so did all the energy get sucked after that meet you did? and you hurt your back??
The weights will be waiting… Maybe it’s also the winter blues a little?
all of the above MiM!!
I just have to ride this out i suppose :{
Sorry to read you’re still not at 100%. Hang in there.
thanks nadia! i appreciate the vibes 
today was cool. I get wrapped up in stuff and forget how much i like just being sporty and active with no real direction. did a misc workout and it was cool.
overhead squats 95x10x 4 sets
benching 105x7x5 sets
db rows 45x10x3 sets
some ghetto reverse hypers
rowing for ten mins --way leisurely pace
stretched.did some handstands and back bends. nice:)
oh yeah,and i did some cleans to overhead presses too–> 89#x4 x4 sets i feel doing these will help rehab my back…so far so good,no pain with those
today was better sorta. I have not done regular back squats in forever. the Half Mast Brute continues
tinker with squats bar, 95,135,155, 185 probably 4 reps each
front loaded reverse alt lunges 115x8 total not per leg x4 sets
front squats 135x7,x6,x6,x6
Bulgarian split squats with bb 95x8/ leg 3 sets
dl with bar only,maybe 5
leisurely rowing for 15 mins
some weird horizontal hack squat type machine. did a version of one legged/ pistol squats on it,a few sets of #45x8.kinda in a glute activation position
yay for misc workouts. i’ve been feeling a bit lackluster this week (though not as down as you) and i remembered: i forgot to have fun. hoping you rediscover the joy. awesome squatting.
thank you alexus!!!
glad to hear you’re finally feeling better. Go slow, your muscle memory will still be there, ready to kick in when needed.
i really appreciate that lil power! i’m antsy, but also respectfully frightened of going fast
I can totally relate to being in a training funk. Me too! But if we just show up and do things that are fun and make us happy and don’t hurt us, we’ll pull through this. Deal?!?!?
right on kimba! :D!
today was cool,felt good,but i didn’t want to push it
overheads 95x12x4 sets
benching 105x7x5 sets
that’s it.
i’m having a lifestyle meltdown of sorts. it seems in the last few months my body has changed–my mind too. I hate to say it but I think my day’s as a graveyarder are coming to a close. I dunno.
I’ve been having a lot of trouble concentrating and speaking coherently,slurring and just being spazzy. SHort term memory loss. I don’t really know what to think of this.
i am aware that the phenomenon exists for those who work nights for a prolonged period that your body just starts to say FUCK THIS. my emotions get way out of wack–tears at stoplights. full body sweats at even slightly stressful interactions.
Also the simple fact that you’re awake when everyones not is isolating–even for a relative recluse like me…its hard to find people who can relate or understand your schedule or who can tolerate the limits it gives you and forgive you for blowing plans constantly because your too tired to talk on the phone let alone drive.
Anyways, I need to get my vision checked as well. i’m having trouble seeing things, i have bad eyesight to begin with ( about 20/80). I have congenital nystagmus as well which gets worse when i’m wacked out. but my vision just has plain out decreased in the last three months. blurry!
i dunno. in the next few months i’m going to have to figure that all out. off to the dr’s ($ i DON’T have) thinking, checking out other options, weight pros and cons etc. GROWING OLD…i hope more responsible:{
long pooooooooooooooooost 
Brute,
I’m sorry things are so tough for you now. I hope things get better soon. I know money is an issue, but the cost of the graveyard shift most certainly seems to high. Feel better. And take care of yourself.
Bummer on your out whack life right now. Hope things straighten out for ya, just keep plugging along and make the changes that need changing and move on! Sendin’ good thoughts your way 
thank you nadia and n8tive!
today
cleans to overhead press 89#x10,x8,x6,x6
bent over rows (bb) 89#x10,x8,x5,x5
gentle deadlifts 89,135,185, 225,245,then got scared. unscathed!
tinkered with overhead step ups–bar x5/leg,65x3 then i ended up hurdling the bench so i quit.
and i ran 2 miles for shits and giggles.
there mustve been a zombie chasing you or something. 2 miles for shits and giggles?
oh, i’m tired now from reading that.
i mean, good for you and all, but i’ll stay fat and deconditioned over heer…
Brutiful! Sorry to hear about life’s sudden tribulations. But its kinda like I said [wrote] to Deja - altho life appears to be breaking down, just think about how now you get the chance to build it back up! So this could be a great opportunity for something new and exciting.
Maybe its the just the natural end of one iteration of your life and the beginning of another one that will no doubt be equally wonderful, and equally bittersweet. Hang in there!
Your training is gaining momentum, that’s for sure! Overhead step-ups?! You’re a madwoman.
Can you switch to day shift? It sounds like it’s time.
Hang in there.
Any thoughts on the March meet? You going? I will certainly miss you if you don’t.
Aww Brute! I don’t like to see that you’re down ;(
I hope you can figure out how to de-stress your life, hopefully starting and ending with your job.
XOXO
hey Cbear!!!–oh believe me its probably the last two miles i’ll run. A few coworkers have caught the marathon madness–i felt secretly challenged to see if i can run anymore. I can but I believe its retarded and pointless—no offense to runners. My inner thigh’s chafted a bit so i say NO MORE! …and I’m getting fat and deconditioned too! but i’m terming it healing and um…chillin. I wait until Lent to get serious about diet again–giving it up,suffering for God and stuff.
thanks mashcy! i think you’re right…I do look forward to the road back:) …or going wherever i’m supposed to.I’m very very lucky in so many ways! the only one who’s really being hurt or bothered is me, so that i can live with:)
hey snap! as of now, no to the march :{I will take it as it goes. My injury screwed things up, I won’t put it completely out of the picture,who knows? I will know here in a month or so where i stand with my company, and if i will consider staying on nights.I’m going to try and change my sleep schedule up and see if that helps. I’d like to be able to get to the point where i am able to go workout with the peeps at rmlc on a regular basis.I really want that. we’ll see.
thanks nikki!
today
gentle squats bar, 135, 185,225,245
gentle deadlifts bar, 135x2,185x2,225x7x3sets,225x6 felt good–>had to hold back
benching 110x9x3sets,115x5
that’s it