[quote]Makavali wrote:
[quote]Brother Chris wrote:
I’m out of shape and fat.[/quote]
Squats.
And milk.[/quote]
That’s no problem, it’s just the out of shape and fat part, which needs squats and hills…lots and lots of squats and hills.
[quote]pushharder wrote:
[quote]Iron Dwarf wrote:
[quote]pushharder wrote:
[quote]Christine wrote:
Hate is too strong of a word.
I dislike that I always point out others’ mistakes.
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One of the things you’ve pointed out in a few cases in the past is that you think I’m wrong about some things. And you know that’s not true. You know it.
And that is precisely the thing I hate about myself…that I’m not wrong enough to be normal. It’s a curse I tell ya. A curse.
As I’ve told you before I remember the last time I was wrong.
It was back in '88.
It occurred when I thought I was wrong about something and later it turned out that I wasn’t. So I was wrong about being wrong. THAT still bugs me to this day.
Know what I mean, Mitz?[/quote]
I was wondering where you’ve been, old chap! I miss your posts around here.
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It’s not much fun to post here anymore since the T-Nation Powers That Be put me on delayed (pre-moderated) posting for inexplicable reasons not to mention no PM or LiveSpill abilities. I’ve repeatedly requested an answer from them but to no avail.
So I’ve responded by posting less and refusing to purchase Biotest products. This after being a steady consistent buyer for almost a decade (Level 4 which means several thousand dollars).
I don’t know what else to do short of actually telephoning Colorado Springs.[/quote]
Same here. I no longer use Biotest products, nor do I post as much. I still have PM’s, but just about ANYTIME I post anything “risque”, my post is either deleted or moderated. The pendulum has swung too far the other way IMHO. I still like the folks here, but I don’t feel quite as “at home” like I used to. I hope you’re doing well, Push - I’ll call you this weekend to catch up.
As for what I hate about myself… It’s hard to really “hate” anything - I’ve spent decades shoring up my perceived weaknesses and I’m a better man for it, so it’s hard to hate what ultimately moved me in a positive direction. Things that could still use improvement are:
-My mommy issues. Although I’ve come along way, I still have some fucked up views about women, although I’m FAR better than I was a few years ago.
-My IQ drops 20 points when I sit down in front of a computer
-I’m “old school” to a fault in many areas
-Staying in the Mortgage business as long as I did - I passed up a few opportunities that wont ever come back, only to have regulation changes take my mortgage career from me - I should have see that coming.
-I have very little tolerance for the liberal attitude/sense of entitlement that is so prevalent today’s America. It’s one of the few things that makes me angry.
[quote]pushharder wrote:
[quote]Christine wrote:
Hate is too strong of a word.
I dislike that I always point out others’ mistakes.
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One of the things you’ve pointed out in a few cases in the past is that you think I’m wrong about some things. And you know that’s not true. You know it.
And that is precisely the thing I hate about myself…that I’m not wrong enough to be normal. It’s a curse I tell ya. A curse.
As I’ve told you before I remember the last time I was wrong.
It was back in '88.
It occurred when I thought I was wrong about something and later it turned out that I wasn’t. So I was wrong about being wrong. THAT still bugs me to this day.
Know what I mean, Mitz?[/quote]
Yeah, I know what you mean, but you’re mistaken. Turns out you were wrong.
Not only that, but you were wrong about not being wrong.
Does that make you right?
I can get a little over-involved in fixing things for people. I don’t know that I “hate” this about myself as I think it’s a positive trait in many ways, but I do get frustrated with myself. Sometimes the pressure my passion for growth inadvertently places on people is overwhelming, or worse, shaming. Which sucks! I hate that I do that, well-meaning though I am.
[quote]Derek542 wrote:
[quote]Nards wrote:
[quote]Derek542 wrote:
[quote]Testy1 wrote:
[quote]Iron Dwarf wrote:
Resume thread. Apologies for the derailleur. [/quote]
No problem, just try to stay in one gear.
I don’t get google+ either. Do you communicate with Derek, Hungry etc… outside of here? How do you know their names to connect with them? The only person from here I am friends with on Facebook is Nards and that is because he put out an open invite.[/quote]
Yes he does.
Nards is just a FB slut is the only reason he talks shit about G+[/quote]
I have 500 friends …ALL HOTTIES![/quote]
Uh I am one of them Nerd, I mean Nards. I am far from a Hottie[/quote]
Don’t sell yourself short!
I hate my hotheadedness. It’s really hard to control.
[quote]Derek542 wrote:
[quote]CargoCapable wrote:
Maybe if you work on 1 number 2 will fix itself, just saying.
I hate that I’m so fucking smart.[/quote]
Lol I have a Latina wife and a 16 year old daughter that is a fucking clone. I am the referee between the two to prevent a knife party.
Also I am the regional manager for a OccMed company, so I am constantly having to referee between my PA’s and NP’s that work for me and our clients.
So only way to fix 1 and 2 would be to get a divorce and join the peace corp.[/quote]
Lol. Sounds rough
I think all of us on T Nation would likely say that we are hotheaded, angry, or have a bad temper.
The best thing about that is at least knowing that you do. The worst is the person that flips out, breaks things or even hits other people yet never admits they were angry at the time. They excuse their actions by simply giving the reason they were angry.
Here’s an old, wise Buddhist story on this:
[b]A Zen student came to Bankei and complained: ‘Master, I have an ungovernable temper. How can I cure it?’
" ‘You have something very strange,’ replied Bankei. ‘Let me see what you have.’
" ‘Just now I cannot show it to you,’ replied the other.
