16.10.
1 deficit deadlift (smaller deficit than I am used to)
2 x 5 @ 110 kg
2 pendlay rows
2 x 5 @ 60 kg
3 front squats
2 x 5 @ 70 kg
4 Power Clean (one from floor, the other from hang)
3 x 2 @ 50 kg
5 paused bench press
2 x 5 @ 80 kg
Another one in the books. Everything was spot on. The front squat was borderline for the current purpose. It was almost too heavy and on the edge of feeling like a real working set.
17.10
1 squat
3 x 6 @ 100 kg
2 paused push press (pause in dip position)
3 x 5 @ 60 kg
3 “kettlebell” swings
3 x 15
4 power jerk catch drill
3 x 5 @ 20 kg
5 rotators
3 x 20 @ 2,5 kg
Notes:
Edit:
Took the first dose of my new medicine yesterday. Side effects so far: Insomnia and light stomach pain during the day. Not bad given what the handout says (pro tip: Never ever read those lol)
I know, right. The moment you read them you either start wondering if the side effects are worth it or spend a couple of days second guessing whether you’re experiencing them or not.
@MarkKO exactly! My favorite one on this handout was a section about a so called serotonin shock. It basically read like “well if you are experiencing a serotonin shock, you might die. If you are not dead, please call an ambulance immediately”
The best one for mine (which is a very low grade SSRI) was, you may experience delayed ejaculation.
19.10.
1 deadlift
3 x 6 @ 125 kg
2 standing db press
3 x 8 @ ca. 28-29 kg
3 power clean
2 x 3 @ 50 kg
1 @ 70 kg - didn’t feel much different to 50 kg actually
4 barbell row
2 x 6 @ 70 kg
5 3ct. paused front squat
2 x 3 @ 60 kg
Wasn’t happy with the positioning on my last front squats, so I threw those in. Felt like I was getting into a really good position this time.
6 ultra close grip bench (dat bench here…
)
1 x 7 @ 90 kg
7 bicep curls
3 x 20
Notes:
Remember that many factors will impact this. To truly find out how strong you are at a specific thing, you need to peak for it.
TL;DR if you feel good training, just take it as a win and milk that streak of feeling good while training as you were because it’s what got you feeling good.
yeah the cold can really kick our asses alot
@MarkKO you are certainly correct but you also know how the mind of a lifter works… No matter how much you try to not care about numbers, it is always in the back of your head.
@bigpappafrance on that note…
I freaking woke up today with my cold symptoms once again back stronger! I am at the point where I am so pissed about it that it’s really making me mad. I mean I have done bloody everything: Daily baths, inhalation, taking every cold medicine in reach, complete rest, as much sleep as possible + naps, lots of fresh air, been to the doctor three times… You name it, I have tried it. It’s now over 5 weeks god damn it.
Don’t tell my wife about this medication…nobody replied to this…nobody?
Reminds me of the comedian Robert Schimmel. His wife tells him that he is suffering from Premature Ejaculation…he says honey does it look like I’m suffering? Those aren’t tears on your belly… one of the all time greats.
21.10.
1 squat
5 x 12 @ 80 kg
2 super close grip bench
2 x 12 @ 70 kg
1 x 8 @ 70 kg
2 x 10 @ 60 kg
3 rear delt flys
5 x 15 @ 5 kg
Notes:
lol gotta love that pump mate.
Actually I have never been much of a fan tbh. Especially when it interferes with my workout. Guess I’ll never be a bodybuilder, eh?
23.10.
1 deadlift
5 x 12 @ 120 kg
2 push press
5 x 12 @ 60 kg
3 inverted row
5 x 8
Notes:
I swear our brains periodically go, let’s see how much shit we can give this guy and see what happens.
Pricks.
I hear you on that one!
I think what makes an illness like this so devastating is that your mind can become it’s own worst enemy. With an enemy like that there is nowhere to run and nowhere to hide.
It’s also an enemy you can’t defeat.
You can only heal and learn.
Yup. Then you (or I, at least) end up questionimg why the hell you feel like this and whether it’s a legitimate feeling or just some BS you should be ignoring.
Which apparently is one of the reasons men especially aren’t great at seeking help for it: we are afraid that noone else will accept that the feelings are real for us.
I only learned that a short while ago at a talk at work. Our boss donates to a charity called Menslink that helps boys and young men with mental health problems among other things, and he got one of their guys to come and talk to us. The dude who did the talk I know through powerlifting, and he’s a navy veteran who’s been through all this himself. That was one of the points he made that really hit home for me.
26.10.
Did the easy singles without belt and sleeves that I have been talking about
1 deadlift
1 @ 160 kg
1 @ 180 kg
Very pleased. I think I could have done 200 kg beltless on the day.
2 push press
1 @ 100 kg
3 squat
1 @ 140 kg
Here I am missing the belt the most. Stabilizing the weight in the hole is difficult. Leg strength was no Problem however.
4 2 ct. pause bench
1 @ 100 kg
1 @ 110 kg
It was a long and in many aspects bitter sweet day but generally very positive! The first predominantly positive day this week.
I received so much empathy, encouragement, storys of personal experience and positive reinforcement from all people! It goes to show how many people do care in the end and how much you have been liked without being aware of it.
This time around I am being very open about my problems and just told everyone the truth instead of going the usual route and inventing lies and excuses. I couldn’t imagine doing it this way years ago but my therapy got me to the point where I can make those decisions and it is that much more linerating. Especially since everyone was very understanding and nice about it
First on the agenda was my last visit at my current therapist. Next was the goodbye at work where I prepared food and said my farewells to the collegues. After that it was nap time (I still don’t sleep a lot at night).
Then it was my last training at the gym I used to work at for a year here and have trained at all the time. This was just perfect.
Nearly all the members of our ‘group of crazys’, as we were (loosely translated) called, showed up (we always used to meet up on fridays and weekends).
These are no typical friend-types for me (all but one of them are much older for a start) and we never interacted outside of the gym. We just talked a bunch of bullshit and worked out for ourselves meanwhile. A strange bunch of men for sure (the name ist pretty fitting for some members) but I was totally surprised by their concern for me because I have been missing for so long and their positive reinforcement for the future, my treatment and the general situation. Kind of goes to show that people are sometimes more than they seem. One of them has a similar condition to mine and has been through a lot of shit including a stationary mental health care clinic. He told me yesterday as the first person (since I am leaving) that his wife is pregnant which was an awesome moment because they have been trying for a long time. That training with those guys yesterday really made my day before everything else.
In the evening I met up with a bunch of other pals that I know mainly from the gym and we went to a bar. I didn’t organize that event and it was completely seperate from me leaving but fit the schedule perfectly.
Today I have a lot of cleaning and packing to take care of and tonight my best friend arrives as well as his girlfriend whom I haven’t met yet. It’s gonna bei another relaxed night of drinking and then the best brunch ever in the morning with them, my flatmate and another friend of mine.
Definitely very true and something that has been very difficult for me. But as you can read above I am now in a different position where I am able to share things (among others with you guys for example) and feel better for it
Great post and sounds like a very positive day. Made me smile, thanks man.