I don’t blame her for being skeptical after those bench videos you posted a while back with “two 25’s on the bar” and then “30 seconds later” it had changed to plate-dime, you not touching the bar to your chest, and the spotter grabbing it off of you…
[quote]Nikki9591 wrote:
Cbear, I looked at your log for the first time in a long time just now and upon comparing our numbers, I now understand where your bitterness comes from. Personally I see no reason why you should hate, but maybe it’s the facts that I’m 19 or been training less than a year. With that said, yes I’ll get you a video whenever my lower back decides that it will be a good time for you to leave my log with your tail between your legs.
Thank you kindly for checkin’ in though.
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I cant speak for Bear, but with all the bullshit numbers and videos you’ve posted in the past I don’t blame her for giving you a hard time. And don’t flatter yourself. It isn’t jealousy. You’re not that special.
I’m done logging, g’bye.
[quote]Nikki9591 wrote:
I’m done logging, g’bye.[/quote]
Good Riddance!
[quote]Nikki9591 wrote:
I’m done logging, g’bye.[/quote]
nooooooooooooo
come back!
Everyone being skeptical of lifts, if you don’t believe in the integrity of a poster, just stay out of their log/thread.
I didn’t believe that leewhitehurst or whatever could incline 495 for 15, did I join in the shitstorm that thread became? No, I just stopped posting in there. Not that hard to do.
If someone can row 100lbs unilaterally with one hand, it’s pretty easy to believe they can pull in the high 200’s IMO.
What happened to “don’t give a fuck about a hater”?
This is the internet. People are always going to dish as much hate as love. It looks like you have a long logging history. Do you feel that you benefitted from your time here more than were annoyed?
Also, it’s always disappointing to me when someone working their ass off stops something they’re doing because someone looked at them funny. I’m sorry people are disbelieving, but does that really make your internet experience unbarable?
aw, people 
i hope you come back nikki, because i enjoy following along with your progress and i learn a lot from the way you do things.
Lol Iron, I don’t think that I benefited more from logging on here than I was annoyed. 3/4 of my time logging has been trying to defend my self, defend how I train, or going back to the gym hours after a workout to prove something.
I read a lot of the logs here and it seems that wherever Nikki logs is the ONLY log in PW that attracts this much hate.
Hmm, but I appreciate the comments and I’m just PMSing. Blaze has a point, and although people like Cbear and Stronghold and Buckeye don’t have the common sense to stay out of a person they don’t like thread, I am not quite as mentally challenged. I don’t like Cbear and I haven’t read her log in months. I don’t like Buckeye and I haven’t been to her thread since page 2 of her log or whatever. Stronghold… well I don’t even know him but his posting history in my log has been “lol” to something Maschy said and to call me out.
Apparently they don’t like me but see how quickly they respond to something of interest? It’s like, they read my log each time the title is highlighted. Imagine that.
I’ll start a new log after my workout this morning. And Alex, I make this decision majorly because of your comment. If I’m even a quarter of the help that you say I am, then it’s worth the shitstorms that my logs bring.
Oof, well it’s a shame this friendly corner of T-Nation has become less friendly of late. I didn’t take Bear’s comment to be hostile actually so I’m not sure why all the upset. Those are impressive numbers in any case.
Incidentally, what is the number in your log title referring to? Powerlifting total?
[quote]Cal Jones wrote:
I didn’t take Bear’s comment to be hostile actually so I’m not sure why all the upset.
Incidentally, what is the number in your log title referring to? Powerlifting total?[/quote]
The guilty will usually let you know who they are. Nikki doth protest too much.
And it’s not a powerlifting total, it’s Nikki’s imaginationland 4 lift (squat, half bench, deadlift, press) total.
[quote]Nikki9591 wrote:
Lol Iron, I don’t think that I benefited more from logging on here than I was annoyed. 3/4 of my time logging has been trying to defend my self, defend how I train, or going back to the gym hours after a workout to prove something.
I read a lot of the logs here and it seems that wherever Nikki logs is the ONLY log in PW that attracts this much hate.
Hmm, but I appreciate the comments and I’m just PMSing. Blaze has a point, and although people like Cbear and Stronghold and Buckeye don’t have the common sense to stay out of a person they don’t like thread, I am not quite as mentally challenged. I don’t like Cbear and I haven’t read her log in months. I don’t like Buckeye and I haven’t been to her thread since page 2 of her log or whatever. Stronghold… well I don’t even know him but his posting history in my log has been “lol” to something Maschy said and to call me out.
