I take it you saw Prometheus
[quote]SSC wrote:
Wow bignate, thanks for the sentiments, man! Good on you for getting through all of that shit, for reals.
The stress… oh, the stress comes and goes. I won’t lie, when I do have stress in my life I honestly don’t handle it too well, due to my relatively easy-going nature and legitimate passiveness on most things. My boss actually caught wind of some of the issues I was having… and the way the company I work for is set up, I work really closely with my boss most of the time. Like, all of the time.
So he called me in to talk about it and we just kinda hashed some things out. I told him I’d been stressed, which is something that did.not.happen. to me when working at a job, and why. We’re going to figure some things out next week and I know that’s going to make a concerted effort towards making things better for all, and he said he had been kind of letting the job get to him. It’s really easy, given the nature of what we do.
When you mentioned dealing with negative thoughts, that’s still my biggest issue… and has always been. I can go from completely satisfied to completely unpleasant on about .000083 seconds due to some random off-hand side comment with an innocuous nature. But then I just harp on it and manifest it into something worse. That’s been something I’ve been dealing with proactively for the last few months. It’s gotten much better but HELL if it isn’t hard to control.
Zoloft… lol, (not at you!) but I was prescribed some due to some heart things/vasodilation some months ago here in Colorado. It turned out to actually kind of fuck me up even worse since I really didn’t need for its anti-depressive properties, so I just flat-out stopped taking it without really consulting my physician… stupid. But, I never quite felt like “me,” and I’m just not a big fan of RX Nation. I’ve really wanted to see a therapist for a while now, because it really can’t hurt, but the whole $$$ aspect has kind of prevented me from acting on that seriously. Until then, I just try to keep it all in front of me best I can, most of the time. 98% of the time I do really, really well! lol
As far as sleep goes - This is just an issue I’ll never shake, man. My whole life it’s been a problem. I remember my mom telling me stories of when I was like, a toddler, she would stay in my room until I fell asleep and the majority of the time, she’d fall asleep before me… AS A TODDLER! fml, haha.
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definitely look for a good therapist, if you have insurance it shouldnt be to bad on the wallet and even just a few sessions can really help get things jumpsttarted.
About the zoloft, it makes me feel like me, happy fucking nate, which is how i used to feel, so im thinking if you ever consider the medication route you would just need to find the right one, because they are supposed to make you feel like yourself. Sounds like you have plans on how to handle shit, you got my support. Happy lifting too!
[quote]SSC wrote:
Damn Spidey, thanks for the thoughts man. Sorry to hear about the family issues man. 
I’ll try to keep this brief, although I tend to be long-winded, but I use to be a man of faith. I was raised Catholic, but not the “in-your-face-so-fucking-hard-you-grow-to-resent-it” type of Catholic. I mean, my mom insisted that we went to church essentially every week (despite my incessant pleas and attempts not to,) said our prayers before dinner every night and was reminded to pray before I went to sleep. Nothing too crazy, though.
Then, I got to college. I started doing a lot of introspection and reflection about life, who I was, etc. I’m sure most people in college go through something similar. This all happened in lieu of the weight loss thing that I obviously went through. I definitely examined myself and others hard, became very intrinsically-aware but extroverted at the same time.
Eventually, I started finding a connection between things that I did myself, and didn’t need to ask an ethereal being to give me the power to do so. As this happened, my faith dwindled quickly. At first it was taboo for me to think about, and I felt cautious about warding off my belief. But then, I started to wonder if I was only scared to accept that we may be alone because I had been conditioned to believe that this was the case - and believing anything else would buy me a one-way ticket to eternal suffering for all of eternity. Then, as I came to this conclusion, I started to resent a God, and that if I lived my life trying to be as philanthropic, kind and courteous towards others as I could but without committing myself to a sermon for an hour out of every week but still went to Hell, then that was a God I wanted nothing to do with.
This was also, for the record, about the time I became very interested in philosophy.
Anyway, to this day my views and emphatic “Anti-anything” mentality has chilled out quite a bit. I’m a live-and-let-live kind of guy, and I don’t like to shove my view points down others’ throat, as I know no one likes that. (NOT saying you’re doing that Spidey, lol, for real.) To this day, I’m under the mentality that there’s truly nothing we can know and I’m open to anything, including flying Spaghetti monsters in the sky. Nothing is more implausible/less realistic/more realistic than anything else, as far as I’m concerned. If I ever have kids, I plan on letting them go to whatever churches they want to (with friends, if I have a wife who’s religious, etc.,) and discovering things for themselves. I know how happy religion makes people and I envy it, I’m jealous of it. I just can’t, however, force myself to believe in something that I systemically deconstructed over a long period of time, ya know? Not trying to “point/counterpoint” you, but just giving perspective to where my mentality is at with God and religion.
