You’re enjoying life and training again. You’ve got a goal to aim towards. Seems like the start of good times to me.
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I sure hope so! Morning weight: 82.8, and I liked what I see in the mirror so… The tiny pouch on my lower ab is gone. That’s enough for me.
Great soreness in my legs today, more specifically in my quads. That’s good! I’m usually all butt and inner quads/adductors. My legs touch other, but I always had trouble making grow the outer quad, and we all know it’s the quad sweep that gives this big quad impression. It feels that my whole quads have got a nice beating.
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Colossus - Push pump
A. Slight incline DB press 1 x 7, 7, 6 reps with 40, 38,38 kgs
B. Explosive pushups 2 sets to failure + slow feet elevated push ups 1 x max
C. Machine flyes 2 x 12 + 15 secs iso-hold with 20 kgs
D. Reverse machine flyes 2 x 25 with 15 kgs
E. DB seated press 1 x 11, 1 x 6 + 6 with 26 kgs
F. Dual handle triceps pushdowns 2 x 12 with 25 kgs
G. KB Tate press 2 x 12 with 8 kgs KB
Bad session. It happens. Slept badly, I was tired, my eyes were fatigued but I kept my contacts.
On the first exercise I went too heavy. Yeah slight decline is easier than slight incline. especially with 60 secs rest vs 3 mins… I have to remember that even if I do 1 more rep it’s okay so it’s better to go slightly lighter and be sure. But you see RPE 10, set of 8, you want to give it all…
I kept forgetting to look at the chrono so my rest periods were messed up and I was annoyed with myself, if not angry. Really I wasn’t in the session at all. But it lasted around the same as last time.
The machine flyes, both were really hard. Probably yesterday’s chest pull that had fatigued my rear delts. Went to true failure there this time, 23 reps on the second set.
DB press were once again terrible. 26 was too heavy with 60 secs rest for sure. Maybe I should incline very slightly the bench as well, and not flat upright.
Arms well I’m sure I did a typo during last session because there is no way I did 2 x 15 with 40 kgs and this time sets of 12 with 25 were a nightmare. Unless I gripped the handles differently. Not a fan of this grip. The handles don’t have enough leeway in my gym. So yeah next time I’ll read the whole log and not just the weight.
Well I shouldn’t be so hard with myself. It was still a really hard session, and I gave it all. I decided to eat more.
And I don’t even care
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Colossus - Legs pump
A. Lying leg curls 3 x 15 with 35, 40, 40 kgs
B. Leg press high and wide stance, 3 secs eccentric 2 x 10 with 130 kgs
C. Nordic hamstring curls, slow eccentric 3 x 6
D. Walking lunges, 100 steps with 8 kgs KBs
E. Standing calf raises 2 x 10 + 15 partials + 20 secs stretch with 90 kgs
Was tired today. there are some days you don’t want to go to bed. And I didn’t sleep enough. But I felt amazing during the session. Leaner, athletic, and great!
Really loving this leg press. Even with the stance focusing on hamstring, I could relaly feel my quads. I envision future quads gains.
The lunges were obviously really hard. Just took 5 secs of break at rep 50. The last 30 were really, really tough, I was slow, and my legs were constantly shaking. I think I was about to reach complete failure on the last rep. I picked the 8 kgs KBs because otherwise it was the 16 kgs and I chickened out. Next time, if it happens again, I’ll go heavier. Like 12
Calves are still a torture. But they feel bigger. My forearms as well in barely 1 week.
Here is before training, with 3 meals in the belly including a fat mcdonalds. I feel really good!
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You’re killing the workouts, even if it’s a bad day. Good stuff and a great burger.
That’s a pretty killer shoulder-to-waist ratio man. Nicely done.
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I must confess I’m really drunk guys, but that’s okay, and thank you my friend 
Me, drunk in the bar. One week of fun. Then more serious because I’ll have severalseveral photoshoots scheduled with friends starting in 2 weeks.
And I must say, really, thank you T-nation for helping me in a dark spotn
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Alright. So my brother, told me, drunk, that he was seeing my ex. The girl I’ve been crying for all the time. With my brother. She wants him. I just feel like the worst piece of human garbage. I can’t even rely on my family. I just don’t. I’m supposed to get up in four hours to work.
But why? To get fucked in the ass by society? By people you love? Why for? Honestly why go on
That’s a pretty weak move by your bro dude.
… something broke inside of me for real. I’m supposed to work in 5h but I already send a text to my boss. How can I ever bring a girl to my family. Trust is broken. I just don’t know why I should go on
Did you punch him?
No. I don’t think it would have changed anything
IDK man, vengeance has been the motivation of many great characters.
Dark humor aside, introducing violence into your situation probably isn’t a great idea. Especially so if you aren’t a violent person. I hope this is a drunken misunderstanding, alcohol has a tendency to promote poor communication.
Unfortunately it isn’t. My friends went into my bedroom and are comforting me. It’s 4am. They had their doubts as well.
It wouldnt change it and therefore not worth the effort. As you get older and maybe wiser you learn that life just happens, people don’t Really do things because of you or to spite you or to hurt you. They just do things. What is…is. Your time would be best spent doing the things you like, thinking about the things you want to do or like to do and with people who you are happy to be with.
It’s easy to say when I am not the one hurting like you but you have to try and remove ‘your from the situation.