Apparently they don’t like me but see how quickly they respond to something of interest? It’s like, they read my log each time the title is highlighted. Imagine that.
I’ll start a new log after my workout this morning. And Alex, I make this decision majorly because of your comment. If I’m even a quarter of the help that you say I am, then it’s worth the shitstorms that my logs bring.[/quote]
Well that didn’t take long, couldn’t go 12 hours without digging for some compliments or affirmation?
You seem to be the ONLY one who really cares how many views you or anyone else gets in their log. You take totally innocuous comments as personal attacks (like me laughing at Masch using the phrase “beaver breather” when she said she couldn’t wear short shorts? what?) and act like you’re constantly being attacked when I haven’t seen that happen ONCE in this log until you flipped out over something that looked entirely innocent to me. You post at least one picture of your bare ass PER DAY. You waste your time going back to the gym to re-tape things to prove you did them. We get it. You used to be fat, now you’re not and you’re making up for all of the lost adoration and feeling special that you missed out on then. You still don’t like yourself, but this is the interwebs, where you can pretend to be whoever you want and be loved for who you are(n’t). It’s pretty telling that you take a little bit of doubt so personally.
You lied. You got caught. Deal with it or GTFO. It’s not a matter of anyone thinking you’re lying because they don’t like you. It’s a matter of people thinking you’re full of shit and not liking you because you lie. FWIW, I used to think you were impressive and enjoyed your posts…until I saw your bullshit bench videos and went back and watched some of the others. Common sense would dictate that you don’t claim you can do something unless you actually can. I stayed out of this log for the most part because I thought you were full of shit but don’t care to stir up drama. However, Bear is a good friend of mine in real life and your childish and catty post towards her is what got me to post in the first place. You took it there in the first place, so don’t blame anyone else for that.
Oh, and I wouldn’t expect you to really know who I am, I don’t post in your thread or SAMA.
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent…a quote.
Own your shit, no need to defend.
It is however quite remarkable(skeptical??) maybe considering where you came from.
Just over a year ago you were DL’ing 95lbs and didn’t know how to add up the weights you were using to squat with. And then you became a trainer?
I’m not saying this to be mean. But this may be why some doubt you. And I’ll be honest, I’ve raised an eyebrow a few times.
But if this is the epitome of what it means to go balls to the wall and make this kind of progress then my respect. If this is the case, then you have a raw talent and you should not care what anyone ever ever says…on the interwebz or IRL. Use that ‘strength,’ to go wherever you want. Your young…can you imagine where you could be in another 5 years? shit…
I have noticed however that you get defensive and do not take critiques well…even if well meaning.
And it seems like if you aren’t being complimented enough or someone asks you a question, you get mad. Just let it roll. Right?
Well, I think I’ve said enough. If you stick around, it’s up to you. Keep lifting and just be you.
Good morning…after reading all the shit talking I need a cigarette. I haven’t seen so many vaginas spew such vitriol for a long time.
I will say that I do like proof that someone is who they say they are on the internet, but it’s not because I hate you. Rather, I’m impressed and want to make sure that if I decided to adopt some of your training ideas, I don’t get screwed over because their effectiveness was misrepresented. I’m sure you and everyone else would feel the same way.
Well me and the several people who sent me PMs seem to interpret the comments she left differently.
I don’t take well to people who never comment in my logs except to try to call me out. I’m sorry but I don’t do that to anyone else and I expect that respect to be returned.
Stronghold, where did I ever say that I care about my log views?
And I didn’t take it as a personal attack, all I said was that all you said in my log was “LOL” and to call me out. You seem to get more hung up on what I say than anyone.
Tomorrow when my back is feeling up to it, I’ll get your video. Until then, we can leave this “Liar” name-calling alone.
Meanwhile, if I was able to do this a couple months ago:
I don’t see why 295 is so hard to believe.
And second, you have no problem with other people’s photos, like Veggie and Nlmain, so why my pictures offend you is beyond me.
MiM I know that you raised your eyebrows a few times. I let them pass until about the 10th time you came in my log to say something negative. For instance, critizing me doing 10 x 10 squats and then next thing I know, you’re doing the same rep and set scheme.
