my source has temazepam. But im still on the fence tbh.
Iv read about this. There seems to be no actual evidence this is the case. It all seems to be worded āpossible linksā or āmight increaseā and usually directed towards seniors.
Update
Cycle seems to be going OK. Nothing huge to report. Increased water intake to counteract headaches and hunger seems to be back with a vengeance. Weight is still steady, fluctuating couple of pounds. Strength going up. Need to push those calories up somehow.
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Benzos have a host of bad side effects, especially over time. But more importantly, you donāt really sleep on them, you are knocked out but never get REM sleep or any of the deep phase sleep that you need for brain repair and recovery. And GHB, well, thatās a great way to commit accidental suicide if youāre not careful.
Well thatās good! Makes shoveling the extra calories down that much easier.
yea for sure. didnt mean to imply there was an acute risk. just something to think about. I dont expect benadryl to give you Alzheimerās anymore than I expect test to give you heart disease lol.
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Iād reccomend using benzodiazepines as a last resort. If you havenāt tried all alternatives (melatonin, gaba, 5-htp (should be on this if on 19-note regardless) and whatnot) then opting to go straight to benzodiazepines showcases immaturity/irresponsibility (not meaning to be offensive here). EDIT: Iām not responsible or mature, But I certainly wouldnāt risk screwing around with psychoactive drugs if I was on heavy doses
On one gram of Tren weekly + sdrol etc, adding recreational drugs into the mix is legitimately one of the worst things you could possibly doā¦ its beyond common sense. Unless insomnia is legitimately having a large scale impact on youāre ability to function adequately during the day, I wouldnāt even worry about intervention as it isnāt as if youāre going to be on Tren forever (and if you decide you do wish to use Tren foreverā¦ then youāll probably die in about 15 years lolā¦ though that is debatable and dependent on geneticsā¦ letās just say youāll die far FAR quicker than you would otherwise)
Abusing recreational drugs whilst on large doses of AAS (like say, 5000mg test equivalent) is a surefire way to put you on the right trajectory to fuck up yourself and everyone around you.
I donāt wish to sound like a know it all, arrogant prickā¦ but this isnāt just about you, this is about those who love/care about you. You have a girlfriend of eight years! How do you think sheās going to feel when you kneel over at age 35 from a heart attack, or if you manage to become dependent on benzodiazepines, start having entire portions of youāre days unaccounted for (yea this happens) and end up assaulting her and/or someone else.
People say AAS induced changes in demeanor/decision making doesnāt existā¦ this couldnāt be farther from the truth. AAS do appear to elicit a certain effect within the prefrontal cortex (whether youāre brain is fully developed or not) that hardwire one to make riskier decisions. There are numerous case reports of individuals without psychiatric history or any stemming mental illness that go on to do absolutely FUCKED things whilst on the drugs, itās rare but it does happenā¦ and the higher the dose, more aggro the initial personality type and the heavier the use of drugs in generalā¦ the more likely it Is to happen. It isnāt immediate, as it is a slow burn, but Iām telling you mate, the second you hopped on Tren you changedā¦ you need to be very, very careful. Think about things more carefully before you pull the plug. I understand if this post makes you angry, as it really isnāt any of my business or place to say this, but given I care about youre well-being I felt it neseccsry to say
You said youāre on the fenceā¦ good. If youāre physically unable to sleep at all every night, and no other drug works (then you order benzodiazepines), chances are youāll be using dailyā¦ thatās grounds for developing a dependence.
If you choose to go down this route regardless, benzodiazepines are classified as soft drugs in the Netherlands (similarly to weed/psilocybin etc) thus possession of a certain quantity wonāt lead to fines or prosecution. I reccomend you find out what that amount is and stick to it. Test whatever you get before using it, there are some damn convincing pharmaceutical looking products out there. Most headshops/smartshops sell drug testing kits (including for benzos), given the progressive nature of Amsterdam, I canāt see it being any differentā¦ donāt want to take fentanyl laced benzodiazepines (I know TWO people this has happened to)
Sorry for atrocious grammar, on phone with a cracked screen here
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Hmmmmm, temptingā¦ very tempting indeed (jokes)
Update
Not much to report here. Making some good progress in terms of strength, weight fluctuations are pretty crazy. Iām talking like 10lbs in a day. Seem to be getting leaner and more vascular, only week 2 so Iām not expecting huge increases in muscle mass just yet. I have 8 weeks to bulk and then transition into my cut which will last 12 weeks straight into the show.
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What is your general diet looking like at the moment ? Food choices etc
Its mainly carbs. Iām trying to eat everything in sight with 2 cheat meals a week, otherwise I cant get the calories in.
But in terms of food choices, since Iām vegan, Iām limited to loads of beans, lentils, soy products, Quorn mycoprotein and 1 shake a day. I probably hit between 100-150g protein a day, the rest are carbs. Fats are low other than from peanut butter and tofu.
Carb sources are mainly oats, potatoes and rice. @weightliftingwithoutlimits
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This seems less for your weight? Have you always eaten around this amount of protein?
No, when I used to eat meat I have been as high as 300g but I cant recall it benefiting me in any way. Just causing stomach discomfort.
Some days I do get more than 150g I suppose and on a cut I may go up to 200g. But I hate it.
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I can believe that, I imagine getting 2-300g of protein from vegan sources can be a real effort, and gassy.
Its definitely tougher. I donāt get much issues with gas but Iām just sick of the choices. To be honest, its the same as when I was cutting with meat, I got sick of chicken breast and white fish. So Iām pretty much in the same place.
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Just looking for some advice, would you rather up your quad injections from 2.5ml to 3ml or your delt injections from 1ml to 1.5ml if you had to get some more gear into yourself?
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Neither, lmao. Glutes take a ton. Hate delt shots. Quads I do 2 spots per quad (high and low) if I need more volume in them. Have you thought about lats? Pris used to do them there and said he liked the spot.
Iām already hitting 3ml into each glute so I dont think I can hit anymore in there. Iāll look into lats, seems a bit awkward thinking about it. @juice20jd
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Tye only type of meat I eat now are those Ikea meatballs haha.
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Ouch manā¦ couldnāt pay me to pin there LOL