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Listen, I’ve changed

I care about you all and to be honest I want your love and support

I’m honestly sorry if I hurt anyone’s feelings

I’m praying for you all and I feel you guys praying for me

We need to look after each other

I think maybe that night my feelings was hurt and I was perturbed and I wasn’t seeing straight and I started throwing around insults I didn’t mean

I actually do listen to you and respect your opinion

I had a look at your physique again today and i actually believe your physique looks really good, you have potential @Andrewgen_Receptors

And that is what surprises me, how that night my eyes was seeing the world differently than today

today my eyes are seeing the good

I would compliment you in real life and I want you to keep it up

I don’t want to ever demotivate anyone or cause anyone to give up

I hate the man I was that night, I feel regret

I want to redeem myself, I want to make things right

I want to reform and improve as a human

You have potential and I want everyone to go gym and take care of their health and fitness

Bodybuilding is my life and I hope it can save my life now

I realise what happened can be a good thing because I’ve changed from the experience

I don’t want anyone to feel how I felt, I don’t want anyone to feel so much negative emotional chemicals running through their body that they become debilitated and want to end their life

I want to help people now

I want to make people happy

I want to save lives

I had no idea that people could hurt that much

Please forgive me

I want to make you all happy and I want to make everyone proud of me

It’s better to repair what you have instead of discarding it and looking for something else

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90kg at 40,500kg bodyweight

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Look man, the first time I ever heard of you was when you did exactly this, a few years ago… I appreciate your seeking forgiveness, but you probably haven’t changed. If you have truly changed, then prove me wrong. I recommend starting with the advice given by @TrainForPain

I know you’re going through some personal stuff; I’m not going to write off whatever struggles you are going through, but acting like an ass in front of everyone isn’t the way to garner the support you may need in situations like this.

I’m not one for forgiveness… for what it’s worth - you didn’t hurt my feelings at all.

Take care of yourself.

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What’s interesting is they visibly cut down drinking after I said that, I know my friends aren’t perfect humans but I’m grateful to have them and I hope they will quit drinking and start going gym.
I just did a Autism Test for Adults at times of autism . com and the results came back at 51% positive borderline / HFA autism, that’s what it said, just a warning the test takes long to complete and after you complete it they ask you to pay with PayPal and I had to make a paypal account to pay.

When I was growing up and through high school The person who was supposed to be my dad used to swear at me and call me names and stuff, he used to call me gay and tell people he thought I was gay because I was shy and he was really negative and he said I was never going to make it and stuff like that

I hope I can earn approval and blessings from you all

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Its all good man.

May you Eat well, Lift hard and Sleep like a puppy.

Thats the best blessing I can think of. Im theologically challenged.

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I don’t think this is a route to contentment. Just earn approval from yourself

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Honestly, this is extremely solid advice. Also (generally) far more difficult than earning it from others.

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Absolute truth

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