That being said, I’m still very much into philosophy and try to let that help dictate my understanding of consciousness, life, and a lot of irrelevant and silly things. It’s not always easy to bypass the menial things that set us off, though, and I think it’ll always be an uphill battle.
Thanks for stopping in Spidey. You should know I’m down to talk shop about deep stuff ANY TIME, any place, period.[/quote]
Man, reading what you said seemed like reading a bio of myself to some extent. I suppose that’s why I’m a Philosophy major 
I know the only thing that ever got me to change (which I use to sarcastically say) was if I had some kind of divine experience, which i did. I guess all I want man is for you to be happy bro, and I feel people with our personalities sometimes think we are open-minded, and I began to associate close-mindedness with religion/spirituality. I no longer think that’s true. I know I barely know you, so this seems weird to really be getting into. I just think sometimes, finding faith in SOMETHING, whether it’s metaphysical, internal, ANYTHING is something that we (and I mean people of a more logical/philosophical type of thought) lose because we see so many just, idk, abuse it or muck up the word. I just know, reading up a lot on FAITH, not necessarily religion, is what has helped the most.
And in my personal experience, my few trips to a therapist hurt me more then helped I think. I was very young though, so take that for what’s it worth. Just throwing in my 2 cents for a different perspective.
Hope your birthday was bomb though. Good timing for a Birthday, to help as a stress relief.
[quote]SSC wrote:
Damn Spidey, thanks for the thoughts man. Sorry to hear about the family issues man.
I’ll try to keep this brief, although I tend to be long-winded, but I use to be a man of faith. I was raised Catholic, but not the “in-your-face-so-fucking-hard-you-grow-to-resent-it” type of Catholic. I mean, my mom insisted that we went to church essentially every week (despite my incessant pleas and attempts not to,) said our prayers before dinner every night and was reminded to pray before I went to sleep. Nothing too crazy, though.
Then, I got to college. I started doing a lot of introspection and reflection about life, who I was, etc. I’m sure most people in college go through something similar. This all happened in lieu of the weight loss thing that I obviously went through. I definitely examined myself and others hard, became very intrinsically-aware but extroverted at the same time.
Eventually, I started finding a connection between things that I did myself, and didn’t need to ask an ethereal being to give me the power to do so. As this happened, my faith dwindled quickly. At first it was taboo for me to think about, and I felt cautious about warding off my belief. But then, I started to wonder if I was only scared to accept that we may be alone because I had been conditioned to believe that this was the case - and believing anything else would buy me a one-way ticket to eternal suffering for all of eternity. Then, as I came to this conclusion, I started to resent a God, and that if I lived my life trying to be as philanthropic, kind and courteous towards others as I could but without committing myself to a sermon for an hour out of every week but still went to Hell, then that was a God I wanted nothing to do with.
This was also, for the record, about the time I became very interested in philosophy.
Anyway, to this day my views and emphatic “Anti-anything” mentality has chilled out quite a bit. I’m a live-and-let-live kind of guy, and I don’t like to shove my view points down others’ throat, as I know no one likes that. (NOT saying you’re doing that Spidey, lol, for real.) To this day, I’m under the mentality that there’s truly nothing we can know and I’m open to anything, including flying Spaghetti monsters in the sky. Nothing is more implausible/less realistic/more realistic than anything else, as far as I’m concerned. If I ever have kids, I plan on letting them go to whatever churches they want to (with friends, if I have a wife who’s religious, etc.,) and discovering things for themselves. I know how happy religion makes people and I envy it, I’m jealous of it. I just can’t, however, force myself to believe in something that I systemically deconstructed over a long period of time, ya know? Not trying to “point/counterpoint” you, but just giving perspective to where my mentality is at with God and religion.
That being said, I’m still very much into philosophy and try to let that help dictate my understanding of consciousness, life, and a lot of irrelevant and silly things. It’s not always easy to bypass the menial things that set us off, though, and I think it’ll always be an uphill battle.
