You have an ex-husband?
Brutus?
thanks deja ,cal and kimba! Its working so far, no texts this week 
So I shall put it behind me.
hey Snap! I was married young at 20…wiper snappers.
I don’t know WHAT it is but the last month I’ve suddenly felt so freaking old and crotchety! It must be the complete lack of lifting going on.
My back feel great, almost 100%. I did some cardio with HITT, and I think I’m going to do it again for the next few days, then another fabulous massage next monday–OH it was nice!–then slow slow slowly get the wts next week.
This really threw me in a loop–but things have calmed down a lot thankfully.
Also I noticed since I stopped taking benadryl to get me to sleep, its been much much better. I must clench up and sleep hard when I’m doped up, because getting out of bed and the initial few hours of my waking day were the worst–felt like a clenched up fist, my longimus dorsi–if its called that,that’s a vet tech term so i dunno if its for people… but much better now…thank goodness…man… but benadryl is soooooo nice …i love getting a solid kick in the ass of tired so i can fall asleep soundly withing a timely fashion.but not worth it…i sleep like the vengeful dead instead :{ I was trying to chase away some bad mojo by just falling the hell asleep. Benadryl ABUSE!!
so I dunno about the meet, we’ll see. I can be half way decent I’ll do it. I have time, but I’m scared and babying my back. bleh. I am very very happy that i’m feeling alot better! very thankful!no more being stupid!
Hey Brute: Glad your feeling better. Don’t put pressure on yourself… take it easy on your comeback, and you’ll comeback stronger for sure!
thanks nadia:) I will be going slow for sure. I feel like the wind’s out of my sails right now–>I know its temporary and probably baseless, but I do have the blues…very very glad my back’s not completely jacked up. however,so SCORE!!
2011 → HARDER, BETTER, FASTER, STRONGER
BRE! good to see you!! :)!check out that avi:)!!!
tonight t’was more cardio with HITT at the end. also benched some and tentatively grabbed a few deadlifts. slow slow slow
benching 95x9x4 sets
deadlifts bar, 95, 135, 155, 175 for 3-4 reps each.
today was another happy back day:) did some ss cardio with HITT at the end then some benching
100x7x5 sets
going to give some dl’s another go Monday or Sunday. I’m not sure about regular squats yet either–we’ll see.
The crazy motivation urge will come I’m sure after a few weeks of safe and mediocre. I’m feeling very very very lucky !
Let me know if you want me to make a call for you. Or I could hold your phone and forward all relevant calls to you. 
hey girl! so glad to see you’re appreciating feeling lucky. hope the back feels golden and you’re able to IRON ur way out of the funk. we’re here for ya!
thanks PMPM and deja!
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pmpm’s got skillz.
She does have MAD Skills!
OH do i fell better.Nothing incredible. But i got to do some of my favorites–overhead squats–sigh :}
95x7x5 sets
tinkered with dls,just pretty much lifting up the bar and that’s it, got up to 225 then it felt odd so i quit immediately.
BUT I think I’m on the mend for sure now because I completely am over cardio. Usually when I’m still mending, I know i have got to do something so cardio is tolerable if not half bad. today it was an absolute no go–success!
yay for hating cardio (because of what it means to you). lol.
i know i’m well and truly injured when i start getting enjoying progressing one legged unweighted movements.
Word! it is a positive to hate it. i tend to fall into cardio addiction fairly easily…but not now
benching today
105x5x 7sets
back feels good…so nice! its cool to brace for pain --like when bending over or getting out of a chair , and it NOT happening or only slightly being stiff.
i do think i’m going to have to really be careful… especially with deadlifts 
makes me sad because i feel so strong doing those and love going all crazy with them. i keep saying i’m waiting then try them with lighter wts…i should just hold the hell off… mmpf. oh well. this is a long work week for me so hopefully i can just get my joints movin and do 1/2 workouts until i’m fully mended. cool.
I would give you good massages if I were in Denver!!! You’d like it!!! get better soon!!!
You’re relationship with cardio is funny, brute. I’m a beyond hope addict. The only thing that will stop me from running is a hurt wheel. Glad you’re feeling better and getting back to doing what you love to do. DLS again soon!
thanks nadia! cardio is an odd friend at times…there is a definite crack like attribute to doing it…as bad as that is for a pl to say i can definitely respect that crack.
today
benching
115x3x10sets
^what about rowing!! You’d be an awesome rower!
i have thought of rowing! i thin k it would help rehab my back a but as well, nothing hard corelike your stuff Bre, but it’d be better then nothing…which is what i feel like doing now :{
very odd for me to feel this way,having no drive for…anything. I know if i was in good repair i’d be better and have actual drive…but right now i’m not:(…and what’s most strange and remarkable is that i don’t feel bad about it really. usually a missed workout can be calls for a shit fit…not now.
I’ve been working bench at least. Its awful how anything upper body takes away my will to live–because that part is totally fine and healthy…i start and get instantly put off of it and depressed. i’m a huge baby i know–and i know its because i’m not good at it that i hate it. bleh.
so i’m trying to decide whether to head into the gym today or not. after a 50 hour work week i don’t wanna! and the sun isscaring me! bright lights!! excuses…but i’m not really all that bothered. STRANGE
oh,yeah.monday’s benchin
115x7,x6,x5,x4