Do that then, that sounds fun and productive. Supplement with some healthy fats and 7 first sized portions of veg, and that is your new diet.
Edit: just put those numbers into myfitnesspal and you could eat 2lbs of steak, plus a few tablespoons of olive oil and still have plenty of space for some carbs and vegetation even with your current calorie limit.
This is almost an inverse confirmation bias. You “manage” (not sure I want to use such a positive word) to consistently deprive you of the nutrients you need to sustain your physical pursuits forcing your body to instead utilise bodyfat as fuel. The majority of the time you “manage” to exercise will-power to not eat as much as you need. Until you no longer can, and that’s when you binge.
This is a goal in the right direction, but you need more than that. As I said, for me, it took months of not underfeeding to have my first sensation of being full and that was the first time I had the sensation of “not hungry” in over a year’s time. It took longer still before that started to become a “routine” sensation.
Again, nor should you.
Just so you know, this is not a healthy habit to have. I suspect you need to hear that.
This is what happens when I binge. It’ll be “rational”, but it’s really just you intellectualizing what your body is essentially forcing you to do which is eat everything not nailed down. I’ve justified it with “I know how to lose the fat”, “I moved a lot today so it’s okay”, “It’ll help me sleep”, “I’m sick (as in ill, disease) and it’ll help me recover/heal/not go catabolic”.
This is known as food guilt.
Again, an action in the right direction, but you should really not try and get away with the smallest increase you might need. Because if this increase isn’t adequate, then it’ll take you additional weeks before you increase your calories to what you actually need and thereby you’ll perpetuate this damaging behaviour for even longer which increases the time to recovery.
I still struggle to not eat clean, but if my appetite is ravenous then that’s an indicator I’m not eating enough. And once that subsides my relationship with food becomes less ascetic.
This is way too much for your stature, but I’ve told you this before.
I’ve seen two guidelines, for a male of average weight (not underweight) 6-10 cups of vegetables can help them ride out their deficit as a tool to curb hunger. Otherwise, bodyweight / 100 is an upper bound. So, for a 60 kg individual, 600 grams of vegetables per day. And that’s high.
You are no longer in 3rd grade, and you should stop justifying your current actions by your body composition as it was then. Truly.
@dagill2 is right, it’s just way too much. It doesn’t really matter what you do with it. It’s too much.
Look, I can relate to what you are going through. I’ve been there, I am there. Despite being on the mends I’ve recently reached out to get referred to an eating disorder specialist. I know that it’s not easy. I know that it’s scary, and that eating more creates anxiety, and it’s easy to move more to offset the unknowns.
I see two ways this plays out, you either continue along this path and you cause your body further harm that’s possibly irreparable or will take years to undo. It can wreak havoc on your endocrine system, or you’ll accrue a/multiple physical injury/injuries that’ll bug you forever. Or you sit down with yourself and have an honest heart-to-heart about this.
Yeah, it’s been fun to realize just how much I can fit in. I’ve been eating a lot of butter and cream cheese lately (still ensuring adequate protein) 
I feel this point is important because at the minute it feels like all the impetus to change is coming from external sources. I don’t believe, honestly, that you want to change yourself. And that’s incredibly common, so don’t beat yourself up about it, just be aware that if you want to be better than the average person, this is a mindset that you’ll have to break.
Just to reiterate my point:
“If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always got” - direct quote from every smartarse ever. That just happens to be echoed by Dan John, Jim Wendler, Steven R Covey, Jocko Willink, Etc. Etc. Etc.
You could probably be ripped with abs at 10-20 kilos heavier than you are now and you’d never have to worry about what you can fit in but how the hell you are going to manage eating everything that you need to eat.
And how many feet are you now at 90lbs?
5ft at 93.8lbs
Lifters aren’t usually the ones with the best BMIs but they tend to have a BMI that’s high, not low.
Just FYI, Stefi Cohen (who I believe you’ve admired previously), is the same height and between 115-125lbs according to a quick bit of Google-fu
Height is so hard to gauge but there’s a lass at my gym that’s 60kg, abs all year round, and just so very much stronger than a lot of the men running about. She eats 3.5-4k calories a day and she is very very active (3-4 hours of activity per day). She’s older than Anna by ten years though.
Try some carbs - they’re not evil, and they help lifting! (I noticed you focused on the negative - I don’t eat pasta but focus on what you can do, and you’ll help take a step towards the mindset change you mentioned previously.
Trying one new thing is the gateway drug to lots of new things.
She’ll be slamming down 2lb lasagnas three times a day before you know it, looking like jabba the hut before the years out!
my face is ugly, but I’d like to think it’s not THAT ugly 
Part of feeling like crap maybe that that amount of veggies is a ton of fiber and cauliflower tends to cause gas build-up (anecdotally and totally not related my wife had to give up cauliflower while breast-feeding my daughter because it was causing my daughter to throw up for the above reason).
Also - not enough carbs for your activity level as others have mentioned. Substitute some of that cauliflower for potatoes and rice.
I am starting to think you just want to marry lasagna.
Lasagne is the food of legends, who wouldn’t want to marry lasagne?
It’s the whole consummation part that worries me.
I assume you’d have to temperature test first. Is that not what kitchen thermometers are for?
So to be clear, you are saying that in the Dagill household, kitchen thermometers are used exclusively to test whether food products are at the correct temperature from a sexual point of view.