Thanks for stopping in Spidey. You should know I’m down to talk shop about deep stuff ANY TIME, any place, period.[/quote]
Spent awhile catching up on this log, and I’ve just got to say that this is a great post and one that I can relate to in a lot of ways.
I’ll be following this log way better, sounds like you’ve got some interesting shit planned.
FML you guys, I was expecting just to have an easy post here, but fuark.
[quote]fr0IVIan wrote:
damn, y’all got problems.
been there, still kinda there sometimes at the worst time (@ sexytime, I shit you not). I’ve gone to see a hypnotherapist to try and get it under control but I guess I didn’t practice what he taught me. what’s helped recently is that I tell that inner voice wheedling away in my head to stfu. I may or may not be developing a split personality occasionally, but it’s working so far.[/quote]
Lol… I think we all have problems to some extent, no? Man, that’s got to be a bummer about negative thoughts during sexy time. That’s about the one time in the world that it’s pretty easy for me to forget all and… err, let loose? LOL. And although what has been working for you may right now, I like to think guys are professionals for a reason… try giving whatever you’re supposed to do (as provided by the hypno) a shot for like a month, and see how it works out! IMO.
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
I take it you saw Prometheus[/quote]
Psh. Um, YEAH. I lubbed it. Did you? And more importantly, did you like it? Seriously - don’t look into opinions/theories on the internet about the story. It’ll frustrate you to no end.
[quote]bignate wrote:
definitely look for a good therapist, if you have insurance it shouldnt be to bad on the wallet and even just a few sessions can really help get things jumpsttarted.
About the zoloft, it makes me feel like me, happy fucking nate, which is how i used to feel, so im thinking if you ever consider the medication route you would just need to find the right one, because they are supposed to make you feel like yourself. Sounds like you have plans on how to handle shit, you got my support. Happy lifting too!
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Fair enough man. I’ll be honest, I know that at this point in time I have some MAJOR expenses coming up (see my post below) and I’m not sure if my insurance would cover a therapist… if so, I DEFINITELY will! I really think it can’t hurt, other than the pocket.
As far as anti-depressants are concerned, I really just feel like I’m in no need of them. In fact, in full disclosure, if/when I go get a therapist I’m going to explicitly request that I not be medicated in any way, shape or form. I could obviously be wrong, but I feel like I’m just not in need of any kind of anti-depressants. I’m like, a super chipper guy 99.3% of the time, and usually carry myself in a friendly and outward manner. I guess it wouldn’t hurt to have a second pair of eyes on this, though. IDK man. I guess I am no professional so all I can do is gauge it by other peoples’ interactions with me, haha.
[quote]Spidey22 wrote:
Man, reading what you said seemed like reading a bio of myself to some extent. I suppose that’s why I’m a Philosophy major
I know the only thing that ever got me to change (which I use to sarcastically say) was if I had some kind of divine experience, which i did. I guess all I want man is for you to be happy bro, and I feel people with our personalities sometimes think we are open-minded, and I began to associate close-mindedness with religion/spirituality. I no longer think that’s true. I know I barely know you, so this seems weird to really be getting into. I just think sometimes, finding faith in SOMETHING, whether it’s metaphysical, internal, ANYTHING is something that we (and I mean people of a more logical/philosophical type of thought) lose because we see so many just, idk, abuse it or muck up the word. I just know, reading up a lot on FAITH, not necessarily religion, is what has helped the most.
And in my personal experience, my few trips to a therapist hurt me more then helped I think. I was very young though, so take that for what’s it worth. Just throwing in my 2 cents for a different perspective.
Hope your birthday was bomb though. Good timing for a Birthday, to help as a stress relief. [/quote]
Hmm, fair enough man, I can dig it. I’m just not sure if I “divine experience” (NOT used sarcastically, in this instance, srs,) is something that I want… because normally I’ve found those to be life-altering events in some kind of bad way! :S I’m not sure if you’ve ever heard of it, but right now I’m actually reading through a book called “The Disappearance of the Universe,” by Gary Renard. Not sure if you’ve ever heard of it - but it’s essentially about the “real” teachings of Jesus (as told by two angels that visited a guy… err, yeah,) but it breaks things down to a level that’s definitely interesting. Obviously I take much of the actual plot in stride, as I just truly can’t believe these two angels visited some guy and had like, fucking, twelve-hour long conversations with him, but that’s beyond the point. Who knows man, maybe some day I’ll get back with it. I will say I’ve renounced my Catholic origins, unquestionably, but as I said, I’m fully open when it comes to faith. I guess I really just do need something to “wake me up” to it, though. Still, if there’s a God, and He truly does have a plan, maybe things will come full circle.
