So here’s an update guys, but first I want to thank you all for your time and advice. Believe it or not Most of you seem to know more and are more thorough when it comes to this stuff than most (probably all) the doctors I’ve been seeing in the past year or two.
Recap…I’ve been mostly in shape my whole life, never obese but sometimes a bit overweight (now,
). I’ve always had high lipids, in shape or out. I have gout. 39 years old, 5’9” 210 lbs
Back in February-August 2018 I got in decent shape and felt great. I was in the gym for hours everyday (I know better now) I was down to 180, again pretty decent shape, and things were pretty good. A friend in his 50s, jacked and ripped year round and competing/winning multiple competitions that year, insisted I try some of his “Amino Acids” that he got from over seas…I took a few scoops on two separate occasions, around July-August (he insisted and I really though nothing of it. I was also started on a new medicine for uric acid around that time, the previous one used to make me drowsy whenever I ate. I’m not sure if the medicine I started, the Amino Acids my friend gave me, or something else was the cause of what was about to happen.
In the next few 2-6 weeks I slowly went from being very motivated, high energy, working out everyday and being very confident and optimistic, to being a total loser. As if someone flipped a switch and shut me off. My mood Started dropping, I had zero motivation to do anything, stayed in bed all day, libido went etc…over the next few months things got worse and the two things that were most awkward were loss of libido and mood…I had never had problems wanting sex, but I didn’t care at that point , and my mood had always been positive but now was continually dropping. I didn’t know what caused this but thought it was low test when I started doing some research. I remember testing at TT of ~360 back in 2016 but the doctor wanted to give me statins due to lipids being out of wack, I was in very good shape back then too weight around 175(used to do BJJ classes many times a week sometimes twice a day) . Symptoms back then were mainly increasing lack of concentration and short term memory problems. I wasn’t taking statins as the doctor was suggesting so even then I let things be.
This time I went to an HRT clinic, 6/2019, looking for help. My mood had hit rock bottom and I went from feeling great a year before to feeling like a loser pussy regularly (all new to me for that year). After TRT for about 3 months I felt better, not great, but the TRT helped me out of what I consider part of the roughest patch I was going through. Estradiol went up along with prolactin, probably because I only took anastrozole in the beginning. I had developed pretty high blood pressure and gained a bunch of weight, after starting TRT. Rite aid was making getting my refill complicated, coupled with high Blood pressure I decided to stop cold turkey on 8/23/2019.
I felt bad the first few months but not nearly as bad as I had felt before TRT. Checked my TT on 10/29/19 and it was 259.
I had bloodwork on 1/3
TT 357 range 250-1100
Free T 64 range 46-224
Bio available 137 range 110-575
Shbg 21 range 10-50
FSH 3.0 range 1.6-8.0
LH 1.5 range 1.5-9.3
Prolactin 6.9 range 2.0-18
I’m feeling way better, motivation is shit, the little I have is very hit or miss but I’m glad my mood is better ( the previous 1.5 years were scary to say the least).
My lipid panel is still shit, but even the cardiologist said that probably wasn’t a problem and might be genetic, he didn’t recommend statins even before we found out my calcium score was zero.
I plan on avoiding all kinds of plastics and limiting any other exposure to endocrine disruptors. Soon I’ll try to force myself to start some kind of exercise program and maybe clean up my diet a little (I really don’t eat unhealthy).
My question is where do I go from here? These numbers don’t look great, I know, but any advice/insight is appreciated. Looking forward to putting some fire back in me!
Sorry for the long read, thanks for your time and help 
Edited…original post I wrote AAs to mean Amino Acids, not Androgenic Anabolic steroids…although I suspect it could’ve been the latter and my friend chose not to tell me. He did admit to me that he’s on gear last August, but denied giving me anything, then offered to provide if I ever wanted any 