Anna's Training Log Part 2 (Part 1)

Training Training Logs
4888

to be as strong as possible while looking as good as possible. It’s something I enjoy and have good genetics for. I don’t particularly are about what others think, it’s more to prove to myself that I can do cool shit

Goal in life is to be successful, which means:

  1. financial success- at least being wealthier than my parents (more is better)
  2. Contribution to society- through work
    How? I plan to be an academic, publish a crap ton of papers, maybe a book or two while doing private equity and cooking on the side. The field I’m interested in is behavioural science, which is socially significant, so if I do a good job, I’ll be contributing to society
    My parents aren’t particularly wealthy, but I am very privileged

5 years- grad school
10 years- in a respectable position at a university (although questionable given potential major shifts in the higher education system
20 years- idk, tech is advancing too fast for me to be able to predict anything with any sort of certainty

I don’t particularly care for CF, their workouts are just a great tool and I like the workouts

this is still a goal

I like chasing things I have potential in. Same goes with academics/career. For most things, I enjoy having a plan and executing it- basically making as few decisions as possible on a day to day basis.

2 Likes
4889

Do you feel as if your daily actions are setting you up for success with achieving your goals?

1 Like
4890

Not particularly
Most of my decisions are on autipilot and I’ve yet to find a way to overcome present bias. I have a hard time distinguishing between “indulging in what feels good” and “working towards goal” when making food/exercise decisions

Week 24: Day 2
Press: 2x7/side, 3x6/side-32lbs- 2min rests
Military Press: 2x(13/side-25lbs+9rows/side-32lbs), 3x(12/side-25lbs+9rows/side-32lbs)- 90sec resets
For Time: 15 db clean and jerk/side-32lbs- 3:05. Note: next time will set 4 min timer and do the clean and jerks, then max burpees until timer up

  • upper back a bit tight and lats strangely sore??? going in- felt better after warmup. Press harder than expected but still got it up, will try for 3-4x7/side next time, right shoulder and left knee (unrelated) quite pissed
  • the DB clean and jerk challenge was VERY fun, got HR up, annoying to have to retighten the DB though- slowed me down unnecessarily
4891

Do you not think that your eating disorder interferes with your non-training goals? How are you going to achieve what you’ve just listed when you are chronically severely malnourished, which impairs cognitive function, and consistently lack a menstrual cycle? Forget about the training goals – you’re very likely to fracture something and or have heart problems that will wreak even greater havoc on your everyday life than the current situation already is.

4 Likes
4892

Extra bit of conditioning yesterday
3x(10KBS+30m carry/arm)-45lbs
2x10kbs-45lbs

  • just a quick little burner

Week 24: Day 3
Pistols: 3x6/side, 3x5/side, 1x3/side
Goblet squat: 2x(20sec eccentric+10 reps+20sec eccentric)-32lbs, wanted 30-10-30 but got to bottom before 30 sec @Voxel

  • pistols went smooth but bracing and upper back continue to be an issue, took LONG rests, goblet squats burned like hell, LOVED it, might do a short run later
4893

So, run did not happen. Muscles weren’t too pissed but digestion wasn’t permitting- just “didn’t feel like it”

Week 24: Day 4
Military press: 2x13/side, 3x12/side-25lbs, 60sec rests
Seated press: 5x11/side-25lbs, 60sec rest btw first two sets, 90sec rest between remaining sets
For time: 25 manmakers-20lb DBs-5:44 (14sec PR)
Rows: 1x(12/side+10/side)

  • legs pretty trash and upper back tight going in, but nothing too bad, press felt good and easier than expected except for bracing, manmakers continue to be very fun- arms were fatiguing more than cardio. Doing rows after really sucked
1 Like
4894

4 days straight of lifting so far this week:
20 sets of pressing
A lot of additional burpees, jerks, man-makers
… 2 total sets of rows

And you complain about a weak back and rows being difficult

3 Likes
4895

technically 7 (supersetted w/ back off sets of press on Tuesday), but point taken :joy:

I think a “daily work” type set up might be in order going forward

4896

Daily work only works when gaining weight in my experience.

2 Likes
4897

Just to be clear, I’m not suggesting more back work without reducing activity elsewhere.

2 Likes
4898

Well I’m supposed to be gaining weight, so I think I get the “privilege” of adding some daily work :slight_smile:

4899

Quick upper back “session”

Rows: 2x20/side-20lbs
Towel pull apart rows: 1x40

  • good pump, just testing the waters today, will add more as needed
  • the towel pull apart row things are very deceptively difficult
4900

I don’t think that all.

