I would say that the feelings still occur: this just allows you a mechanism to not actually deal with/address those feelings. Nietzsche would refer to this as a “life denying philosophy”.
In truth, I find misanthropy more appealing than sociopathy.
To be totally clear, I’ve never read any of what Rand has written herself, only heard second hand (from fans and critics). I have some on my reading list because so many people I massively respect seem to be fans however it’s going to take a massive effort on my part to keep an open mind going in because my impressions so far have been pretty awful.
Edit: totally open to a good “jumping off point” by the way, given my lefty liberal tendencies.
A girl stabbed me in the back of the neck once like that in 10th grade. Looking back, I kinda wish she had said something prior to that instead. She was definitely in the ballpark of types I go for.
Anyways, to date she has not done that to anybody else and as far as I know has enjoyed a pretty good life with a husband, a couple kids, and runs a pretty successful local business.
Anyhow, You and people you like are probably safe now, and it’s overly harsh to hold yourself guilty for the actions and emotions of a 7th grade girl.
Deadlifts: 1x5-60,70,80,85,90,95, 105(joker); 2x(5x1-cluster)-95
Front squat: 5x5-55, super set with 5,4,3,3,2 pullups and 5 burpees
Good mornings: 5x10-40, super set with 30sec plank and 5 burpees
Squat: 1x20-70kg @SvenG
Conditioning: 4x(40sec db devils press-20lb dbs+20sec air squats)
work really does contract/expand to fit the time allotted, this took me about as much time as my gzcl deadlift days but I did much less work. I appreciate the back off, the good mornings just happened- planned to do 3x10, but I kind of shut off mentally and ended up going to 5, really really happy w/20rep squat- it didn’t feel too bad on conditioning until AFTER I finished, had a few more in the tank but form was breaking down and my lower back was hurting
Deadlifts: 2x(5x1-cluster)-85kg
Conditioning: 16x(40sec on+20sec air squats)- alt btw db devils presses, renegade rows, jumping jacks, high knees, mountainclimbers
that’s all for today, damn this was very very hard- everything hurt…, the intervals went better than expected but was spent afterwards so cut it short
Supposed to bench today but my upper back is somewhat pissed… oops…
Update:
I’ve found that I like fats more, but I seem to get a “crash” effect when I eat high fat vs higher carb with that said, I’m hungrier now, and can’t tell if it’s because I actually need to eat more of if it’s because I’m eating higher carb. I don’t want to gain weight but I suspect my weights been creeping up. I wish I could just eat pounds of meat everyday and not get fat
turns out one of the guys in my maths group is interested in Econ and game theory stuff. He studied physics (undergrad and PhD) and runs a tutoring business so I didn’t know. I’ve been giving him advice on business stuff since my mum runs a tutoring company. He said he’d be happy to discuss Econ stuff with me.
@hustlinghat93 the daily deadlift thing isn’t going to work.
I feel trashed today. I’m not sure what’s going on. I’m able to do less work than just a few weeks/months ago
Giant set: rows-face pulls-burpees
5x(5rows-40kg supinate grip+15 face pulls-22.5lbs+ 5burpees)
tired but felt pretty good once I got going, took it slow
Update:
game theory exam is tomorrow… enough said
On that subject, the professor is seriously awesome. I wanted to set up a model for the confessions paper I’m “coauthor” on (purely for fun). I sent him a really long email describing my intuition and asking for help.
He actually got back to me about it, gave me some advice, linked a couple of papers and said that we could talk about it after exams are over!!
I managed to gain fat (and apparently muscle) over quarantine WITHOUT ostensibly changing nutrition or activity level. Obviously something did change or else I wouldn’t have gained weight.
I do not thjnk it’s possible not to gain fat in a large caloric surplus, even if I trained my arse off