And uggghhhhh. IDK about the birthday break right now - lol! Naw, it was great, but I’ll discuss this a little more below…
[quote]bigmac73nh wrote:
Spent awhile catching up on this log, and I’ve just got to say that this is a great post and one that I can relate to in a lot of ways.
I’ll be following this log way better, sounds like you’ve got some interesting shit planned. [/quote]
Ahhh, well, thanks for stopping in, sir. I do read your log, although I hardly ever comment, so I’ll make sure to do that more frequently for ya. For closure? lol
And yeah, I think my “story” is one a lot of people can relate to, honestly. Most “atheists” (although I really hate that word because of negative social stigmas and connotations associated with it) I feel have gone through a very similar undertaking/belief breakdown.
And yes… interesting stuff indeed. I will try to flesh things out as much as I can, in regards to how things go, but I’m not like Waylander at this point and really, really want to try to keep things low-key, ya know? It’s just all about covering my own ass at this point, haha.
So, last night was very interdasting, albeit a little disappointing. First, I’ll break down my day since Thursday.
36 hour fast, after sprints on Thursday night, through Saturday morning. It really felt great and I had no troubles with it at all. I went from a ballooned 224 on Friday morning (after my “mental clarity day” on Thursday,) to 216 on Saturday morning. Money. Woke up and treated myself to some Italian Turkey meatballs from Whole Foods and almonds (I know, living crazy amirite?!) to break the fast.
Then, we drove up to Boulder and did some shit downtown. It really was a great time. Ate at this pizza joint out here called Beau Jo’s, which has these things called “Mountain Pies,” i.e. BIG FUCKING PIZZAS. I was planning on getting one of these (small or medium, though,) as my birthday treat but surprise surprise, they had a pizza buffet going on. Umm. Yeah. I definitely did my thing but in all seriousness kept it pretty under control… I could have eaten 5x as much as I did, lol. Had various slices of pizzas (all types, f’real,) some of this crazy cinnamon-bun-esque pizza they had, and even a hearty salad with eggs, bacon and cheese. It was good. I did also get some Frozen Yogurt at this amazing place downtown an hour or so later, and called the eating for the day there.
Last night was the disappointing part for me, personally. I’ll be honest, I’m not sure how much I’ve ever disclosed this but I use to take a fair amount of drugs. Like, more than fair amount. So last night when someone who’s roomie is not mine got home from work with some Molly (one bag was pure, the other with safrole, boo,) we had a conundrum. Who’s going to take the safrole stuff? Well, unfortunately, due to a coin flip, it was she and me. Other two buddies/roommates got the pure stuff. Essentially, I didn’t roll very hard and that was pretty disappointing. The club was a great time but then I noticed my eyes weren’t even dilated at a certain point and my gum-chewing and weekend drastically… ugh. It was time to drink, which I caught probably 4-5 G&Ts total to help get me through. No boom boom bang with any randos, although I got told I looked “fucking big” and “like a boss” with the suspenders on… lol. So that was cool. Big traps = Suspender issues though, FOR REAL. Tried to stay hydrated but from my workout today it was evident that I just didn’t quite maintain, especially with the alcohol.
Today was just a weird, off-and-bizarre workout but looking through the log book, it really didn’t go too poorly. I know I’m de-loading at this point but I needed to do something in order to justify a smaller Skipload today, since I made baseline by 1.2 pounds. 218 on the nose this morning.
ALSO… I’m thinking very heavily about hiring Ken Skip Hill to help me with this diet. I have faith that I can drop weight well and easily, but I would LOVE to soak up knowledge, and one can always learn more. So I’m inquiring into prices and stuff today. Plus, he will be of great assistance when it comes to my new found… err, assistance. If ya feel me.
[u]Tris (2) and Bis[/u]
Dips
+25lbs x 8
+25lbs x 6
BW x 10
Skullcrushers (Making sure to not to PJR or w/e and break the elbows something fierce on these.)
