Thanks to everyone for your kind comments. I was in two minds whether to post that or not…
Doogie - When you’re in that position you have to want to give up. I wanted my life back. I was doing the stuff every six hours just to feel normal (never injected by the way just smoked from the foil).
I had hit rock bottom, the next place was on the streets. I wanted to train and go out with girls again. So I went to my brothers to stay with him for three weeks. I went cold turkey, it was during christmas and it was the hardest thing I’ve done. I didn’t have any substitute at all, as I’d tried to give up that way before and it just increased my habit.
Once I’d got over the first seven days I knew it could only get better. All your emotions come back and you feel guilt, sorrow and regret for all the damage you’ve done. I did do a lot of crying, which I couldn’t control during that time.
After three weeks I was eating normally and completely free of the physical craving for heroin. I then went back to live with my parents. I started an IT course in Bath which is not far from where I live. I was taken there and picked up by my parents. There were two freinds that I had that I was trusted with to go out and that was it.
I started drinking alcohol again and really enjoyed going pubbing, clubbing and going after girls…
When the IT course finished two months later I was drinking mostly every day, a lot of the time during the day. I then went out with freinds had 6 pints of rough cider and drove my friends down the road, I got pulled over by the police and got done for drink driving.
I had replaced heroin with drink. That made me wake up and smell the coffee so to speak. Obviously my parents were very dissapointed with me.
From then I stopped drinking got a job at a supermarket locally whilst going to college to continue studying computing. Met my future wife and started training again.
That was this time in 1997. I gave up heroin December 21st 1996, and haven’t looked back since.
I’ve never had counselling and never wanted to return to what I used to do…
Doogie - even though I’ve done that and given up smoking (which is apparently more addictive that Heroin - I believe Vicodin is most addictive, then nicotin, then heroin - two out of three isn’t bad…haha…) I have major trouble with dieting, I thought I’d be able to do it easily but I hate feeling hungry now…
Well there you go people, I’ve bared my soul…
Thanks again for all the nice posts…
Cheers…Stubob…
