
I’ll be honest, there were days when I wanted to gnaw my arm off, and there were days where I just felt unfazed. I tried to keep the mindset of “what the mind can conceive, the body can achieve”. I always bitch about people who are weak when it comes to food, and actually look down on how anyone can be so weak willed, but lemme tell ya, I had a few moments where I asked myself what the hell I was doing -lol.
Of course the fact that I knew I was doing something that most people wouldn’t be able to was a source of inspiration and a well of determination (if that doesn’t sound too cheesey). Once I found a few foods that I could pad my diet with (lettuce in a bag, lbs and lbs of raw broccoli and cauliflower, and even sugar free jello snack packs!), things became a lot easier.
You do have to deal with your ‘friends’ who don’t quite “get it” and think that by offering you just “a tiny piece” of cake that they’re genuinely doing you a favor. The best response I found was to point out how disrespectful they are being of something that obviously is important to you. They don’t have to understand it, they just have to respect it.
On an update note, my weight has been hovering around 192-193 in the mornings, which is right about where I want it to be. Approx 20 lbs above my contest weight, and my strength has just been through the roof. Although certain areas have ‘softened’ considerably, I’m still sporting some vascularity that I wasn’t expecting to be so prominent after the show.
I think the 2 chest sessions a week are showing some slight improvement in my mid-pec area (my chest has always been my biggest weakness), but I obviously need to thicken the lower area up A LOT if I’m going to be dropping 20 lbs (or it will look even worse). It definitely hurt me in the front relaxed poses, so that’s how I’m checking how things are shaping up.
S