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[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
do you use straps at all?[/quote]

Yessir, on almost everything that requires grip strength. The carpel tunnel disallows me from being able to really grip most dumbbells and barbells. For instance, I can barely hold on to a 225 bar. Pretty pathetic. Buuuuuut, once I get a job with benefits + insurance I definitely plan on making the wrist surgery a top priority.

This will probably be my only post today, as it needs to be an off day, but I would like to say that last night when I was brushing my teeth something caught my eye - a decent stretch mark going from my left trap down through my left delt - nice! It’s definitely a stretch mark too, after I gave it attention and high scrutiny, so I was very excited to see that.

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ahhh ok yea I forgot about that little problem. well hopefully you can get that fixed, ditch the straps, and get some stretch marks on your forearms too, lawl.

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If anyone is reading this line of text, I highly recommend going somewhere else and stop reading this right now. Seriously. This is going to be the shittiest, whiniest and most emo post I think I’m capable of making. But I have a lot of things to get off my chest, no one really IRL to talk to, no where to go and nothing else to do.

If nothing else this will help me if I’m ever looking back on this log, trying to figure out where I was mentally during this time.

[u]Chest[/u]

Decline BB
230 x 7 (Should have been 8-9, lost footing on rep 6)
225 x 8

Incline BB
195 x 6
185 x 8

Flat DB Flyes
75s x 7
70s x 7
60s x 8

30 minutes of surprisingly good DDR.

— Emo time —

  • I’m sick of my body. I’m sick of benching and not being able to keep my form tight because my LOWER BACK is in too much pain. I’m sick of not being able to grip a barbell over 200 pounds correctly because of fucking carpal tunnel. I’m sick of knowing that even when I do get to around 10% bodyfat, I’ll still look like shit because I have 10-15 pounds of loose skin that need to be surgically removed. I’m sick of this loose skin manifesting itself in such a way that makes me look like I ALWAYS have love handles and a big gut. It really makes me wonder if this emotional and physical investment I’ve put into this lifestyle is even worth it.

  • I’m sick of 23 years of insomnia. I’m sick of having a body that wants to go to sleep at 12:30 am, and having no choice but staying up until 5 oclock in the morning… because I HAVE NO CHOICE. I’m sick of having to risk my life with absurd quantities of sleeping pills just to try to get to sleep every night.

  • I’m sick of being a 23-year old college graduate who can’t support himself. I don’t have insurance for myself, car or medical. I don’t pay my own cell phone bills. I don’t pay for food. Because I CAN’T. That is what I consider a failure.

  • I’m sick of this fucking job. I left Best Buy, which sucked major dick, but I had been there for 3 years for this job. They guy who brought me in told me I could get as many hours a week as I wanted, up to 40. Now I have a new boss, who gives his girlfriend all of the hours, and I get ONE 4-hour shift a week. I ask him why I’m getting fucked over so bad. I tell him I’m moving halfway across the country and I can’t live off $30. I get no response.

  • I’m sick of applying for over 70 different jobs so far and the only responses I’ve gotten so far have been scams.

  • I’m sick of the fact that I have only seen my friends IRL probably all of 4-5 times since MAY, because financially I’ve had no other choice.

I’m just sick and tired of not having anything to look forward to when I wake up from my pitiful sleep every morning.

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dude, it sucks to deal with all that shit. I hope that Colorado will be a better situation for you.

at the risk of being cliché, I’m gonna leave Henry Rollins’ quotation here, and hope it helps you deal:

“The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you’re a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds.”

also, you’ve come a long way. no sense stopping now.

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Thanks fro, I appreciate it. I was just having a really shitty/stressful day apparently. I definitely regret posting what I did, because it’s not really indicative of my typical demeanor. But hey, we all have bad days, right? :slight_smile:

So I had to take yesterday and today off because my lower back was so utterly thrashed from benching the other day. (Iknowrite) Looks like I’m going to have to start wearing my belt for some sets again, lol. God my body is decrepit! Nothing productive happened yesterday, as I was away from the house and out and about basically all day doing shit.