They did what they did just because they did and that’s how some people are. Now you need to be better than that and move on. I am not saying forgive and forget whether you do that is up to you. I am just saying move on, because anything else is a waste of time, mental energy and will only make you feel worse.
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Workouts and photos look great. But hate hearing about this personal situation getting worse.
I don’t know enough about your circumstances to give advice other than the boilerplate stuff everyone else is offering. But as a 50+ year old guy who’s been kicked to the curbside more than once in his life - I encourage you to take care of yourself. As these moments tend to show, you’re the only one truly qualified for that job.
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That’s real shitty. At least you can laugh at him when she fucks him over a little further down the line.
Hang on in there.
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Well, this is the last time I talk about her. Moving on, like you guys said. I can’t stay in the past. And I’ve spent way too much of myself for too little in return.
So, I was already enabriated, but as an anvil was dropped on my heart, I drank like a crazy person. I’m quite sick physically today. No gym tonight 
Woke up at 1 PM after a horrible night. Good thing my boss is comprehensive and she actually comforted me.
You know, I thought that in a few years maybe, my ex would think of me with affection. maybe even regret me, because I was as good and caring as I would never have been. But she’ll never think of me like this. Just a mistake, perhaps something shameful that she did.
I thought being a good and giving person would give you affection, or at elast respect. But it’s a dog-eat-dog world, right. I never loved someone as much. I was paying everything for her, despite earning half as much. I sold my collection guitar to pay her a trip to Rome. I would never sleep because I would always go out etc for her. Doing whatever I could to make her happy. Being loved by her friends and family. So it hurts realizing that what you do doesn’t matter. That you matter so little for someone who meant the world for you. I would have given her the world, and she didn’t even have the courage to break up in person, and now this.
And what about my younger brother. My father left when we were really young. I always tried to take care of him, defend him, include him. Introduced him to my friends and more, who became a family. He said that I’m the person he loves the most in this earth. But I guess it doesn’t hold much compared to an amazing ass.
I don’t even know what could be the lesson here. Sometimes, shit happens, that’s all.
There are almost 4 billions men, so why… They talked and seen each other behind my back, knowing it would destroy me. Attraction is supported, encouraged by this. It doesn’t happen overnight. They were fully aware of what they were doing. And what are they thinking. her parents would litteraly slap the soul out of her if they knew. And my mom well… I was crying so much yesterday she woke up and see what was about. She was already pissed about my ex, but she now she is really mad. And about her own son as well…
Yeah, I guess it never hurts as much than when you’re hurt by people you love. I always felt inferior to my brother, but now I really do. I just wasn’t good enough for her like he is. Things like that pass by my mind. I think of them having sex. Is it better than when she was doing it with me? I’m not even sure I could even look at him in the eyes. And he’still in my house for a few weeks/months.
I was starting to feel better but now I’m shattered. Even the girl that you love, and your own brother don’t have empathy or respect for me. I really feel like a piece of shit.
It’s my birthday this saturday. 30. I’m not even sure I want to do it. A friend said he’ll bring 8 grams of c. Like this will help! Last eyar, I already didn’t celebrated my birthday because I was in a terrible place and didn’t want to party. Right now I don’t even know what I want to do. Yeah I guess I want to party. I want to escape at least, go somewhere exotic.
Anyway, a couple of friends and my sister stayed with me in my bedroom til’ 6 AM. They really comforted me. I’m lucky to have good friends. They even proposed me to live with them for a while.
Anyway, I don’t even know to do, what I want to do. I’m numb, like that Linkin Park song. Perhaps I’m still enabriated. It’s been quite some times I don’t really want to do anything. I think I’ll just focus on getting to the next 10%. I have several photoshoots scheduled for after my birthday. I’ll work as hard as I can to try to look like a demigod. My friend said that she will definitely introduce me to some of their hot friends with whom I would really match. I’m not sure I can’t even think of girls anymore.
How could I opened myself again. Trust someone like that. Because really, there is no guarantee you won’t get fucked, no matter what you do. This is really disheartening. I don’t want to love anymore.
Anyway, no gym tonight in that state, so I have the day. I think I’ll go outside, to the beach perhaps, or the mall buy myself a nice shirt or something. And focus on the gym and my body. This is vain, but at least I know than when I work correctly and hard there, I have the approriate response. No surprises, no failures. And you know what, I met another person yesterday that want to hire me. That’s nice at least
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Wise words here from stand-in Yoda.
My 2c is that living well is the best revenge. Continue to make the best decisions for you and your goals. If you let this, it will cause you to make bad decisions. At that point it’s not only hurt you once, its hurt you twice, three times, however many times you let it hurt you. This has already cost you heartache, don’t let it cost you anything else.
Also: you’re looking pretty ripped and irritatingly good looking. You bastard.
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Yeah you’re right. And really I just want to be happy, and don’t cause pain. It’s just an endless and pointless circle then. But honestly I’ll need some time there…
Thank you anyway! It’s better than nothing ahah. I went to the mall and bought some gorgeous shirts and polo. And I realized, I was dressed just like Arnold in this pic
Minus 50 pounds of muscle of course ahahah. But I really like how this program has immediately made my forearms and calves pop. And really, I underestimated the visual appeal of nice calves. I’m never not training them again.
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