(inb4 cool story bro)
I debated whether or not to make this thread, as it’s a little embarrassing, but fuck it, if it can help someone who was in my situation then I’ll consider it worth it.
So at the end of last year, I did my second ever cycle. I figured I’d try NPP, despite the horror stories I’d heard about the dreaded Deca shutdown. My cycle was ~600mg T and 350mg NPP a week.
I had all the ancillaries on hand but like a tool I didn’t use them. I had caber, and I used it like twice on cycle but I didn’t seem to be showing signs of the dreaded deca dick so I didn’t bother. I was also trying to see how low I could get away with running my aromasin, and I got down to running it so low that for the last month or so I just didn’t bother. I had no bloat, no gyno, so I figured why bother?
Then PCT hit me like a fucking hammer to the balls. My libido vanished. I mean completely. There was no erectile dysfunction; I could get it up just fine, problem was I just had no desire to whatsoever.
I figured it was just PCT crash which was to be expected after using such a suppressive compound so I didn’t worry too much about it, thinking it would just get better. Thankfully, I have a very understanding girl in my life so it didn’t cause any arguments.
Two months after PCT, still nothing. I was worried, so I went and got blood tests. I got my total T, free T, E, LH and FSH tested, but forgot to ask them to check my prolactin. This would turn out to be a HUGE mistake.
Results came back, T was fine (was actually above range for free and total) and so was E. This confused me, as I thought that my problem was low T/high E, and was all set to do another PCT with an AI thrown in for good measure.
At this point I was seriously fucking worried. After talking to Balla and KSman (two of the most stand up dudes on the fucking planet) I stopped taking the AI and quit the SERMs (had only been back on the SERMs for a day or two anyway).
It was just after this happened that I decided, on a whim, to give my nipple a good squeeze, just in case…
…Success! Of sorts. I was fucking lactating. Not like a big ole squirt like from an udder, but a tiny bit of clear liquid. I had finally identified the problem - fucking prolactin! The one thing I didn’t get fucking checked. I went and showed my girlfriend and she just shook her head and said “You’re not like other boys, are you?”
But I wasn’t out of the woods yet. I started on the caber I had bought from a research company, and used it for like 3 weeks with no results. As it turns out, the company I bought it from has a reputation of selling cialis instead of caber (you’ll probably know who I’m talking about) so I threw out that shitty research caber and got me some pharm grade. I also got me some selegiline.
So my schedule was .5mg of caber 2x a week, with a .5mg ed for the first 4 days as a frontload; and 5mg of selegiline eod, with a 10mg ed for the first week frontload.
It still took like 3 weeks for it to work. From what I’ve read, most people find caber restores their libido pretty much instantly. My prolactin must’ve been up in the quadruple digits!
But the good news? My libido is back like a motherfucker now! I swear I’ve jacked it more times in the last week than I did in my entire teenage years.
TL:DR
-just because you’re not showing symptoms, do NOT stop taking your ancillaries
-make sure you get everything tested if you get blood work
-research chems are shit. Get yourself pharm grade everything. The difference is night and day.
-you have never known gross until you see yourself lactating. In a weird way I’m actually kinda proud. Not everyone gets to experience it.
and the most important point I can make here is that if you find yourself in a similar situation: relax! Yes, it sucks, but you can fix it. It just takes time, patience and the right drugs. Your libido WILL come back, take it from me, and believe me there was a good long time when I was worried that it never would.
