LOG # 568
PPL
Squat: heavy singles
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x2
315x2
315x1
Cut it short because I messed up my knee a bit. Feels fine now, I think I just locked it out a bit too fast.
Rack-pulls:
225x10
225x10
315x3
315x3
315x3
Bench:
135x5
135x5
145x3
150x1
165x1
Hanging leg raises:
x10
x10
x10
x10
PM cardio:
5 mile lake walk
Update:
I feel a lot more stable since being switched to new meds. They don’t really allow me to think very deeply like I usually do. Which isn’t all that bad really.
I sleep a lot on these meds, but I don’t mind. They don’t affect my appetite much. If anything they make me feel a bit hungrier than usual.
Weight is at 190-ish currently. Again…I keep kind of being bothered by how much the scale says I weigh. I’m not fat by any means (granted I’ve got a decent bit I’d wish to lose), but it really doesn’t translate in my head to how I look in the mirror.
Threw out all my old clothes and got a nice new comfy wardrobe, since most of my clothes don’t fit how I want anymore. Lots of comic transformers T-shirts, tights, new cartoon scarves for my hair styles.
And some new custom designed Optimus Prime sneakers that’ll be arriving sometime in early July.
They had ones with StarScream, and Megatron, but I’m not a Decepticon. Autobots forever! 
Those are sick.
Re: the weight thing I totally get that. Sometimes it’s a good idea to ignore the scale and just focus on the mirror. I stopped weighing myself when I started lifting again and found it to be much better for my own state of mind.
Oh, sorry. That was pretty nebulous.
When I’m feeling down, or when words and talking to each other isn’t working ill go outside and hit the weights or get on the exercise bike for a while. Eventually something changes. The fog clears. Things feel better.
LOG # 569
PPL
Push:
Push ups:
x15
x15
x10
x10
x10
Legs:
Squat
Usual work up
Working sets:
335x2
315x2
225x3
225x3
295x3
260x3
260x3
225x3
225x3
Rack pulls:
185x10
225x10
315x5
315x5
315x5
315x5
315x5
Hanging leg raises:
x15
x12
x10
x10
Videos from today’s session
LOG # 570
PPL
Push press:
100x5
115x3
125x2
135x1
140x1
High rep squats:
135x15
135x15
135x15
185x10
135x15
Push ups
x10
x10
x10
x10
x10
Kettlebell swings
100 reps
Hanging leg raises with ankle weights:
x10
x10
x10
LOG # 571
1 hour LISS cardio
Finished the last episode of Queen’s Gambit. Amazing 
LOG # 572
PPL
Squat:
135x7
185x5
225x3
275x2
315x2
355x1
(I am fully confident that I can hit a 405+ lb squat sometime soon. My work capacity is insane, so I figured with some straightforward planning it’ll be in the bag)
Bench:
135x5
135x5
135x5
135x5
135x3
135x3
RDLs:
70lbs
x20
x25
x20
x25
LOG # 573
1 hour LISS cardio
LOG # 574
Heavy PPL
Squat
315x2
315x2
315x2
315x2
315x2
315x2
315x2
Rack pulls:
225x10
315x5
315x5
315x5
315x5
315x5
415x1
Push press:
135x2
135x2
135x2
135x2
135x2
(Not including work up)
Brisk swim session
30 mins
LOG # 575
High rep DB workout
•squats
•floor press
•kickstand RDLs
•sit ups
LOG # 576
PPL
Squat:
135x7
185x5
225x3
275x2
315x5
Bench:
135x5
135x5
135x5
135x5
RDLs:
70lbs
x20
x25
x20
x25
Update:
Finished this week pretty good. Taking a de-load of sorts for maybe 4-5 days. My left knee is a bit overused.
Got suspended from work due to attendance issues back when I had some mental problems. Took it to corporate and the matter was solved within a couple of days. (Oh yeah, I’m back working now) I’ve now been offered intermittent leave with roughly 150 hours per year. So when my mental faculties go…over there, I can just use my leave time as needed. Which I’m very thankful for. The new GM is a very sweet guy.
As of late I go back and forth between being happy/content, and going through very chronic bouts of depression. Most of it comes from absolutely nowhere. My meds are quite helpful, and the rest I just take one day at a time. I bring my sensory blanket with me to work, and just ease my way through my 5 hour shifts.
I made a hideout type thing in the kitchen, and I don’t really leave it that often. I still sleep in the bed with hubby some nights, but for now I just wish to be in my little window. It’s quite comfy, and I like when the sun comes in.
Everyone in the house just talks to me about whatever if they’re in the kitchen. I study in it, watch tv, read a book, and sleep my ass off In there.
LOG # 577
(Guess I lied about the whole deload thing lol)
Took a co-worker with me to the gym, since she said she wanted to try and get into shape. I didn’t haggle her about anything though. Just answered questions whenever she had any. Didn’t get as much as I wanted done, but that was okay, I’m glad she enjoyed going with me, and took interest in things.
Squat:
(Not including work up)
Working set
315x2
315x2
315x2
Leg extensions:
200lbs
x20
x20
x20
x20
x20
Push press:
100x5
120x3
135x2
157x1 (PR! Was trying hard to hit 160. Kept missing)
Machine rows (high rep)
85x20
80x20
80x20
75x20
75x20
Push ups:
x10
x10
x10
KB swings (40lbs)
50 reps/swings
LOG # 578
Am cardio (fasted)
1 hour LISS
LOG # 579
Squat
Heavy Singles
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x1
315x1
Push press
Working set
135x2
135x2
135x2
135x2
RDLs
125x15
125x15
125x15
125x15
LOG # 580
PM cardio
1 hour LISS
LOG # 581
Machine work
•Leg extensions
Run the rack
Sets of 20
100 reps total
•Lat pulldowns
Run the rack
Sets of 10
50 reps total
•machine chest press
135
Sets of 10
50 reps total
• belt squats
Run the rack
Sets of 30
250 reps total
•hanging leg raises
3x20
•hamstring curls
40 lbs
Sets of 10
69 reps total
•machine rows
Run the rack
Sets of 10
50 reps total
LOG # 582
PPL heavy
Squat
315x2
315x2
335x2
335x2
315x2
315x2
BB rows
135x5
135x5
135x5
125x7
125x6
115x10
115x10
Push press
135 10x2
Push ups
x10
x10
x10
x10
x10
Deads (conventional)
225x5
225x5
225x5
225x5
225x5
LOG # 582
Am cardio
1 hour LISS
