Hi, I recently lost around 65 pounds. I was around 230 and went down to 165. Due to just a basic lack of cutting knowledge I pretty much cut my calories completely down to around 1200 a day and was doing a lot of cardio and still weight liftinig, stupid, I know.
I had acquired some muscle in my pre cutting phase from football workouts, so I looked good at 165, but I felt “too skinny” and had to change. I began to bulk up and I believe since my nutrition was so poor as soon as I started eating right again the weight just piled on, probably from water, and the carbs I was eating because before this point is was almost none. I went up to around 185 pounds and deffinitly added muscle with of course, some fat.
I pretty much stayed at 185 for a few months than decided around march to bulk again for around 2 months before cutting b4 summer. I went up to 193 and began to cut. Now I am around 183 pounds and look pretty good, Ive reached some PR’s in my benchpress at around 305 and my deadlift at 335, and squat at around 405.
huhhhhhhh okay now my question is really to be honest I fucking hate cutting, it blows, im miserable. I want to bulk again but I dont know if I should gradually increase to a 4/5 thousand calorie per day bulk, in fear of being a fat bastard again. Is anyone in this same position? I feel like until i get over the fear of being a fatass again i will never succeed like i would like in the gym.