Today, on the other hand, I decided was sprint day.

[u]Vibram Sprints[/u] (YES, they deserve their own category, lol!)
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
60 yds
Then a nice little walk/leg up cool-down.

Feltgoodman.jpg

  • On a side note, I visited my old Best Buy store yesterday that I worked for for like three years. Saw a few folks that I knew for a long time, they all mentioned that I was looking thinner/“skinner” than they remembered. It sounds kinda bad to the weight-lifter, but I knew that they meant I was looking less fat, so that’s good, haha.
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np man. we all need a pick-me-up every now and then to keep doing this crazy thing we do.

I tried looking in your old log for why your back is holding you up but I got as far as page 3 and I really need to sleep for a monster day tomorrow, AM chest/tris PM back/bis. what happened to your back?

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[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
np man. we all need a pick-me-up every now and then to keep doing this crazy thing we do.

I tried looking in your old log for why your back is holding you up but I got as far as page 3 and I really need to sleep for a monster day tomorrow, AM chest/tris PM back/bis. what happened to your back? [/quote]

I’m not sure if I ever actually discussed what happened in my former log, I’ll give a real quick synopsis.

  • Freshman year in HS I played football and did marching band. I was morbidly obese at this point with kyphosis (rounded upper back from having a stomach that was so heavy) and doing both activities left me with some bad lower back bone bruising that I had to go to a good amount of physical therapy for. Had to stop playing football because of this.
  • Fast forward to after I’ve lost the weight, and am doing my first ever “bulk” (lol.) I was working in the warehouse at Best Buy, as well as hammering the living fuck out of deadlifts and rack pulls while still having kyphosis. One thing lead to another and my back got pretty gnarly bone bruising again.
  • Hasn’t gotten any better since, even with a shit load of foam rolling and stretching.

Once I get a “real” job I definitely plan on seeing about going to PT to see if they can help get it up to par again, and then a Chiro to help me balance out my kyphosis.

Until then, I’ll grimace and try to put in work, lol.

Oh, and good luck on the double day tomorrow - kill it bro!

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[quote]SSC wrote:
If anyone is reading this line of text, I highly recommend going somewhere else and stop reading this right now. Seriously. This is going to be the shittiest, whiniest and most emo post I think I’m capable of making. But I have a lot of things to get off my chest, no one really IRL to talk to, no where to go and nothing else to do.

If nothing else this will help me if I’m ever looking back on this log, trying to figure out where I was mentally during this time.

[u]Chest[/u]

Decline BB
230 x 7 (Should have been 8-9, lost footing on rep 6)
225 x 8

Incline BB
195 x 6
185 x 8

Flat DB Flyes
75s x 7
70s x 7
60s x 8

30 minutes of surprisingly good DDR.

— Emo time —

  • I’m sick of my body. I’m sick of benching and not being able to keep my form tight because my LOWER BACK is in too much pain. I’m sick of not being able to grip a barbell over 200 pounds correctly because of fucking carpal tunnel. I’m sick of knowing that even when I do get to around 10% bodyfat, I’ll still look like shit because I have 10-15 pounds of loose skin that need to be surgically removed. I’m sick of this loose skin manifesting itself in such a way that makes me look like I ALWAYS have love handles and a big gut. It really makes me wonder if this emotional and physical investment I’ve put into this lifestyle is even worth it.

  • I’m sick of 23 years of insomnia. I’m sick of having a body that wants to go to sleep at 12:30 am, and having no choice but staying up until 5 oclock in the morning… because I HAVE NO CHOICE. I’m sick of having to risk my life with absurd quantities of sleeping pills just to try to get to sleep every night.

  • I’m sick of being a 23-year old college graduate who can’t support himself. I don’t have insurance for myself, car or medical. I don’t pay my own cell phone bills. I don’t pay for food. Because I CAN’T. That is what I consider a failure.