100lbs x 10
100lbs x 7
Rope Pulldowns
180 x 17
180 x 11…
Seated Machine Curls (DC Style)
135 x 15 + 9 + 5 = 29 (+5 lbs, +/-0 reps)
Rope Curls (For brachi and stuff)
340 x 10
320 x 11
Straight-Bar Cable Curls
260 x 15 (Not failure)
260 x 14 (Ehh… failure, lol.)
HS Preacher Curls
50lbs x 11
35lbs x 16 DROP SET
25lbs x 14
K-Pipe Curls
20lb DB x 13
15lb DB x 15
Seated Fully-upright DB Hammer curls (Just as a finisher)
25s x 14
25s x 10
40 intensely hard minutes of stair climbing, fuck I felt god-awful during this.
And while I typed this whole shebang out I was eating some (god-awful) fat-free Pringles and sour-patch kids.
G’day all! It’s 97 and hotter than shit here. FML.
You live in colorado?
You bone that pmpm chick yet? Is it as awful as I imagine?
[quote]SSC wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
I take it you saw Prometheus[/quote]
Psh. Um, YEAH. I lubbed it. Did you? And more importantly, did you like it? Seriously - don’t look into opinions/theories on the internet about the story. It’ll frustrate you to no end.
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Yes, I did. It was a steal IMO. Have a few theories of my own lol.
[quote]Ct. Rockula wrote:
You live in colorado?
You bone that pmpm chick yet? Is it as awful as I imagine?
[/quote]
Lol… God, c’mon bro. It’s not like it’s in my profile or anything… 
And no, I didn’t even know she still posted here to be honest. I would definitely grab some drinks with her because she does definitely seem pretty cool, all things considered.
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Yes, I did. It was a steal IMO. Have a few theories of my own lol.[/quote]
Awesome! Feel free to discuss here if ya want. I’ll let you kick it off, though, haha.
So here I am, sitting at home on this offing blazing, blistering and hotness of a day just Skiploading and recovering from last night and the workout. Then, a buddy, from the “original” BOI (omg he must be so pretentious) let me know he was going to be hitting legs at Armbrust today. He does/did post around here occasionally, his tag was DaveTheBarbarian IIRC.
So, naturally, I went and hit legs with him and his girlfriend.
I let him do the dictating, as he’s both bigger and stronger than me and I really DGAF at this point what I did, lol.
So, inspired by Evan the Natty Jesus, it went as such:
[u]Legs[/u]
Single-Leg Hammie Curls (Huge squeezes, slow negatives, big stretch.)
45ps x 10
45ps x 10
45ps x 8
40ps x 10 with bottom-half partials of 30 reps done afterwards with each leg
Leg Extensions (For le pumpz)
25 x 10
25 x 10
25 x 10
Leg Press (Low and tight foot placement)
4pps x 50
5pps x 40
6pps x 30
7pps x 20
8pps x 10 DROP SET
6pps x 10 DROP SET
4pps x 20
Sissy-Squat machine (With quad stretches in between)
BW x 20
BW x 20
Then got kicked out of the gym because it was closing time… lol!
Session went great, and I’m very glad I went.
WTF @ losing six pounds in a day without even doing anything. Seriously, no physical activity besides intense Madden-playing. 220 post-Skipload, 213 today and this morning.
Fucking Gwen.
PS, officially working with Skip (Hill.) This’ll be fun.
[quote]SSC wrote:
Fucking Gwen.[/quote]
That bitch.
[quote]SSC wrote:
PS, officially working with Skip (Hill.) This’ll be fun.[/quote]
So I didn’t catch any specific statement of goals but are you just getting casually fucking shredded for summer or are there bigger plans lol?
[quote]bigmac73nh wrote:
[quote]SSC wrote:
Fucking Gwen.[/quote]
That bitch.
[quote]SSC wrote:
PS, officially working with Skip (Hill.) This’ll be fun.[/quote]
So I didn’t catch any specific statement of goals but are you just getting casually fucking shredded for summer or are there bigger plans lol?[/quote]
Ugh. I do like that “casually fucking shredded for the summer…” lol.
Unfortunately, after reviewing my latest bank statement, coupled with the anticipation of the next few months’ expenses (rent, supps, bills, and another potential move across the country,) it looks like working with Skip isn’t going to be feasible. I’m going to have to send a bummer of an e-mail to him today. I was really jazzed up about this. Unfortunately, allocating funds to retain his services would essentially render me unable to eat, get gas, and pay for rent. Three things that are fairly high priority in my life.
