don’t turn physical, partially because I know getting punched sucks and partially because people think better of it.
Dude me too! I really want to do BJJ but I’m not going to until I get to a point where I’m somewhat happy to just maintain the physique I have, so who knows when that will be.
Dude same here. I used to be all for it, then I got my ass kicked. Like put in the hospital and permanent damage kicked . I realized then that I was only gonna fight if I had no other choice. Besides getting hurt or killed, you could be sued into oblivion should it go sideways
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Ya those shakes you describe I’ve only ever had after actual fights.
I get them before and after lol. Adrenaline kicks in and I go crazy. Usually my neck will get really stiff and I lose the ability to make small gentle smooth motions. But the big quick ones work well
Switch that mindset, bro. You have as much muscle as you have, being terrified of something that has already happened is silly. We’ve all seen pictures of you. You’ll look sick if you’re cut up, guaranteed.
Yeah dude, my hands shake uncontrollably pre fight, and afterwards I’m like a junkie. Adrenaline is wild stuff. I’m definitely at a place where despite wanting to be dangerous, the goal is to never get in another fight for the rest of my life.
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I appreciate the sentiment, but I’m highly doubtful of this. But we shall all find out here in a couple months.
As to the fighting, yea man that’s how I am. I have zero desire to be in another fight or even a bitch fest like I was in today. It’s so outside my normal persona. I’ve very easy going and along for the ride kinda guy. Like, I’ll have the worst service and food at a restaurant, never say anything and still leave a good tip just chalking it up to they’re human too and have bad days but this was another level
I’m pretty sure that’s because, like me, you have a mild image disorder where you always feel small, and I’m telling you, I’ve looked at a dozen pictures of you, and you are carrying enough mass to look fuckin awesome if you don’t duck out of the cut when the arms and legs start to lose their fat. The fat you most want to lose will only disappear at the end.
I’m all for building, and I am NOT condoning fat loss for everyone (especially anyone reading this that knows I’m against it for them), but in your case, you will look great if you commit and don’t puss out at the halfway point where everyone looks undesirable because the padding on the beach muscles is gone but the padding where the dad bod resides is hanging around.
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I’m hoping my arms don’t take too big a hit. I know my legs won’t as I’m most lean there and always at some point during the day have raised/visible veins all over them. I’ve been telling myself my arms won’t take too big a hit because on top of the bicep and bottom sides of my triceps the skin is really thin and I can’t feel much, if any fat. I’m hoping I got lucky and all the fat is beside the muscle and just covering up the definition
It’s definitely something I’ve thought about though. I know there will be weird points as I get to and break through different levels of dieting. It’s all new and scary, I really do appreciate the kind words and insight though!! I really wish crash diets were ok. I’d love to knock this out in 2 weeks my ability to starve myself is actually pretty good, even if my physique states other wise
Whether your arms take a “big” hit or not, objectively speaking, they will 100% lose more fat than you want them to. I’m not trying to be pessimistic, I just have experience with the mindset - hoping for what won’t happen is a one-way trip to disappointment. I’ll stop badgering you, but I think someone else will eventually chime in and echo my sentiment - you’re not part of the “rate my physique” group where a kid asks if he can cut and we have to inform him that he has nothing to cut to.
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I really do appreciate it man. And I have first hand knowledge of the feels you get when you lose a ton of weight only to find out you have nothing. It was the worst feeling of my life. That’s actually what led to me finding this place and signing up for the Transformation in 18 or 19. I think that’s where a lot of the fear comes from, as I’ve been down this “I’m gonna lose weight and look great on the beach this summer for the first time in my life!” Once already, and that ended with hating myself that much more. If I wasn’t able to look back at pictures and prove my mind wrong, I’d tell you I genuinely see myself at that same point. The mind is a powerful thing, and when it goes against you it’s wild!
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Yea 100% echo flaps points. Especially the bit about getting past that spot where you look worse (about 4-6 weeks for me). I’ve never really got past that point always screws with my head too much. But you’ll definitely look good afterward. Do it and I’ll live vicariously through your cut!
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Have shredded 15 inch arms will make them look like they are 17 inch arms. And just get your shirts tailored if it freaks you out.
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Leg day at the house
Back squat
Worked up to 225 x 15 (on accident lol)
Finished with 135 x 30
Only thing that felt worked was lungs, lower back, and shoulders/arms going completely numb sucked
Did a lot of lower rep work working up, my knees needed a jump start today. Did a single at 315 just to satisfy the voice in my head that said staying at 225 was stupid . Give him just a little taste and keep him at bay!
Did some leg extensions as well.
Also did a good bit of bicep and tricep work
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Yesterday I was so busy working on my truck and trying to sell my truck that I didn’t get to workout OR meal prep. Today I sold the truck but had to travel, then had to deal with the dealership on my other truck and go up there, then I was tasked with picking up dinner for the woman and my mother, who is now living with me briefly 
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That said, had a short but great shoulder and chest workout, I unfortunately didn’t get to work arms but I’ll kill them double tomorrow.
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Curse of the natty
Bulk up to fuck and start to feel full house
Shred it down and realise you out on about 4 grams of lean mass 
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No kidding man! I actually have a dexa scan appointment next week and I think I’m going to cancel it. I’m worried my bulk results will leave my hopes of 10lbs of lbm crushed to tiny little sad pieces
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