this seems kinda interesting. so after having done this how do you feel about yourself as a person or society in general considering that everyone here likely has done similar things across their lifespan. Personally I think that most people would be pretty disappointed if not depressed if they spent a whole night writing down and confrontng their failures and past decisions…
You cried, threw up and then wanted to kill yourself? Did you have explosive diarrhea?
[quote]3IdSpetsnaz wrote:
I got a 3.8 this semester in school, and can’t talk about many notable errors I’ve made. I have perhaps 0 regrets for the past few months, I’ve been making excellent choices.[/quote]
You can brag about your 3.8 and excellent choices, but can’t talk about your mistakes? What a dick.
[quote]I decided I was going to leave behind all the failures and move on to a new level. The level of Harvard, multi million dollar business men, the level absolute success.
My friend is a self help guru and he told me to face myself.
Face my failures, face my fears, and inequities.[/quote]
Is your friend Diego Sanchez?
[quote]I’ve spent all night writing out all my failures, my fears, and inequities.
I cried, I threw up, I wanted to kill myself.
But it’s out, and now I will face it everyday.
Has anyone ever done this?[/quote]
I can only hope someone finds your list of “failures, fears, and inequities” and puts it up on Facebook; like what happened to that slutty girl. Then we can all have a good laugh.
This thread has The Ghey
Ditto - 3ID, I’m not a Dr. but I did stay in a Holiday Inn Express and I think you’ve caught The Ghey.
[quote]3IdSpetsnaz wrote:
I got a 3.8 this semester in school, and can’t talk about many notable errors I’ve made. I have perhaps 0 regrets for the past few months, I’ve been making excellent choices.
I decided I was going to leave behind all the failures and move on to a new level. The level of Harvard, multi million dollar business men, the level absolute success.
My friend is a self help guru and he told me to face myself.
Face my failures, face my fears, and inequities.
I’ve spent all night writing out all my failures, my fears, and inequities.
I cried, I threw up, I wanted to kill myself.
But it’s out, and now I will face it everyday.
Has anyone ever done this?[/quote]
Only after a 32 hour masturbation bender in HS.
Btw, did you write down “Not getting a full 8 hours of sleep” as a failure while you were up all night writing down all of your failures? I would also like to point out that you have an inordinate amount of problems for someone your age if it took that long to make your list. I could have done it in 5 minutes or less.
DB
[quote]Gregus wrote:
I thought he gave himself a facial. [/quote]
That’s what I thought.
I only want validation from you gangsta-g, cuz I is a brotha on da down-low (and I mean low). So why don’t you let me flip you around and give you some of that smoochy-smoochy-fuckyounigga thug love. You dig?
[quote]SkyzykS wrote:
I’ve done something similar. The thing is, now you have to do something about it. You can’t just sit there looking at that stuff as if that is all there is to you, facing these things as if they are a static state of being.
Now you have to make a conscious effort to improve those things or you will be stuck in terminal facepalm mode. This may result in a punch to ones own face.
[/quote]
I wrote out history, so it wouldn’t repeat itself.
It’s a part of a several step method. Break myself down and build myself back up.
I’ll never have the false ego, or self delusion that results in repeated failures again, because for the rest of my life…I’m going to face my failures everyday.
[quote]karlrichii wrote:
this seems kinda interesting. so after having done this how do you feel about yourself as a person or society in general considering that everyone here likely has done similar things across their lifespan. Personally I think that most people would be pretty disappointed if not depressed if they spent a whole night writing down and confrontng their failures and past decisions…[/quote]
I feel good about myself because I realize what I am. I am not fucking important. I am just a living carcass, a piece of meat. But I am MY piece of meat, and I’m one of many, but I’m only ONE. So is everyone else. How can some sirloin Queen of England, have more importance than some commoner eyeofround like me, if we’re all just meat? Everyone I complete with is just some butchered flesh, so noone can deny me, surpass me, usurp me, as I am on the same level as everyone.
Within this life span, I will maximize my position in this society that I’ve been given. All those failures and inequities I’ve gone over, are hurtful, but ONLY, because I failed MYSELF. I don’t write down shit like, “One Time I Hurt Someone’s Feelings!” Or “One Time I Looked Uncool In Front Of Society!” That’s all bullshit, I am real to MYSELF. Me, myself, I, am the measure of all success and failure to do with me and my mentality.
No, I failed my FUCKING SELF, and it wil never happen again, because I face the reasons everyday.
The method is not depressive. It makes you more positive and strong in mind. If you go into the deepest worst mental assault everyday when you read that…how can you ever become depressed? How can anyone ever break you down? It’s like you tear down the house, and rebuild the foundation everyday. You are fresh, and unbreakable.
…PS…
Diego Sanchez is a fucking badass, for real. So if you make fun of me by comparing me to him, all I got to say is thanks.
Born Of A Broken Man! Never A Broken Man!
/facepalm
You threw up?!
threw up AND cried
[quote]ladieslove wrote:
threw up AND cried[/quote]
^
Bad sex.
[quote]3IdSpetsnaz wrote:
I only want validation from you gangsta-g, cuz I is a brotha on da down-low (and I mean low). So why don’t you let me flip you around and give you some of that smoochy-smoochy-fuckyounigga thug love. You dig?
[quote]SkyzykS wrote:
I’ve done something similar. The thing is, now you have to do something about it. You can’t just sit there looking at that stuff as if that is all there is to you, facing these things as if they are a static state of being.
Now you have to make a conscious effort to improve those things or you will be stuck in terminal facepalm mode. This may result in a punch to ones own face.
