As someone who has tried tren for all the wrong reasons like you let me share my experience.
Had been on trt for several years and was testing out different compounds to later add in the future when i was “ready”. 5’7 , overweight, poor training consistency, poor diet consistency, still drank (told myself i would clean that all up too right)
Tren ace, 10mg/day, could literally feel it the 2nd day. Bumped up to i think 15-20mg day second week. During second week had this weird pain near my pancreas. By end of the week it was getting worse, thought i was extremely constipated or something, did some enemas fiber etc. by third week i was considering going to the ER, thought my appendix was about to burst, realized maybe it was the tren. Discontinued the tren and by the end of the month the pain had started to go away.
Knowing that tren has a reputation for gastrointestinal problems i tried my second attempt, 10mg/day. Ran for two weeks no stomach issues, upped dose to 15mg , no stomach issues (except there were, ill get to that). By the second week is when it really kicked in for me, mentally and physically. Alpha mode ON high gear, traps chest arms with a glycogen filled “pump” 24/hr. CNS upregulated like i was on crack. My 23% BF stomach noticeably sucked in (still looked fat though). Had to buy costco sized double pack of tums to eat like candy through the day to combat the acid reflux and be able to sleep at night. Made sure i had carbs on hand for the random hypoglycemic fits through the day. Although i had this badass alpha feel i was totally apathetic to my wife, kids, family and co-workers. All i wanted to do was lift and fuck and get shit done, get the hell out of my way. I never got violent but would have violent day dreams for instance driving around town and imagining scooping out someones eyeballs with a spoon then shooting them in the head and hanging them from a light pole because i thought they were driving like an idiot. Them i would laugh about it in my head like a funny movie i just watched. Ran this for about a month.
Third run , now that i “knew” i could handle it. In total was about 8 weeks, 10mg start up, slow titrate up to 15mg and last 2ish weeks up to 20mg. I will spare much of the details but everything that was experienced the second time and then some. There was a family vacation for two weeks near the last half of this run and i am dead serious i almost caused my divorce. Was not even working out since we were on vacation, was in a shit mood because my wife didn’t want to have sex, probably because i was being an asshole, ruined the mood of the whole vacation even my relatives noticed. The funny thing is, YOU DONT NOTICE your own shit.
During these 8 weeks I became paranoid my wife was cheating, literally if she went to the bathroom i knew she was texting some guy (married over 15 years) , i would go through her phone and check on her location throughout the day, at the same time i would fantasize about her being with other men. My logical brain kept trying to talk me out of this shit but its like a compulsive cocaine addict brain.
Once the cycle is done your brain clears and you can only then look at your behavior objectively.
So if you want insomnia, Tren nightmares (I didn’t even mention that) heartburn, elevated pulse, paranoia and ruin all your relationships to loose 15lbs i say go for it, i mean your already in mental health counseling already right? What do you have to loose?
I recommend just use that bottle you got, run 1ml a day until you tap out, loose your job, loose your relationships maybe go to jail. It may just be the last cycle you’ll ever need