  • I’m sick of this fucking job. I left Best Buy, which sucked major dick, but I had been there for 3 years for this job. They guy who brought me in told me I could get as many hours a week as I wanted, up to 40. Now I have a new boss, who gives his girlfriend all of the hours, and I get ONE 4-hour shift a week. I ask him why I’m getting fucked over so bad. I tell him I’m moving halfway across the country and I can’t live off $30. I get no response.

  • I’m sick of applying for over 70 different jobs so far and the only responses I’ve gotten so far have been scams.

  • I’m sick of the fact that I have only seen my friends IRL probably all of 4-5 times since MAY, because financially I’ve had no other choice.

I’m just sick and tired of not having anything to look forward to when I wake up from my pitiful sleep every morning.[/quote]
Aw man some of that shit does suck. But what was your major in college? don’t forget you look a million times better now than when you were fat. I am a former fatty too just stay away from the beach lol you can still look big/good to girls anywhere else.

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[quote]SSC wrote:

[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
np man. we all need a pick-me-up every now and then to keep doing this crazy thing we do.

I tried looking in your old log for why your back is holding you up but I got as far as page 3 and I really need to sleep for a monster day tomorrow, AM chest/tris PM back/bis. what happened to your back? [/quote]

I’m not sure if I ever actually discussed what happened in my former log, I’ll give a real quick synopsis.

  • Freshman year in HS I played football and did marching band. I was morbidly obese at this point with kyphosis (rounded upper back from having a stomach that was so heavy) and doing both activities left me with some bad lower back bone bruising that I had to go to a good amount of physical therapy for. Had to stop playing football because of this.

  • Fast forward to after I’ve lost the weight, and am doing my first ever “bulk” (lol.) I was working in the warehouse at Best Buy, as well as hammering the living fuck out of deadlifts and rack pulls while still having kyphosis. One thing lead to another and my back got pretty gnarly bone bruising again.

  • Hasn’t gotten any better since, even with a shit load of foam rolling and stretching.

Once I get a “real” job I definitely plan on seeing about going to PT to see if they can help get it up to par again, and then a Chiro to help me balance out my kyphosis.

Until then, I’ll grimace and try to put in work, lol.

Oh, and good luck on the double day tomorrow - kill it bro![/quote]

lol football AND marching band? haha my older brother did the same thing his freshman year… he’d be suited up for the game, maybe go out for special teams, then run in and change for the halftime show and then suit back up. he said it was the worst few months of HS doing all that and practice for both. interesting to see someone else try that =p

not sure what you should be doing, but there’s got to be a way to work around a kyphotic lower back.

and thanks for the encouragement on the double, lol my body’s gonna hate me but I have no choice this week.

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WELL…

Last night was a real turd! I don’t think I ever mentioned this, but I’ve been an insomniac since I was just a wee little lad. (I know, ANOTHER issue lol!) It’s something I really am use to though, but last night I think I only got a good 3-4 hours of sleep. Didn’t think today would be worth a damn, but au contraire! Killed it.

[u]Shoulders and “Back”[/u]

OHP (touch da chest!)
195 x 4
175 x 8
155 x 12

Heaved Seated Partial Laterals / Heavy Front Raises
55s x 10 - x 3 (body was NOT feeling this today.)

Strict Seated Laterals
25s x 15
25s x 14

Rack Chins
+105 lbs x 7
+80 lbs x 10
+30 lbs x 12
+10 lbs x 12? (forgot to write down)

Low-Incline Strict Rear DB Flyes
45s x 15
45s x 13
35s x 15
25s x 20

DB Shrug with 5-second holds
90s x 11
90s x 9
75s x 8-9 (can’t remember, didn’t write down correctly)

And then a brutal ass 30 minute session of DDR.

Fr0 - I totally recorded a few DDR songs for you, and the video totally botched! Sorry man!