" ‘When can you show it to me?’ asked Bankei.
" ‘It arises unexpectedly,’ replied the student.
" ‘Then,’ concluded Bankei, ‘it must not be your own true nature. If it were, you could show it to me at any time. When you were born you did not have it, and your parents did not give it to you. Think that over.’ "[/b]
I hate that when I am overwhelmed I do nothing for fear of making the wrong decision.
< I wasnt always like this.
[quote]Up wrote:
I hate that when I am overwhelmed I do nothing for fear of making the wrong decision.
< I wasnt always like this. [/quote]
Then make a decision but not a far reaching one that is easily reversible if necessary.
Standing still while on open ground and under fire is kind of a decision too, just not a very good one.
[quote]pgtips wrote:
Also I hate the fact that I’m leaving home in a couple of weeks and I’m happy I’m not going to see my family much. Even though I love them to pieces I can’t wait to not having to see them and talk to them everyday.
Is this bad?[/quote]
When I moved out to college I didn’t get home sick ONCE.
Not at all.
I think it just depends on the type of relationship you have with your parents/what you had back at home.
[quote]caveman101 wrote:
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Procrastination - I almost screwed myself in the last 2 months of Uni because of this. What makes it worse is that I work really well under pressure, so I can stupidly justify to myself about putting things off.
Thankfully I have stopped this. -
I am a serious morning person. If there is work to be done, I have to start it before 10am, otherwise I find it incredibly difficult to get going.
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I have these EXACT issues.
Also:
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I worry about what other people think WAY to much. As a result I am overly polite.
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I am TERRIBLE when it comes to talking to women I find attractive. If I don’t find them attractive or it is in a business/official setting, no problem. If I find them interesting, I’m fucked.
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I alternate between being overly critical of myself and thinking to much of myself.
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I’m not very consistent. I learned along time ago that consistent effort leads to great results. But I’m too fucking lazy to put in that effort.
Essentially I put procrastination and inconsistency as polite ways of saying lazy. One of my favorite sayings is “A man does what he needs to do when needs to do it, even if he doesn’t want to.” It should probably say “Especially if he doesn’t want to.”
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I have terrible verbal communication skills; I stutter and have difficultly finding ways to put my thoughts into words. (Once again, especially around women I’m interested in. Fuck me.)
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I think I am way smarter than I am, and occasionally speak condescendingly to people as a result. It makes me an ass, and I hate it. Sometimes I do it to loved ones and that REALLY pisses me off.
I hate that I am a slob. I hate how emotional I have been lately.
[quote]jp_dubya wrote:
I hate that I am a slob. I hate how emotional I have been lately. [/quote]
Test levels?
[quote]Nards wrote:
[quote]GorillaMon wrote:
I don’t like the fact that I sweat absolute buckets, even when I’m not particularly hot/anxious etc.
My lack of social stamina can also hold me back in certain situations.
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That must be pretty bad if you sweat in England.
I sweat a lot too. But I currently live in Asia. One time I was so wet that when I went into work a secretary asked if it was raining out. I couldn’t loosen my tie as it had tightened so bad and I later had to cut it off.[/quote]
Well, it can be pretty embarassing…though, generally not too bad.
Injustice is also something I find very hard to accept & move on from…I mean, this can be a postive in some ways (makes me incredibly stubborn, imbues me with an unswerving conviction) of sometimes what what needs to be done…then again, it can also be very self-destructive.
It’d be nice if we had an emotional ‘dimmer switch’ for dealing such thangs.
I hate that my self love is so embarrasingly conditional. <— Alanis Morissette quote.
She and I are one…
If I do not have a ‘perfect’ day IE perfect workout, my kid and I don’t argue and he stays content every minute of the day, I am not bloated once, I accomplish things for almost the entire day and I never have a lazy moment. Then, AND ONLY THEN, my brain will love me andit will allow me all the simple pleasures in life. Like using the expensive shampoo,sleeping on the fluffiest pillow, or guilt-free tv watching, etc…
BUT, if I have a shakey rep, or ANYTHING goes slightly off the course of perfection, I treat myself like shit. I’ll insult myself all day/call myself fat/lazy/ use the shitty shampoo or WHAT HAVE YOU.
It makes life stressful cause it’s like I’m walkin’ on a tightrope and I better make damn sure I don’t fall or the circus act that is my life will all come CRASHING DOWN>…
MWAHHAaaaaa
ANd my wrath is horrid, simply horrid.
UMM What else…
I hate my triceps I guess.
YA BYE!
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I hate that my self love is so embarrasingly conditional. <— Alanis Morissette quote.
She and I are one…
If I do not have a ‘perfect’ day IE perfect workout, my kid and I don’t argue and he stays content every minute of the day, I am not bloated once, I accomplish things for almost the entire day and I never have a lazy moment. Then, AND ONLY THEN, my brain will love me andit will allow me all the simple pleasures in life. Like using the expensive shampoo,sleeping on the fluffiest pillow, or guilt-free tv watching, etc…
BUT, if I have a shakey rep, or ANYTHING goes slightly off the course of perfection, I treat myself like shit. I’ll insult myself all day/call myself fat/lazy/ use the shitty shampoo or WHAT HAVE YOU.
It makes life stressful cause it’s like I’m walkin’ on a tightrope and I better make damn sure I don’t fall or the circus act that is my life will all come CRASHING DOWN>…
MWAHHAaaaaa
ANd my wrath is horrid, simply horrid.
UMM What else…
I hate my triceps I guess.
YA BYE![/quote]
Have you considered self flagellation?
I have trouble letting go of friends who are bad for me.