I tore my hamstring a couple of weeks ago and can’t train legs with weights atm so I have been going out on my racer for rehab/cardio and have started to really enjoy my rides. Anyhow, I happened to show my wife a news article http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/technology-21716686about about a cycling app (strava) that is being sued for encouraging reckless cycling, which mentioned the case of a guy killed while racing to get on the app’s leaderboard, he crashed into a car at over 40mph.
Moments later, without thinking, I mentioned to my wife that I had hit 42mph going down a hill on my ride that morning. A new PR, I was quite impressed, she, less so.
After an hour or so of frosty, one word answers it dawned on me that she was in fact in a mood with me, when I asked why she said it was because of the speed I said I’d been going. After a lengthy discussion I apologised, said that I hadn’t realised how much she worried and that I wouldn’t ride so fast in future…well I wouldn’t make the mistake of telling her how fast I went next time anyway. She finished by saying, “you think you are invincible…but, you’re not!”
Reflecting later from the comfort of the spare bed (just kidding), I realised that she was right, I do think I’m invincible. I’m no adrenaline junkie at all, in fact I’m quite risk averse, I don’t drive fast and I don’t intentionally put myself in harms way, but I do have this strange belief that if I was in an accident of some kind I would somehow survive and that I would be OK. I know it’s not rational, I know that my skull is no harder than anyone elses and I know I would come off second best in a collision with a lorry, but if I’m honest, I do think this way.
So I was wondering does anyone else feel the same way? and do you think that it comes from a distorted sense of self confidence that comes from being “healthy”? you know, stronger and fitter than average?
EDIT: Could be expanded to “does anyone have any self belief that is clearly not warranted?” if everyone thinks this topic is a pile of shit.