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[quote]CircaThursday wrote:
Aw man some of that shit does suck. But what was your major in college? don’t forget you look a million times better now than when you were fat. I am a former fatty too just stay away from the beach lol you can still look big/good to girls anywhere else.
[/quote]

Lol, indeed it does man! My major, in lamen’s terms, was health-care administration. I do plan on getting my Masters’ in Human Resources then going BACK to school to get my nursing degree so I can be a health care whiz! lol

And definitely dude, you know it was almost easier to just be fat (without a shirt) because then at least people just said “Okay, he’s just a fat kid,” instead of “wtf? Is he fat, or skinny… or… wtf?!” lol! And good job man, you’re looking really good yourself!

[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
lol football AND marching band? haha my older brother did the same thing his freshman year… he’d be suited up for the game, maybe go out for special teams, then run in and change for the halftime show and then suit back up. he said it was the worst few months of HS doing all that and practice for both. interesting to see someone else try that =p

not sure what you should be doing, but there’s got to be a way to work around a kyphotic lower back.

and thanks for the encouragement on the double, lol my body’s gonna hate me but I have no choice this week.
[/quote]

Hahaha, yeah, I did try to do it. I would have stuck with it and tried to seriously lose weight if I would have known then what I know now. But then again, hindsight is always 20/20, right?

Eh, the kyphosis is just a slooooooooooow work-in-progress. It’s gotten better in recent times but it’s definitely issue that catches up pretty nasty sometimes, especially in the neck area sometimes when I get one of those weird “pangs” that sidelines me for a while.

And I’ll check the log pretty soon dude, I’m sure you killed it! Plus, it does the body good to destroy it every now and then. :slight_smile:

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aww dude wtf you’re teasing me with the DDR vid!!

hold on… so, you majored in healthcare admin and can’t find a job?? wtf I thought that shit was a lock. then again, pretty much all the admins I know were nurses first before they went into admin. and if you’re really gonna go in that direction, nurses will secretly hate you for being clueless as to how the day-to-day works and how your decisions can totally botch that up. god knows I’ve questioned every single decision my higher-ups have made since I got the hang of my unit’s day-to-day operations.

as for your log… wtf ohp. I’m very jelly. I’m gonna make my shoulders my #1 priority again in December… hopefully I can press 1.5pps by next February (or be close) and be cool like you. and how do your forearms not grow with holding on to 90 lb db’s for a minute at a time??

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Damn, bro, I’ve been off the site for a while but it seems like you’ve been in need. I’m sorry to hear about your issues. That seems like a real load to have to bear but always remember to keep persevering. Quitting the pursuit of lifting is really not an option. It’s such a small investment of time but the benefits that are there to be reaped from it are immense. Just keep pushing through your obstacles, man, everything ends eventually.

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[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
aww dude wtf you’re teasing me with the DDR vid!!

hold on… so, you majored in healthcare admin and can’t find a job?? wtf I thought that shit was a lock. then again, pretty much all the admins I know were nurses first before they went into admin. and if you’re really gonna go in that direction, nurses will secretly hate you for being clueless as to how the day-to-day works and how your decisions can totally botch that up. god knows I’ve questioned every single decision my higher-ups have made since I got the hang of my unit’s day-to-day operations.

as for your log… wtf ohp. I’m very jelly. I’m gonna make my shoulders my #1 priority again in December… hopefully I can press 1.5pps by next February (or be close) and be cool like you. and how do your forearms not grow with holding on to 90 lb db’s for a minute at a time??[/quote]

Hahaha sorry about the vid man, at least I tried tonight. :slight_smile: I’ll keep working on it!

Man, I think a big deterrence in regards to job interest at this point has a lot to do with me actually living in a different state than the jobs in which I’m applying for. I’ve made it quite clear that I’ll be out there in 1-2 weeks, and would be willing to relocate, but oh well, I just gotta stay patient with it. Hell, just now I sent out like 20 different emails in regards to job postings, haha. And I feel ya about the administrative/nursing disconnect. One of my role models in college was a “professor” I had who did the same thing - was a head nurse who had his administrative and management credentials in order. It’s lucrative both in the sense that he could balance both acts, as well as be a male in the field. My main interests do revolve around the desire to help people, so I would definitely tend to lean more towards the nursing side of things.

