I don’t either, but if you are taking it every 12 hours, then that’s the levels you want to know, not that your levels are at right before you take your morning dose. You are trying to get dialed in here.
You want to know where free t is at during the peak.
I think the cream will work just fine for you and there might not be anything wrong with your dose at all. You just need to stick with it. you just dropped another T and your body needs to adjust. literally take 2 clicks am and pm and just stick with it for 3 months no matter what.
You just came off injections then started cream. You said the cream felt great, but you were coming off injections and you think thats why. So that means you had higher levels. Your body is also now having a new dose of T and anyone would expect fluctuation in well being,
A guy i know had anxiety on T and he found that magnesium glycinate helped… I think you have tried it, but maybe you need to check about the quality of the product and maybe make sure you are getting enough of it. Supposably the body loses this magnesium on T.
I had symptoms when i started T. I would get overwhelmed in large crowds and you could call it anxiety. I used my brain and thought through it. Today a year and a half later i do not experience that anymore. I also had water retention, problems sleeping and libido wasn’t always around. I wouldnt of ever been able to take the dose im taking today. imagine if i had just quit because of these issues or changed my dose trying to alleviate every ache and pain like you are.
I really think many could get through the anxiety if they would put mind over matter. Not sure about you, because the thoughts are strong in your head. It seems every time you start a new dose/routine you find every little thing that bothers you. Its like you are waiting for it, you are checking and waiting for it to happen.
In my case i could of done the same, but i was so desperate for it to work i didn’t care if i stayed up all night freaked out with anxiety. I would pray and talk to myself “this is a hormone your body needs. this is an adjustment period. shut the fuk up and man up you puss. you need this … badly”.
Try it man. Otherwise you are doomed to knee jerk reaction protocols and constant changing of your dose based on whatever symptom or feeling you are having.
Yes im saying man up .yes i realize anxiety is no joke, but theres also people who do not have mental fortitude and sometimes that makes all the difference. Not sure which categorey you fall in, but thats my suggestion.
Stick with it for another 2 - 3 months. fuck it all. if you have anxiety get over it. This too shall pass is a term that works.