Open book baby. Whatcha wanna know? Tiddy shot or bad orgasm?
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Hell, why not both?
Tiddy shot was upper pec. When I flex there’s definitely muscle there, but when relaxed and pinning idk if 1/2” got it deep enough. My hormones are definitely out of whack after those two.
Orgasm was hormone related I think. We started messing around, lil buddy working good. Go to have sex and lil buddy wasn’t working good. She was able to coax him up with words of affirmation and suction.
Sex went good but o came close to finishing and then kinda did, but it wasn’t a real orgasm if that makes sense. Like a half fake one. Ultimately gave up and apologized for my shitty performance, which apparently wasn’t needed but still, made me a little self conscious. Edit: this wasn’t our first time so at least I had previous good performances to fall back on 
Normally it’s a chore to finish, so this was a little different and kind of scary honestly.
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Mate, thanks for oversharing.
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Anytime man. Lemme know if there’s anything else you wanna know
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Is all of this really any more fun than the simple life?
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I want the simple life man, I really do. But something is wrong with me and I always find a reason why I don’t want to pursue anything long term. Idk why, I wish like hell I knew. There’s no telling how many I’ve said no to that could have been the one. It’s a great source of anger and sadness for me
Edit: is that what you were referring too?
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Yeah man, the late nights with skeezers, injections, weird hormonal reactions. All that stuff. I know risky behaviors and chasing action can be exciting. But are you having any fun?
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Idk what a skeezer is… no, it’s not fun. I’m very introverted and would rather lay in bed at home. Turns out it’s hard to find your future wife that way though. Some times it ca. be fun, but it’s mostly just depressing.
The drugs are stupid. I’m not getting anything from them, and if I do ever end up looking the way I want to, it’ll be in 10+ years or never. Idk why I do them. Keep hoping I’ll be one of those guys that has a positive reaction and gets big
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Ok I googled skeezer. None of these women are skeezers. They are all good women, with amazing jobs, and most are highly educated with their lives in order.
I guess the way I talk might make them sound that way but I’m the only fuck up in this equation.
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Save it for the onlyfans 
This log has been rated R for a while now Anna
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We have talked about this before, and I agree. It just isn’t what I expected. One of the big let downs I’ve experienced. The only bonus is I don’t lose size after the blast, but that’s probably because I just didn’t put much on in the first place. Being lean is my only path to a good physique. I don’t need blasts for that. I honestly just think I might be done with blasting. Like I can do it for the next 4 years to be an extra 5 lbs heavier. Not worth it IMO.
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Yep. Some boat bro. I also plan on trying out the super lean look very soon if I do blast again, it’ll just be arms 4 days a week and nothing else
Ya’ll ever consider a few year long gaining phase? Don’t even need the drugs.
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I did that lol. You can see my full bear mode pic I posted in my training log (just posted it today). I got strong and fat, and some muscle too.
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I have. Unfortunately do to self control and poor choices I always start the gaining phase at too high of a body fat. This summer I plan to be leaner than I ever have before and I think that will put me in a better place to gain and be incredibly committed without fear of getting too fat
You could always address the fear too versus the leanness.
I genuinely think one of the biggest favors I did for myself was not have abs for the majority of my 20s. Now I can’t NOT have them in my 30s. And training while smashing the food is addicting.
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Well I’ve never had abs. But maybe I’ll get super lean and then ride the gain train for a while and spend my 40’s sexy
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Me neither. Then I did. That’s what I’m saying, haha.