Cal's Big Log II: The Revenge

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921

I really thought I was a boy too.

I don’t think my Mom ever bothered to tell me the difference between boys and girls and when I was 8 she chopped all my hair off.

Oh and I was geeky looking! Bucked teeth and awkward. Not petite and dainty like other girls. Kinda tall for my age too. No pink, no dresses, played with the boys.

I eventually figured out I was girl :wink:
And then that pesky puberty hit and I thought my life was ruined! I loathed the attention, so much like puff, I dressed really really bad. I’m still learning how to dress to this day lol.

Have you ever talked to anyone about your eating disorders?

922

No, I never did. Well, unless you count the embarrassing time when I had to explain to my university flatmate why I’d eaten all her granola. I’ve never seen the point of therapy, for myself at least. A therapist would just ask me all the same questions I’ve asked myself, except they’d charge me for it. I did a lot of navel gazing in my twenties and realised that the more I analysed myself, the worse I got. I prefer to look outward.

And fuck, I’d forgotten I have ART today. I feel rather sick and sorry for myself and definitely not in the mood for painful shit like that, but it was too late to cancel. Argh.

923

ART may actually be the best thing for you today. I hope I’m right! Feel better.

924

feel better soon! :slight_smile:

925

I want to look outward too. There is no denying that a lot of my learned behaviors/conditions from growing up are having tremendous carry over to now. And not in a good way. I’ve analyzed myself too but I still need the tools to learn how to change. Sometimes we can’t do it on our own even though we think we can/should.

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Here’s where I’m at with the combats. They do up but they are tight in the thigh and crotch and there’s some spillage over the top. It’s not bad, but it’s not great either. Still, it’s a little progress.

I have, rather reluctantly, decided not to train today. I am still feeling under the weather and whilst I could push myself, and would on any other week, I don’t want to put any extra strain on my immune system. Reason being, I turn 44 on Friday and have a big party to look forward to on the Saturday. And I really don’t want to be sick for that!

I’m also in the throes of writing school reports - a tedious process that takes a lot of time - so I need to get that done and dusted.

As it’s sunny, I think I may take a nice walk on the common as my exercise for today. Check out the duck pond and see if there any babies. I feel blessed to have this lovely common up the road.

927

Oh, I forgot to say - I did go for my ART yesterday. Interestingly, the left shoulder pain appears to originate from some tightness in the upper back rather than the shoulder itself which is sort of good news.
I do have quite a bad pain in the ball of my right foot - this is completely new to me. I must have aggravated it sprinting. Nicole ARTed the bottom of my foot and jeebers that hurt. She also played around with my dodgy right ankle (uber tight soleus) which was excruciting.

Kimba was right, though - I did feel a bit better afterwards.

928

Maybe I should go check out ART, sounds right up my alley.

I’m sorry I can’t really see ‘spillage’ on the top there. Happy early birthday.

929

Heh, you’re right, it’s hard to see in the photo. It’s obvious to me, though, if I look down when I’m wearing them. There’s definitely a bagel thing going on. But mostly it’s just the tightness - the legs are supposed to be relaxed, not straining at the thighs and giving me a wedgie.

The cold has definitely come out now. I feel like crap. Head is a bit stuffy but mostly it’s just manifesting as an all round feeling of crapness. And I’m at school today, and I simply don’t have the energy to shout at the little darlings, deal with school reports and organise the sports day. But I’ll get through it. I just want to be shot of this thing for my birthday (or at the very least, the party on Satuday) but I have a feeling it’s going to linger a while longer.

930

Cal: You’re not at all far from where you want to be with those combats. Shit. I wish you could see what I see with respect to your body and your shape. sorry you’re sick. The week is still early–I’m hopeful you’ll be feeling substantially better for your party.

931

you have the cutest belly button :slight_smile:

932

yep. i squinted and turned my computer over a couple times wondering if the angle would make a difference, but i still didn’t see any spillage :-p

i do know what you mean about clothes feeling a bit firmer than you would like, though. agree with nadia that you don’t seem to be very far away from your goal.

hope your cold is receding… and you have a blast this weekend.

933

Wont take much at all Cal and you will be moving around in those pants with room to spare :slight_smile: Hope you feel better before your birthday!!

934

Well I think you look good in the spillage photo.

I have an army green jacket I am hoping to fit back into, it used to be my traveling jacket. Not sure if I want to post my progress pic though. lol. But I do sing “fat tits in a little coat” while I’m wearing it. :smiley:

You are closer to fitting yours than I am to fitting mine.

Feel better.