[/quote]
I wrote out history, so it wouldn’t repeat itself.
It’s a part of a several step method. Break myself down and build myself back up.
I’ll never have the false ego, or self delusion that results in repeated failures again, because for the rest of my life…I’m going to face my failures everyday.
[quote]karlrichii wrote:
this seems kinda interesting. so after having done this how do you feel about yourself as a person or society in general considering that everyone here likely has done similar things across their lifespan. Personally I think that most people would be pretty disappointed if not depressed if they spent a whole night writing down and confrontng their failures and past decisions…[/quote]
I feel good about myself because I realize what I am. I am not fucking important. I am just a living carcass, a piece of meat. But I am MY piece of meat, and I’m one of many, but I’m only ONE. So is everyone else. How can some sirloin Queen of England, have more importance than some commoner eyeofround like me, if we’re all just meat? Everyone I complete with is just some butchered flesh, so noone can deny me, surpass me, usurp me, as I am on the same level as everyone.
Within this life span, I will maximize my position in this society that I’ve been given. All those failures and inequities I’ve gone over, are hurtful, but ONLY, because I failed MYSELF. I don’t write down shit like, “One Time I Hurt Someone’s Feelings!” Or “One Time I Looked Uncool In Front Of Society!” That’s all bullshit, I am real to MYSELF. Me, myself, I, am the measure of all success and failure to do with me and my mentality.
No, I failed my FUCKING SELF, and it wil never happen again, because I face the reasons everyday.
The method is not depressive. It makes you more positive and strong in mind. If you go into the deepest worst mental assault everyday when you read that…how can you ever become depressed? How can anyone ever break you down? It’s like you tear down the house, and rebuild the foundation everyday. You are fresh, and unbreakable.
…PS…
Diego Sanchez is a fucking badass, for real. So if you make fun of me by comparing me to him, all I got to say is thanks.[/quote]
Thanks for sharing. Could you please post this method in detail so those of us who want to use it can benefit?
Impeccability is a tough quality to develop, especially in your own eyes. If you puked because of it must have been pretty cathartic. A lot of native cultures use vomiting as a form of ‘spiritual cleansing’ and will take a bunch of stuff to actually induce it. The anthropologist will say that it is actually a method of purging worms and various other intestinal parasites, but I like the first interpretation better.
I salute your efforts 3IdSpetsnaz, but you don’t have to broadcast it to the rest of the world, just keep it to yourself and personal and not as a way to gain prestige or validation. You’ll figure it out sooner or later.
Its not going to be easy, but you are on your way.
This is also the reason I think a handful of hallucinogenic drugs should be legalized, as they make you confront your “shadow” as Jung called it, all your negative personal qualities, habits, and ways of being that you are trying to hide from yourself. A lot of people will make jokes, project it on others, but few people will willingly confront it and try to integrate it within ones identity.
[quote]Amiright wrote:
i just stinkpalmed myself [/quote]
[quote]theuofh wrote:
Impeccability is a tough quality to develop, especially in your own eyes. If you puked because of it must have been pretty cathartic. A lot of native cultures use vomiting as a form of ‘spiritual cleansing’ and will take a bunch of stuff to actually induce it. The anthropologist will say that it is actually a method of purging worms and various other intestinal parasites, but I like the first interpretation better.
I salute your efforts 3IdSpetsnaz, but you don’t have to broadcast it to the rest of the world, just keep it to yourself and personal and not as a way to gain prestige or validation. You’ll figure it out sooner or later.
Its not going to be easy, but you are on your way.
This is also the reason I think a handful of hallucinogenic drugs should be legalized, as they make you confront your “shadow” as Jung called it, all your negative personal qualities, habits, and ways of being that you are trying to hide from yourself. A lot of people will make jokes, project it on others, but few people will willingly confront it and try to integrate it within ones identity. [/quote]
To me, Jung only made sense after I read Hillman. Also, what’s up with everybody and the whole “ghey” thing? Why does every forum have to turn into 4Chan?
[quote]3IdSpetsnaz wrote:
I got a 3.8 this semester in school, and can’t talk about many notable errors I’ve made. I have perhaps 0 regrets for the past few months, I’ve been making excellent choices.
Has anyone ever done this?[/quote]
Personally, I would super regret the two gay raps you posted on here.
And no I’ve never puked at myself in rage and self loathing and then bragged about how stellar my GPA is to a forum full of strangers… yet.
3.8GPA is a good thing but its not something worthy of gloating over on the internet. As for the other stuff you said, who the fuck cares.
I recently went through a phase that I think you’re going through right now, whoch is especially relevant to you since we are around the same age. That phase is called “you have to much fucking time on your hands.” I too at such a tender age tried to look bad at my life thus far and assess things that have affected me and my world. I soon realised that it was a waste of time. I hadn’t really experienced anything. Think about this; there’s some guy out there whose been on parole for years, got put back in the penn, got out, enrolled in school, went through more shit, lost his GF in a car accident, worked his way up and became rich. What have you been through? Caught your GF giving your brother a blowjob? Please…
If you find you can’t seem to stop fucking up your time then I recommend drugs, for real. The good stuff: try weed first, move up to shrooms and get out of it. If that isn’t enough hook up with the local druggie at your uni. He’ll have contacts that can supply you with E and crack and ICE. Also, start going to concerts and partying more. Get some friends and hire out a stripper. Call you HS friends, rent a motel in Nebraska and have an orgy with the local girls.
The point is stop thinking about the past. You make mistakes not to learn from them but to make new friends. Think about the now and where you want to head in your life.