Hey Hank, I didn’t answer sorry. You got great advice.
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I see your laboratory is still shitty haha. I guess it’s as we said earlier, as soon as supra, they don’t get it right.
You don’t have kids, he does.
Not a knock at you, different priorities. I don’t intend to father a child, and even if I did adoption would likely be my only method of doing so.
The dynamics of the familial unit are statistically of high significance when it comes to raising a morally competent child. I don’t agree with his philosophy regarding raising a daughter vs a son… I think as a parent it is your duty to support your child through thick and thin regardless of gender.
He wants to be alive to see his son graduate, to see his kids grow and blossom/reach various milestones culturally associated with significance. I’ve never been able to fathom why these milestones are particularly important considering almost everyone goes through the same meaningless cycles prior to death… But that’s just me
Walking around with a RHR of 100 year round and a BP of 150/90 + polycythemia and probably fucked up lipid yet hoping to be alive 18 guy years down the line… let alone thirty s is like loading up a six cylinder revolver with five bullets, spinning the barrel around, pulling the trigger and hoping for the best.
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Should be noted not everyone gets polycythemia. Individualistic predisposition to various side effects will differ dramatically from person to person.
My haemoglobin hovers between 130-145. I’m not developing a HCT of 60% anytime soon
Granted I don’t blast grams of gear either.
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Yeah, i undrestand why Seth does what he does. I just said - i cant relate. I dont have kids, nor intend to, and actually i think i probably even cant as i have never done anything to preserve my fertility.
Most women in my dateable age range either dont want kids if they dont have em, or already do, which is also very fine for me. I dont have nor money nor patience for kids - i barelly pull my own shit together. I sometimes get mad at my cat cuz she wants some extra love, so i just dont have any interest in kids.
That doesnt mean i would want to drop dead at 50… Thats why im lowering doses. As weird as it sounds i trully believe i havent done much harm, cuz i passed my heart tests much better on full blown tren cycle, than i did em before. My liver and cholesterol are more or less the same for the last 10 years(everything is a bit off but its not progressing, its just 10 years same amount of “off” but still not terrible).
I will be looking into that at the end of this year anyways, because as i said - i am looking to get a bit stronger each year and in my 50s also.
I will be trying to find a good middle ground of my love for this lifestyle and my hopes to live somewhat longer…
With that said… if i drop dead at 45 because of all this, i would not regret anything.
The way i was before i started all this was just miserable.
I am no good at anything except for my charisma for talking but the way i was born naturally, no one would ever listen to me anyways.
I am also autistic which makes it brutally hard for me to speak to people in person. When i hit 18, i still tought that it would be impossible for me to ever have sex just once - because of the way i look and my autism etc.
I know its not the drugs or the lifting that made everything happen, but I TOUGHT IT WAS, so i gained confidence year by year. I was the ugly weakling in school who got picked last for all the sports games cuz i couldnt(and still cant) catch a ball.
Year by year i grew bigger, stronger, more confident until i actually became a respectable fighter, i am one out of 3 people who teach hand to hand combat in my country, and i also have had very good reviews from Israeli instructors. People recognize me all over the world in our organisation with just seeing me once or having heared something about me. I had a time where i slept with on average 20 girls a year, for many years, and i have had super hot and loving relationships. People pay me for my expertice on stuff i love to do.
I know that no one can just pin some test and some tren and know and do all this, yes. But i am sure that without this, i would have never had any confidence to get 1 girl, 1 job, 1 fight, let alone speak in front of 50 people every day and teach them to defend themselves. Before all this i could barelly speak to a stranger without crying.
I do hope i am not FUBAR but if i am - i would never change a single thing in this. I have lived a life many people see in movies - just because pinning some test and gaining some meat on my bones made me believe that it is the key to everything.
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Quit EQ and anavar also as i dont think does much anymore, especially after stanazolol…
So i am left with 400mg of test, 2 iu of GH and 25mg of Ostarine.
I will be also changing my diet - i will start to recomp/lose some weight, as at least 20lbs out of my newly gained 40 are fat.
I already maxed my bench. And because of my back i had to reset and rewind a lot on my squats and deads so a small loss of strenght wouldnt be noticable right now.
As of now, i will only be checking out for my e2, and maybe add some anastrozole if needed. If no, i will stick to this baby blast till at least november, maybe december, which was the time i was planning to stop my actual big blast which is all cut very short and i am happy with that.
To maintain 260lbs i really have to forcefeed junk food, so in order to lose some fat very slow and maintain all the muscle + keep on getting stronger, i wont be doing any diet - i will start by just eating until i dont want to anymore and i wont be swallowing candy and dark chocolate after that. I think i will reduce my daily calories at least by a 1000kcal like this.
