I am going for a two-fold long ass rant here, I’ll forgive you guys if you just skip ahead. I’m just not in a good place at all at the minute.
First things first: as some of you might know from my log, I was put into quarantine last Tuesday because my father tested positive to covid. I am pretty pissed off, but I realized this is just the standard procedure. Meanwhile, I was tested and I tested negative. My quarantine was supposed to end on the 20th: twelve days after my father tested positive. Today we got the news that in two days I’ll get tested again, and if I’m negative, if I’m negative, I’ll be locked down until the 27th because “they need to make sure I wasn’t infected meanwhile.” Then why the fuck am I getting tested at all if my quarantine is being extended unconditionally?
Look, if I didn’t get it from him before we found out he had it, how did I get it now that:
- we’re wearing masks even inside our house
- we’re never staying in the same room
- we’re not using the same items
- we’re disinfecting the bathroom after every use
There is no way I got infected now. The most ridiculous thing is that, if I test negative again, I’ll still end up being quarantined for more than my father! And he’s freaking positive, whereas I will have tested negative twice!
So here’s the thing: on the 21st, I’ll go out, I’ll get in my car, I’ll drive to the gym and I’ll train. And so on the 22nd. And the following days. If I get stop, I might get arrested or cited or charged or whatever. I’ll face it. I’ll say what I have to say and face the consequences, but at this point, I’d rather end up in court than have my personal freedom taken away from me for any longer for no reason.
Second part! I am pissed off at my father so much. Why you might ask? Because ever since this whole thing started in February, he absolutely paid no attention whatsoever to safety measures. He’s a cop, he gets exposed to lots of people, so he would be even more aware of the risks and take appopriate measures. I saw him, during the lockdown, talk inches away from people, even strangers, without a mask. I once drove by him making a traffic stop at work, and he was bent over and speaking to the passenger with his head inside the car through the window. Why would you do that?!
I have seen him act like this, and even worse, in so many occasions. He would argue with me when I would tell him to keep distance from each other saying that “he’s my father,” and when called out for inattentive acting he would use arguments like "I know that person, he doesn’t have the virus so I can speak to their face, " or “I keep my mask on at work, not outside of work, that’s enough,” or even worse, something I heard him say the other day, “I don’t know how I got infected. I always kept my mask on when dealing with homeless or suspicious people. The ones I kept it off near were good.” And other bullshit like that. He’s demonstrated so, so much irresponsibility over this, putting at risk me (okay) and his mother, 80yo, never adopting any measures with her either.
And now I see him being so careful with everything that it makes me even more mad because had he done 40% of what he has to do now, nobody would be in this situation.
The icing on the cake? He organized a dinner tonight! Four people came over and had pizza with him, dining on the table on the balcony, everybody sitting close, zero masks. I stayed in of course. I have no words that can possibly come close to commenting this. I went out for a second to get some air, wearing a mask, and I was called out by a guy sitting NEXT TO MY COVID-POSITIVE FATHER, “you might as well take it off, it does nothing.”
I answered, “Okay, I’m not going to argue with you.” He said, “no, no arguing, I just want to explain to you that…” and I went inside. I’m feeling like an alien honestly. I heard so much bullshit from those people tonight that it makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with humanity, and why I am the one different seeing as so many people disregard stuff so simple and common sense like “don’t go to dinner at somebody’s place if they have covid.”