I think at some point you’re going to have to take off the training wheels and let yourself fall if necessary, then get back on the bike and start the process all over again.
Maybe give yourself a margin of error, with point X being where you return to obsessive control briefly to right any wrongs, then take the wheels off again when you feel ready.
My digital scale arrived yesterday after however many years of the world’s cheapest plastic scale. I opened it and sort of wondered “what am I doing? counting grams now? why?” It’s like I entered a fugue state and ordered it after seeing something here on TN to the effect that you really don’t know what you’re eating until you start measuring minutely. I’m not even tracking currently! But there it is, on the counter.