[quote]165StateChamp wrote:
I’m just going to post a bit about my mindset right now…I’m frustrated. I’m making progress and getting bigger and stronger but that’s honestly not enough for me. Now that I know the truth about drugs and bodybuilding, I can’t look at being a natural in the same way. I feel as if I’m cheating myself by not using and that I’m using the excuse of ‘maximizing natural potential’ as a way to tell myself I’m not scared of using drugs. The truth is, I am scared. I’m scared of side effects, I’m scared of not responding well and having no more trump cards, and I’m scared of the legal issues.
All I know is, in the future I will be using. If I don’t, I know I can’t reach the physique I desire. Once I reach a lean 210 (that will probably be two years from now, when I’m 21), it’s game time. [/quote]
I don’t know you, and this is hardly any of my business. Acknowledged.
Maybe drugs will be something that you need to invest yourself in to reach your goals sometime in the future. But I think that anyone in the 18-20 year old age bracket on this forum thinking about doing so should at least first check out MODOK’s story of what he did with his early 20s and what Waylanderxx did with his early undergraduate years (I know you already have bc I’ve seen you comment on both).
I guess that this is probably saying stuff that you are already aware of, but if you really want to get huge in the way that, e.g., you would with drugs, at least first see what your body is really capable of growing to. Spend those ugrad years lifting balls heavy and (more importantly) eating everything in sight for a few years, throwing caution to the wind. It’s what those dudes did, and it paid big dividends for them. If I could do ugrad over, it’s what I’d do (and I’m thinking about doing with the next year and a half of law school. I spent undergrad marathon running…i.e. the exact opposite of what I’m doing now.).
So, I guess this is just a message to remind you that you’re still young as hell. Whether you do the drugs and such or not is ultimately up to you and I don’t have a judgement about that or anything, but just be careful with seriously considering it. What’s really missed by some of the young people on these forums (I’m only 24, so I’m young too) is that interests change over time with people. Not everyone does like Professor X and spends 20 years or whatever consistently getting huge. People get in accidents, get married and have kids, get demanding careers, or whatever. Life happens, and then interests change. By the end of ugrad, you might reach a point where this stuff isn’t as important to you as it is now, and it would really be sad and a real shame to have made a hasty decision with potential long term consequences if it ends up being something you didn’t even care about as much as you thought you did.
Anyway, again, I acknowledge that it’s none of my business. I guess I just read your post and wondered whether you realize how lucky you are to be at the point you’re at now compared to others (this is coming from a 24 year old who recently found out that his T levels have been chronically suppressed due to a nonfunctioning pituitary gland, lol).