3 Likes
4902

Week 24: Day 5

Shrimp Squats: 3x7/side-45lbs,
5x(9/side-32lbs+7RDLs-45lbs)-90 sec rests
Hard style KBS: 4x5-45lbs

  • legs and energy good, upper back not very happy, shrimp squats felt smooth and progressed pretty well, I think I was just tired last week- benefits of making very small progression - you “progress” even on bad days :joy: , didn’t feel a pump or burn in quads- might add more volume next time to this, love the KBS
  • went on a 4km run after, very disappointed at how hard it was on cardio, more evidence that conditioning decreased, but the only way to improve is to practice

First week of classes over. THey are all very nice- have yet to have a bad/particularly harsh professor, so I’m very lucky.
Really struggling with body image

4903

This is not smart programming.

Training legs and then go running, and to then claim that’s “evidence” your conditioning has decreased is flat-out wrong.

I know you don’t aspire to have a driver’s license but I think you can understand this analogy perfectly fine.

Imagine that you had a car, and that you took it for a drive on a forest road and calculated what mileage you are getting by noting down the fuel and how many miles you’ve driven.

Then imagine you punctured the gas tank, and went for a drive on asphalt and claimed that your mileage was better when you drove off-road.

That argument would be about as valid as the one you are making.

Sorry to hear. Don’t “solve” it by eating less or doing more.

2 Likes
4904

Physically, it’s very suboptimal. However, I know that the run won’t get done if procrastinated and it a sort of mental training- ie can I handle the suck

I can tell when it’s my cardio, legs/joints or mind that is fatiguing and this morning, it was definitely cardio fatiguing this morning. Legs felt heavy, but I wanted to quit because I felt out of breath

I kind of derailed myself by eating smoked fish at breakfast (an entire day’s worth of sodium)

4905

You don’t really have any leeway to do suboptimal physical things.

And not going for that run would be the unequivocally better choice for you.

Listen, you are not some overweight, sedentary individual on a 9-16 week cut. You’ve been infinity-cutting for yonks. Two+ years. Such a fictive person would have leeway to do things like this in pursuit of their time-constrained goal. You, on the other hand, do not.

Everyone except you knows you can handle an immense amount of physical suck given what you put yourself through every day on less than enough fuel. Addressing the mental reasons that possess you to continue doing all it is that you are doing would be sucky, for sure, but far more mental training than going for a run.

Can you? Can you be a 100% certain, without shadow of a doubt that it isn’t your heart starting to give out?

When I was at my unhealthiest (not my lightest, mind you!) my “cardio” was in the shitter. Not because I was in bad shape, just because my body had been deprived for so long that it was starting to shut down even essential functions. You’re an econ major, do the risk/benefit analysis here: keel over, dead, or potentially regress momentarily in one dimension of fitness.

Personally, I did not think my conditioning was suffering but I was completely unable to realise that what I was experiencing was the combination of long-term underfeeding and overexercising. My brain didn’t have the nutrients it needed to arrive at that conclusion at the time.

Here, in your log, you have a choir of concerned individuals telling you that you are underfeeding and overexercising. Almost everyday you are told that you are looking down the barrel of a gun and yet you continue to engage in self-destruction.

I am sympathetic to your plight, truly. And will always be. Therefore, it pains me to be this blunt but: you’ve some months ago addressed the idea that you are conceivably depressed. Maybe, your depression has you engaging in suicidal behaviour. I fully understand how much anxiety and stress it’d cause you to reduce your activity to within normal levels, but if you really feel as if that’d be worse for you than the behaviour you are currently engaging in then maybe you need more than a therapist. Maybe you need inpatient treatment.

Sorry if this is insensitive.

2 Likes
4906

Thank you so much for everything. I really appreciate the sentimen- not insensitive at all

yes

I have no intention of harming myself or others

4907

Daily work:
Towel pull apart rows: 2x20
Rows: 2x20/side-20lbs
w to ys: 1x10

4908

I’m sorry to pile on here, but there are more ways to harm one’s self than a blade or a bullet. Tearing your body down while depriving it the rest and food needed to rebuild is just as self-destructive, just more slowly and painfully.

When @Bagsy who is already too hard on herself and I think is in a good position to speak to the issue, and @Voxel who has experience in the same behavior you’re putting yourself through, tell you you’re going down a dangerous path, I think it would be wise not to dismiss their advice

2 Likes