Did this today. All-time PR with no sleep or food in my system, excited to hit 315 x 20 next week.
@whang yeah, i’m on Lexapro. It sucks too.
@dagill2 thanks for your efforts, man.
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Thanks dude.
Like most humans, you’re trying to fill that void. A lot of people never succeed. My belief is that the void. can only be filled by Jesus. Have you read about Job?
Yay you’re posting again
Yes, I am. I live to see another day.
You’re married. Your family doesn’t fill that void for you? Now I’m scared.
I eat healthy food. I take 3 bites. I get unbearably nauseous. I lose weight. I look more and more like a weakling. I repeat cycle. God, I’ve been sick 24/7 for years. I’m tired of it. Doctors don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I’m a mental nutcase too! So, my mental and physical issues play into each other.
Yet, you’re still alive and kicking mate. Keep fighting
Haha, fuck that. I’ll know when it’s time to leave, but that time isn’t now.
Lol… c’mon. You’re intelligent and you can do anything and succeed in life man
My family brings me happiness (and stress at times), but my foundation is God. I’m at peace with the world because I know this horrible place is temporary. I believe there’s a reason I’m here. There’s a reason you’re here, too. I said it before, but I’ll say it again - remember when you helped those other kids at the hospital? Things like that leave a lasting impression. We all do things that seem minor to us, but mean the world to someone else.
I know you’re physically miserable, and I feel terrible for you. That sucks. I don’t have any words of encouragement in regards to that, but the void you feel is natural. For me (and many others), accepting Jesus as a real person and a sacrifice for my sins filled that void. I’m a whole person. Life can throw a lot of bad things at me, but I’m confident in my salvation and my existence after I die.
It would be perfectly okay for you to read the bible or other study materials on your own and pray about it. Tell God that you don’t quite believe. Ask him to help you believe and understand. Don’t make your decision based on past experiences with other humans. Humans are flawed. Try something on your own so there is no human interference.
And in the meantime, keep doing what you’re doing. I’m glad you’re still here.
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See, the issue is, I recognize them, but I still can’t escape them or devalue them as just feelings/thoughts. The scariest part is, this is the closest a certain psych/therapist has ever come to helping me, and I’m still just as broken and suicidal as I was the day I met them.
You’re not giving it time. It’s no different than lifting or learning to read or play piano. You learn the basics, then practice practice practice until your form is right. At some point it feels kind of natural and from there it gets easier and easier.
Patience.
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Hey boss, tried to leave my email here earlier, must of not posted. Sorry about that, here it is.
You need to reach out, you can get me there. Keep it up man. Times are tough, but you’re here today when you didn’t think you would be a few days ago. Just keep that trend going until this passes
Update, I’m now too depressed to stay in a meditative state. Alright.
You’ve lived another week. now focus on pushing through. that’s only 1/7th of the work
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Take a long, hot shower, go for a walk, watch TikTok, or journal. Let it pass through and then you can move on.
Stop rubbing it in, would you?
didn’t you train karate too back in the day? i used to do that and i found that them katas have some meditative value, strength training too have some meditative value but you can only do so much of it. it could be worthwhile to practice something, get your mind to work on something that will divert it from the less fruitful thoughts.
Watch this man. Hope it will help
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