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I’ve been teaching whilst battling the cold all week. Yesterday (my birthday) was uneventful - I took popcorn and dried fruit to work rather than cakes or chocolates but still ate quite a lot. That stuff is addictive. I also had some gourmet chocolates in the evening. Which were yummy, but after a week and a half of low carb dieting I found them oddly unsatisfying. Interesting.

The big party is today so I expect I will eat and drink a lot of calories and spend tomorrow in a stupor. Which is fine by me.

The bad news is that the strange ball of the foot pain has turned into a real issue. It’s hard to walk on it, let alone run, and the fact I’m using my foot differently to avoid the pain is putting stress on that ankle. I’ve Googled my symptoms and think there’s a chance it could be sesamoiditis, which is a fucker of a thing because it takes ages to go away. Shit shit shit. If it is that, then I’m not going to be running for a while and I’m really enjoying running right now. I can’t ride a bike and don’t like swimming before anyone suggests those as alternatives. Bugger and shit.

I am not 100% after the cold but felt well enough to train this morning, at least.

Glute activation warm-up

20 hypers
20 reverse hypers with V at top
20 clams (per leg)
20 single leg hip thrusters (foot on high bench) (per leg)
20 bosu ball squat/sit up combo thingy

No step-ups because of the foot.

Overhead Bulgarian Split Squat (5kg body bar) 2 x 15

Felt easier than last time. Still hard on my arse though. I did these in the cardio/pussy machine part of the gym rather than the free weight room and had my grounded foot on a mat, so it was a bit easier on the foot. I can’t bend my big toe back (in fact I’ve taped it to stop it bending back more than is comfortable) which makes a lot of things awkward.

Box Squats

Bar x 20
30kg x 10
2 x 40kg x 5

I wasn’t really up to doing high rep squats because my respiratory system isn’t firing on all cylinders yet, but in any case, my foot wasn’t having fun either. Stopped it there.

Single leg bent over hamstring curls:
20kg x 12
25kg x 12

Decided to do arms. Cos I’m vain and I want them to look good at the party, y’know.

Shoulder/brachialis 'hab (2kg dumbells):

20 lateral raises
20 front raises
20 overhead presses
30 dumbell curls (uh, I zoned out and got carried away)
20 hammer curls
20 bent over raises
20 L raises

Superset:

EZ Bar skull crushers : Bar x 20, Bar +5kg x 15, Bar +7.5kg x 12, Bar +10kg x 10
Hammer curls : 4kg x 20, 6kg x 15, 8kg x 12, 10kg x 10

Superset:

Rope Pushdown: 7.5kg x 20, 10kg x 15
Dumbell curls: 4kg x 20, 6kg x 15

And that’s it. Too much to do today to do more.

I will post tomorrow if I’m not vomiting.

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sorry to hear about your foot pain. i know all about the awkwardness that comes from not being able to bend your big toe back. really hope that it comes right for you soon.

hope you have a wonderful birthday party and don’t feel too wrecked tomorrow.

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[quote]Cal Jones wrote:

Decided to do arms. Cos I’m vain and I want them to look good at the party, y’know.

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best reason in the world to do them :wink:
I do a set of pushups before wearing my strapless dresses.
sistards unite!

938

Sorry about your foot, that blows. Mmm, popcorn and dried fruit, gotta give that a go. Better than popcorn and peanut m&m’s. And ‘overhead’ bulgarian squats, good going, I’m starting to hate bulgarian squats enough as it is let alone having to raise my arms. Have a good party!

939

Ahh! Happy Birthday! Have fun at your party tonight.

Sorry to hear about your foot. My sister was just diagnosed with that. Differential diagnosis was stress fracture–so be careful–if it doesn’t improve some with time you need an xray.

Doc said 4-6 weeks of no running. No flip flops. He told her to buy and to wear x-trainers. I think she would have preferred a cast. She also tapes her foot/toe somehow, and wears padded socks.

Doc suspected that she was running in the wrong running shoes-based on the callouses on her feet (sides).

940

Yeah I will need a proper diagnosis - I’m just guessing based on where the pain is. The idea of a fracture worries me and from what I’ve read, can easily be missed due to the size of the bones. I’ve actually found that the less supportive the shoe, the more comfortable I am. I was sore wearing the trainers I usually wear to work so I wore Chucks the next day and they felt a bit better. Bare feet are the most comfortable.

Party was fun - I was quite sensible about getting myself home before the last tube left. I drank a bit, not too much, ate some cake and smoked a lot (not cigarettes). That tends to happen when I’m with my friend Colin. I feel only slightly grotty. I’m going to drink lots of tea now and try and finish writing reports. No training today.