Press: 1x15-65lbs; 1x10, 2x6, 10x5-55lbs EMOM
4x(20seal rows-15lb dbs+15lying leg raises), no rest btw sets
Btn press: 3x8, 1x7, 1x6-55lbs
Conditioning: 6x(1min kickboxing, heavy bag+30sec jumping jacks)
felt good and quick, happy w/press
Last meeting with supervisor. She’s super happy w/me and agreed to write me a rec letter. I’m not getting my hopes up, but this is a step in the right direction
Good mornings: 10x10-50kg
Deadbug: 10x10/side
Leg extensions: 5x10-70lbs, superset with 5 burpees
this felt really nice, really worked Lowe body
Update:
taking this week off academics too.
I weighed in at 109.4lbs. I’ve been eating way more sodium so not surprised at all, but then again, my weight tends to “stairstep” so there’s a chance this weight isn’t coming off
I’ve learned how to look in the direction of mirrors without looking at myself in the mirror. Kinda like the “thousand yard stare”. It’s actually a helpful trick for training in a gym with mirrors, because I don’t want to get the visual feedback from the mirror.
Anna, I genuinely don’t know why you do this to yourself. I say that coming from a place of concern as a parent. So many of us care for you and really just want you to achieve, if not happiness, contentment.
I think this sentence encapsulates why I think you’ll benefit from taking a step back and relaxing and find just one or two things in your life that you want to focus on for a while.
In the first sentence you say you’re getting fatter, only to immediately say in the second sentence that most of it is likely water weight due to increased sodium. If you know it’s water weight then it’s not a concern- I looked really flabby the last couple of days because I ate a lot of carby and high sodium meals. I don’t care; I just enjoyed those carby meals.
Anna, I genuinely believe that you will accomplish your goals a lot better if you just learn to let go. Everyone knows that immediate gratification ultimately loses to delayed gratification, and I believe learning to let go is part of that. I promise you won’t lose what you think you’re going to lose if you just keep the mindset to develop a certain quality.
I was talking about the gain from the past 5 days (107,6-109.6). I am still ~ 4 lbs heavier since the beginning of summer
My hips and inner thighs have gotten wider/more fluffy, my face has gotten rounder, belt is tighter
Strength has improved on deadlift, but squat has been stagnant, if not worse. I feel like I’m further behind.
I’ve said this quite a few times but no one seems to believe me. My weight seems to do a weird stair step thing where I’ll be steady at a weight for a few weeks, then I’ll go off plan, gain a couple of pounds thinking it’s water weight, but the weight never comes off. That’s what happened during the pandemic and what happened over the summer
Academics and lifting are the two things I really care about
I’ve been letting myself eat more the past 5 days and it’s nice to be able to eat more, but I’m bloated, jiggly and more unhappy than ever with my body
Anna, forgive if I’m mistaken as I haven’t been following your log closely for a little while. Haven’t you recently (within the past year or so) had your hormones level off and your body return to a relatively normal function for a young woman?
If that’s correct, I suspect those things to have a big impact on the way your body functions. This is a good thing, so don’t be mistaken there! But, if that’s the case, I think it’d stand to reason that your body is running a bit differently than it used it in its now more healthy state.
I understand you’re unhappy and it can be hard to wait things out, but it might just be taking a bit of time for your body to adapt, again, to its changing circumstances.
I think Pwns last question above is an important one to answer truthfully, to yourself more than us.