Yes I became a trainer. I’m sorry, I didn’t know that you were the only one who was allowed to be a trainer on here. But I am ISSA ceritified. Excuse my ambition and passion.
I really don’t know what I ever did to you.
I feel like I’m between a rock and a hard place right now. If I argue, then I’ll just hear that while everyone was being sweet as candy to me I was a bitch. If I apologize for whatever, then I’ll hear that I’m just looking for pity.
I don’t know what to say so I’ll just say that I’ll have the 295 DL video tomorrow.
[quote]ironcross wrote:
I will say that I do like proof that someone is who they say they are on the internet, but it’s not because I hate you. Rather, I’m impressed and want to make sure that if I decided to adopt some of your training ideas, I don’t get screwed over because their effectiveness was misrepresented. I’m sure you and everyone else would feel the same way.[/quote]
You’re not understanding. This is my 3rd log and the first thing Cbear has ever written in any of those logs is “Do you have a video of those rows?” or whatever. You wrote comments other than “Where’s proof?” so I won’t think that you hate me.
I let it go the first time. I got the vid and that was it. Now she’s starting that bullshit up again. I know from experience with MiM that as long as I ignore comments like that, then the person keeps writing them and I’m not going to be scared to click on my own log.
Congrats on those PRs Nikki, wow.
Stay strong and positive my friend!
Nikki:
I wouldn’t post the DL video. You posted the row video. That wasn’t good enough. Doubtful anything will be. You train hard. You train consistently. You’re young. And you’re new to lifting. I don’t doubt your gains.
I’ve never posted a bench video because it doesn’t look like I’m touching my chest. I don’t know why. But I know I am. And when I dl 245 and couldn’t see the 10s at the end. Totally sucked. So, when I put 265 on the bar I did the douchey thing of videoing the weight on the bar before I lifted it. At 40 and lifting just over 2 years, I hit better than a 2x BW. That’s enough to raise an eyebrow, and I fucking wanted credit for that. I absolutely shouldn’t care what people think. And I don’t really. But I also don’t feel like dealing with the shit storm that you have going on here. So, I avoid it.
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I think attacking someone’s integrity sucks. Especially someone young and new to the sport. Nikki’s posted a lot of videos of her lifts. How many of her accomplishments do you take issue with? All of them or just some? Did her row video pass the sniff test? I just figured out I’m not doing the glute ham raise correctly. I had no idea. Does that mistake justify the disdain of all of my other accomplishments? This should be a place where information is handed out in a constructive fashion, not an accusatory one.
I don’t know why, but it is so typical of women not to support and encourage one another.
Nikki, lots of people here are amazed and inspired by your progress. You absolutely should try powerlifting, given your raw potential. But please for the love of God, stop taking every teeny bit of advice or criticism to heart! You’re lashing out at people like MiM who absolutely don’t deserve it.
It’s easy to misconstrue comments made on forums because you’re only seeing text, not hearing the tone of voice, the inflections, or seeing the facial expressions and gestures that go with it. Take the good advice, ignore the less helpful comments and move on. New log, fresh start. Life is too short to get upset about stuff like this.
Thanks Deb =D
Nadia, I appreciate the comment, I really do.
I will post the video however because it will be the last video and log entry that I do post on TN.
I still look forward to following your log though because your style and training is refreshing to me.
Cal, how is “You did tape them, right?” advice or criticism? Please explain it to me.
And I only wish that MiM ever showed me the same respect that she shows you and others. However she doesn’t so I am entitled to my opinions just as she is entitled to hers. She even admits that my progress is skeptical because I didn’t know how to add up the weights on the bar when I was new to lifting. Another female on PW also asked whether she counts the bar as part of the weight. I’m sure she won’t be penalized for that in the future though.
It means a lot that a few people can sympathize with my feelings right now, but it hurts even more that this many people can’t see this from my eyes.
Bear just asked for vids. She asks for vids from everyone. I doubt she’s doing that to be mean. She’s just a very straight, no bullshit sort of person.
As for MiM, did you miss the part that mentions respect? To me, that seemed a very positive post, but I’m a glass half full sort of person. It seems as though you home in on the negatives and miss the qualifiers and positives. Would you rather everyone just pat you on the head and say “there there, ignore the mean girls, you’re awesome”? Because to me, that just seems patronising.