As i mentioned, im also working on my steady state cardio, and that takes around 3000-3500kcals a week off also.
I would be ok to lose around 1lbs per week until im like 240-250lbs.
When im at that weight i will drop Ostarine and go on an actual cruise of 250-300mg of test(i have seen many suggestions to take 1mg of test per 1lb of weight + 10%).
Idk, this thread is mostly done - maybe i will just make a training log to update on my weight loss and strenght improvements?
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I would appreciate this.
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NO it is not. Please keep your thread going.
You are one tough cookie but I think some of us are slowly getting thru to you (because we care). If you want to live to a ripe old age it is time to change your ways. That was Seth’s message. It was probably the language barrier but Seth’s video had so much advice you needed to take. No, it was not about kids. It was about when to stop and just find the correct TRT protocol and bloods determine that not you.
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He started a training journal
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I understood the message, its that i am not nearly done with this - in fact, i am just starting. Only a bit smarter, hopefully.
And yes, i did start a training log, because there is not much left to talk about drugs since i am almost off everything thats fun 
If there will be some labs or problems, i will post them in here tho.
I don’t think this thread is done. It is highly interesting to see how you feel after a few months on only test, when you were two years on tren.
I am interested in how your training capacity changes, your mood, your libido, your energy levels and so on. On TRT it takes months to see all benefits and I bet it will take a few weeks to months before you see all changes unfolding. So please keep us updated at least once a month. I would greatly appreciate that.
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Ok will do 
Holy shit - you can’t make this shit up. It looks like we have another scholar here. Wow, how did you people get out of the 4th grade?
(Because even scholars need proofreaders, right?)
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Will drop Ostarine from today, leaving half a bottle to my GF, who will probably get more effects off it.
Since im recomping now, and slowly, i was keeping it for some extra benefits but the longer i look at my stack, the more i understand that some SARM is probably not doing shit more than my 400mgs of test can do, and i also use 2ius of GH… If i see some changes, i can always put it back in, but for now - i will stop that also.
Yesterday i did take 1/4 of Anastrozole as i am feeling a bit more emotional last days and i also kind of think that Anastrozole increases my libido(does not matter where my actual e2 is) and surely enough the next day i did feel much more sexually agressive. But that could be a placebo.
Anyways, all im taking as of now is 400mg of test and 2iu of GH.
I will try 1/4 anastrozole every 3rd day(with test injection) to see how my libido feels.
And i will also be trying a different brand of GH soon, as my IGF levels on 2iu of this one are barelly average on the lab ranges.
Anyways, so far, i havent felt any changes from not taking tren, or doing other drugs or NOT doing them instead…
my libido might have dropped a bit, and i am less sexually agressive(i am usually in the rape mode) but then again i havent taken anastrozole in a while and that actually might be it… will see about that and keep everyone updated in a week or two unless something happens sooner.
Toxic masculinity!
Great news! Thanks for the updates
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Yes and no… Its cool that i dont feel worse, but i was hoping to feel better. More energetic, maybe more libido, maybe better sleep. But nope.
You use some supplement ? Like fish oil, zinc , vit D , magnesium ? Or just super supplement
Yes, i use tons of stuff from pharmacy -
Multivitamin, vitamin C, Zinc, Fish oils, Vitamin D3, Calcium, Magnesium, Glucosamine, Vitamin K2, Liv52(for liver) and Cystone(for kidneys).
@anon18050987 you make sense, yes… its just that i was hoping SOME improvement since im off 90% of the dosages… But its ok, i am in no rush. At least its not worse and im not a ton weaker.
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I understand that. I dont think i will be at 125mg a wk soon tho.
But i know i will be off other drugs appart from test for a while. For now i will push my limits on 400mg of test, and 2iu of GH…
I am also interested in insulin and if i will learn enough to try it, i will be dropping my test sooner. If no, i will be on this dose a bit. I hope my receptors clear from different shit at least, and i will be looking into lower dosages in late winter maybe.
Anyways, my goals are to be strongest i have ever been, for every year for the next 7-10 years if my health allows. Only now, i will be strongest i have ever been on lowest doses i have ever used.
Ill probably do some bloods and tests in september/october and maybe play around some SARMS next year, just to see how they impact my bloods.
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Off of this topic, but I heard something interesting the other day, and I was wondering if mr. @anon18050987 has an answer for me. Does harm to the liver get reduced by taking orals sublingual? I heard it would then go blood stream first, instead of liver first. The idea made sense to me, but wanted a second opinion.
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I believe the graph you’ve referenced is with testosterone undecanoate. TU takes a far longer time to reach a steady state in the bloodstream