Not much to update, just wanted to tell about how i feel.
I do feel very very good. As in - general well being. I am never really tired.
Either its because i am less toxic because i dont take so many drugs, or its because i have found optimal training intensity, or its because injecting double dose GH EOD instead of ED is actually letting GH work better(as it is supposed to do by a popular belief) or because i am not stuffing in so much food anymore or a mix of all these factors, but i go to sleep early, i wake up with no alarm after 7 hours, and i feel good whole day, no matter if i train, do cardio, or whatever - i just feel GOOD and i am never tired, or broken.
I also do a lot of stretching so i am never stiff and tight, i can move around much easier and i just overall feel very very good.
Libido is on the low side tho - i really want to have sex just once a day. Twice - topsā¦ Used to do 3-4 times before, so this is a crappy side effect but other than that i feel really good.
you think that 3-4 times per day having sex is supossed to be normal haha ?
I agree, hard to know what it is with so many variables. Great that you feel good on a lot less though.
TBH, blasting lots of gear is becoming less appealing to me. I am going to do one in the fall though. Iāll probably wait until it starts getting colder when I naturally gain a couple lbs. Holidays are a nice time to do it. No guilt about over eating then.
For guys our age, this is probably pretty normal. Some are much lower than this, so you still have a healthy libido.
well my gf is used to that, so right now she feels that i am not attracted to her or smthā¦ it was always the norm, yesā¦ most of my lifeā¦
a few years ago, i would be doing 3-4 different girls every day(mostly same ones not an actually new one every time) and it felt barelly sufficient.
well, on 400mg of test i was hoping to be over the NORMALā¦ i believe this is normal for naturals or trtā¦ but i think this might improve - as sides from blasting for years straight and tren for many years, would probably have a longer hangover than 2 monthsā¦
me too, but thats because i am looking into slinā¦
i will be testing it out as soon as i lean out a bit, and will be ready to try to bulk on same test dosage, just adding slin EOD after huge meal, before strenght trainingā¦
having sex with different girls vs a long time girlfriend is really different.
was not for me, noā¦
yes on gear. But āānaturalāā trust me it is haha
but yeah i understand when you say that on 400mg of test you shouldnt just feel normal
yeah, but i hope my body will clear out and maybe in 4-6 more months it will get better, cuz 400mg test is still A LOT of testā¦ i guess my body is just used to 1g of test and 750mg of tren, and it will take time for it to understand that 400mg is still very very muchā¦
yes but the good news is that you are in a good mood, nice night sleep etc etc
Hi Hank have you been watching any of the John Meadowsās videos since he just died in his sleep at 49? While watching this one I could not get you out of my head. Donāt ask me why I canāt tell you other than on one post you mentioned longevity, living past your 30ās I hope you find the video informative. If you didnāt you donāt need to tell me.
John meadows also had a hereditary clotting disorder BUT used way less than bank
I believe his cause of death was a pulmonary embolism, likely mediated by the disorder.
I know his name and has seen a few vids but not really know much. I dont really follow much to bodybuilding. Strenght is my game.
As to bodybuilders dying, i have no shock. In the old days bodybuilding went hand in hand with partying. Also diuretics are very harmfull.
Actually, in my country there is a guy, who looks very very much like John Meadows(only taller a bit) and he is 53 or smth, still working in police.
Also we have this guy, who got the first actual world wide pro card in our country :
He is 64 and competing every year
I think the difference might be the fact that they didnt had money for the good party drugs in the 80sā¦
American top bodybuilders outside the bodybuilding are the same as junkies.
I saw a video of Piana being barelly able to stand how drugged up he was.
Ofc, i dont know about Meadows and if he had never touched a snort, i am sorry. But since we dont know, its all just speculation.
Anyways, 49 years is a good life for someone as famous as him. I would have wished at least 10 more years for him tho.
Dont really see how this has to do anything with me, as he is a pro bodybuilder with all the sides of being a pro.
I am an avarege gym Joe,. my whole lifetime wont sum up his bodybuilding career, drug and stresswise.