Man, fuck shoulders - lol! I’ve been trying to hit them hard for the last year, give or take, and finally the strength is getting there. I had neglected any kind of legitimate OHPs, and did a lot of machine shit and partial presses that led to pretty piss-poor development. At one point I did have that “a-ha” moment about touching my chest, though. I know it’s not for everyone, but once I figured that out about myself everything started rolling from there. And lol, I wish I was cool with my pressing numbers. I remember HolyMac talking about doing standing OHPs at 245 x 5. That’s fucking nuts. Get back to me when I’m there. :wink:

Forearms have been growing, definitely, but they’re still laggy in regards to my upper arms. Gotta remember I was strapped up for those shrug sets. :slight_smile:

[quote]165StateChamp wrote:
Damn, bro, I’ve been off the site for a while but it seems like you’ve been in need. I’m sorry to hear about your issues. That seems like a real load to have to bear but always remember to keep persevering. Quitting the pursuit of lifting is really not an option. It’s such a small investment of time but the benefits that are there to be reaped from it are immense. Just keep pushing through your obstacles, man, everything ends eventually. [/quote]

Thanks man, I do appreciate it! I would definitely never quit. The kind of day I was having then was really rare for me - just a culmination of frustration, stress, and a shit load of nagging injuries that all kind of turned into a day of Fuck. lol

I’d be damned if I would allow my mental strength to diminish because of a few stupid physical issues I have to deal with.

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EDIT: Post moved one-page ahead for convenience for myself.

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EDIT: Prior post moved here for convenience for myself.

I probably should not have lifted today. Too bad.

Went in with a massive chip on my shoulder for reasons that are difficult to explain here. Just know I was like a bat out of hell today.

[u]ARMS[/u]

EZ Skull Crushers
150 lbs x 9
145 lbs x 10
140 lbs x 11
120 lbs x 14

Close-Grip Bench Press (slow, TUT with HUGE squeeze, only high rep today)
165 x 11

L-Extensions
30s x 13
25s x 17
15s x 28

Preacher Hammer Curls
50s x 8
45s x 11
40s x 12

EZ Strict Preacher Curls
100 lbs x 4
90 lbs x 10

Pinwheel Curls (Haven’t done these in probably a year and a half)
65s x 12
55s x 14

K-Pipe Curls
25s x 20

And then an incredibly kickass 30-minute session of DDR afterwards. Took more videos today, hopefully they recorded correctly. I work on uploading these after all my peri-workout stuff.

OKAY fr0!!!

This is the best I can do. Sound is terrible, video is terrible, but I really don’t have much to work with. Neither of these songs are too outright-difficult, but they’re both 9-footers, respectively.

These were also part of my warm-ups, so I guess that should at least be a testament to how things got better.

First, Paranoia Evolution.

Next, Xenon.

I really hope this is sufficient enough. :slight_smile:

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God I’m a post whore lately. But - I did more training.

Felt inspired to go for a jog tonight in lieu of the videogame thread in GAL. I have not done a non-HIIT inspired type of workout (see: sustained cardio) in a very long time. Went for a nice little 1-mile job. I don’t know when the last time I tried jogging/running was. 2+ years probably?

Think I was right around a 7-8 minute mile at this point. NOT happy about that, but hey, it was the first in a long time. I don’t think this is something that will be a continuous focus for me, as it’s not totally in line with my goals, but it feltgoodman.jpg

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damnnnnn dat dere white boy he gots de crazy feet!!! lol i would’ve failed after like five seconds at that speed, then you go and get a AA rating wtfff

you know, you’d probably kick anyone’s ass in football tire drills and ladder footwork drill thingies…

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lol your training log is way more entertaining than mine.

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Lol… may I ask, is that really you doing the DDR -.-