DarkDescartes TRT Recovery Log

I feel like I’m going to regret posting this. It’s a very hard experience to describe. Like explaining sight to a blind man (they can’t visualize concepts). For me it was very intense at first. Almost like I was in a space shuttle blasting through the atmosphere at a gazillion miles an hour and I felt a little sick but after a while you reach space and you are slowed down floating and it’s fun but still intense. I saw myself (didn’t look like me but I knew it was me) and that version of me basically told me to recalibrate my life (although they told me that using colors and shapes). There was a bunch of other shit but that’s the part I can somewhat explain without sounding like a total lunatic. I quit IV opiates that day, got out of a miserable relationship and two weeks later moved from the poorest county in the South to NYC (having never been there before and knowing no one). I went from wasting my life on the verge of death to the top real estate agent in a well known Agency within 18 months. It’s like it reset my mind in the same way you reset your computer to factory settings. You’re the same person but without 10 yrs of crap on your desktop.

It’s not something I tell many folks because I know how nuts this sounds.

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