You canāt really compare an occasional ecstacy tablet or a line or two with grams of tren
Within the 80ās, the party drugs of concern for a bodybuilder wouldāve been the stimulants and alcohol. Qualludes, weed and whatnot probably arenāt going to cause a heart attack or a Stoke.
maybe, i dont know much about that stuffā¦ all i know is that bodybuilders tend to drop dead, while people who are into strenght and athleticism tend to live a bit longer - i think thats because they also do more cardio, and since they need to perform, they cant allow themselves to drink and snort so much.
I think pro wrestlers are simmilar to bodybuilders - thats why those sometimes drop dead after 40ā¦
ALSO, i think its genetic anywaysā¦ my parents smoke for 30 years, and i wish some of them would get sick or die(not the best relationship) but they sometimes seem healthier than othersā¦ their friends - vegetarians and yoga masters died 7 years ago, while they keep on being fat and smoking with absolutelly no health issues.
I think Meadows would have died 5 years later if never done bodybuilding. Not 20 years later. But thats all speculation, of course. I dont want to speak anything bad about a dying person because if he lifted, he was a part of our family, and we all deserve respect and peace.
Thereās a āfallacyā many of us are prone to when it comes to health as the first thing we do is search for differences rather than commonalities. It makes sense, as individual circumstance matters a lot but we should still always look at confounding factors between them and us.
A prime example would be me and a person who died of the novel chinese corona virus. Iād ask first āOk, but how old was he?ā. Implying that if the person was old which Iām not, then it would not happen to me. It very very likely wouldnāt but it doesnāt mean it canāt.
Same with John. AAS use and heavy lifting is what you guys have in common. Age separates you two. Now you are searching for differences like party drugs. I donāt think John was big on party drugs (I donāt know for sure but what Iāve read and seen, I wouldnāt expect it). The other difference is his genetic disorder which you donāt have.
I think @hrdlvn doesnāt give a bad example what could happen if we are not careful. Look for commonalities sometimes, just to change perspective.
I keep saying years off the back end of my life are worth it to achieve and maintain a certain look now.
I meant dying at 65 not 70 for example. Iām 48.
Every time someone my age goes to sleep and doesnāt wake up it bothers me.
Hank correct me if I am wrong but I thought you posted you have a heart condition and even has surgery for it.
Yea, i kind of think the same. Of course i understand that when you are 65 you want to live 10 more just as much as anyone, but i also hope of going fast, like droping dead or just not waking up one morning. If that happens, i would be ok to change my 80s for some good 30sā¦
Yes, but it has nothing to do with steroids, cholesterol or anything.
I had tissue in my coronary artheries that has never been seen in anyones artheries, thats why my doctor asked if he can use my case in his international whateverthefuck doctors do there. It was either a mutation that can happen any time, since we dont know WHY it happened and how fast it did get so bad, or it was a genetic problem that started at birth.
I read that simmilar cases have been found only in dead new borns. Like the kids didnt survive the first 6 months or so. So maybe i was supposed to be one of those kids but i just had it a bit less at start, idk.
Anyways, i have done shitloads of steroids and almost all my lifes intense cardio AFTER all that crap, and i am still fine. I remember not being able to get up the stairs without chest pain before i died on the table, so every day i almost puke because of cardio intensity, i kind of assure myself that i am fine for now 
UPDATE :
Did my bloodwork. Fasted cholesterols look a bit better than usual(i usually did them not fasted) so that is nice.
Liver values seem to have risen but i did full hour of cardio of different intensities before that so maybe that fucked em a bit(i have read that intensive training does show up as higher liver enzymes).
Also, my e2 has gone up, even tho i started taking 1/4 of anastrozole EODā¦ i will go up to 1/4 ED and see how that goes.
IGF is still crap. My experiment with EOD injections of GH seems to just be more convenient and not worse than ED, so i will stick to those just to not pin ED.
Since IGF is shit i will be looking into slin during next weeks. Since i am on a cut right now, i will be doing 1iu per 10g of carbs of fast acting slin, 15min after my breakfast right before my weigh training sessions.
I do feel friggin nice tho. All the time. Energetic and fresh all the time. Never tired.