I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing, Anna. I mean, we all lose our parents at some point, and should be capable of continuing to live happy lives afterwards, but if you have your mother and she’s there for you, nothing wrong with receiving emotional support from a parent who loves you. My mom is still one of my biggest sources of emotional support. She’s wiser than I am, loves me, and wants the best for me, so why wouldn’t I go to her? I plan on trying to always being there for my siblings and children, should they want/need me.
Also don’t think that this is necessarily bad. I mean, I don’t know exactly what “making cat noises” means, haha (as in, how often, in what situations, etc.) but c’mon. It’s your mom. She changed your diapers.
Since my “new” family and I still live with my “old” family, I am still around my young siblings and still act childish around them. It doesn’t mean that I don’t do well in school, hold down jobs, provide for my own child, or act mature and responsible when out in the world, but if I use a weird voice, tease my sister, or make jokes about butts to my brothers, so what? When one of my uncles comes to visit, he and my mom (his sister) make mildly inappropriate jokes in front of their mom (my grandma) because she gets mildly annoyed and they find it funny. They don’t get disrespectful or vulgar, but they have some fun and I think in the end my grandma enjoys seeing her children continue to have fun with one another.
I mean, there’s a time and place for everything, and everything in moderation and all that, but basically, it’s okay to goof off here and there and allow yourself to still have fun with dumb stuff…as long as you get everything else taken care of.
At least that’s my opinion. But I’m pretty young. Maybe older people would disagree.
Take it easy on yourself! You seem to always feel bad about not having lived a hard enough life and for being blessed in too many ways or something. I get it, but be thankful! There’s nothing to prove to anyone.
I don’t know your stance on religion, but I heard a pastor say once that people who have lived “good” lives always seem apologetic when they hear about some former prostitute or criminal or addict or someone becoming a Christian, because they (the “good” person) don’t have that “exciting” of a testimony. He said not to feel bad about it, because that just means you were fortunate enough to not have to suffer as much in life as those people did. He wasn’t intending to tell either group that they were better or worse than the other, just to let the one group know that they shouldn’t feel bad.
I don’t know if I relayed that very well, but you made me think of it.