I guess we’ll see where things go from here.
On the plus side, today I actually start lifting again. I feel great and ready to truck ahead full-steam. Less than four weeks before things “really take off,” so to speak, if all goes to plan.
[quote]SSC wrote:
Ugh. I do like that “casually fucking shredded for the summer…” lol.
Unfortunately, after reviewing my latest bank statement, coupled with the anticipation of the next few months’ expenses (rent, supps, bills, and another potential move across the country,) it looks like working with Skip isn’t going to be feasible. I’m going to have to send a bummer of an e-mail to him today. I was really jazzed up about this. Unfortunately, allocating funds to retain his services would essentially render me unable to eat, get gas, and pay for rent. Three things that are fairly high priority in my life.
I guess we’ll see where things go from here.
On the plus side, today I actually start lifting again. I feel great and ready to truck ahead full-steam. Less than four weeks before things “really take off,” so to speak, if all goes to plan.[/quote]
Ah shit, that sucks about the financial constraints. You seem like you know what you’re doing though, so I’m sure there will be some good gains both before/after ‘take-off.’
[quote]bigmac73nh wrote:
Ah shit, that sucks about the financial constraints. You seem like you know what you’re doing though, so I’m sure there will be some good gains both before/after ‘take-off.’ [/quote]
Haha, I hope so man! I like the faith… hopefully I can keep this shiz going full-steam.
Today I was back full-steam. Upped my cals a bit considering the insanely drastic weight fluctuation. I mean, it’s been 95-100 degrees here for the last 5-6 days so I’m sure a decent amount of it is water weight, but I’ve been killing like 200 oz of water a day, doing -no- physical activity WHATSOEVER and eating like 2,500 cals a day. IDK what’s up but I figure it’s better than gaining 12 lbs…
So anyway, post de-load I was feeling “right.” Terrific session.
[u]Chest + Light Triceps[/u]
HS Decline Press
3+40pps x 4 (Not including initial lift-off)
3+35pps x 4 (Not including initial lift-off)
3pps x 12-13
Low-Incline Dumbbell Flyes
70lb dbs x 5 (This was FUCKING heavy, lol! Kinda scary.)
55lb dbs x 9
45lb dbs x 10
Decline BB
165 x 12 (Bottom 1/2 ROM, lockout on maybe last 2 reps)
135 x 22 (Same as above)
Flat Not-HS Machine Press
1pps x 26 DROP SET
25ps x 30
DC Extreme Chest DB Stretch
55lb dbs x 70 seconds
Seated Overhead Tricep Extension Machine
255 x 14.5
210 x 18
180 x 22
One-Arm Tricep Extension Machine (Tough to explain, elbow on pads, but not the typical machine)
25ps x 14
25ps x 13
15ps x 20
Flat Lying DB L-Extensions
15lb dbs x 11
10lb dbs x 19
DC Extreme Tricep Stretch (Cable, one-arm at a time, seated)
160lbs x 60seconds each
Stairclimbing as such:
2 minutes warm-up
16.5 minutes of 30seconds @ Level 12 / 60 seconds @ Level 9 (HIIT)
90 seconds of brutality - Level 13 for 30, Level 12 for 30, Level 11 for 30
8 minutes SS @ Level 8
2 minutes cool-down
So, cool balls and shit.
~208, haven’t weight since morning though.
I guess a “progress” but I want to document by before-and-after fairly closely, consider this a 2-3ish week update I guess.
Gonna be a fun ride.
God, fuck my fucking life. I am very poor at dieting, apparently.
Last night a guy came over and had a fun plant. It had been quite some time since I partook in the ceremonial act of fun-plant smoking. So I did. And jeebus chryst did I get blown.
How blown?
Enough to order, and eat, a Medium pizza from Domino’s. FMFL.
Morning weight was 216.2, which I shouldn’t be too mad about considering it is below last week’s baseline, but fucking dammit.
Going to do some extreme shit the next couple days to try to compensate, which may include doing a 14er tomorrow. IDK.
Seriously though, now I remember why I cut that shit out… money and munchies.
[quote]SSC wrote:
God, fuck my fucking life. I am very poor at dieting, apparently.
Last night a guy came over and had a fun plant. It had been quite some time since I partook in the ceremonial act of fun-plant smoking. So I did. And jeebus chryst did I get blown.
How blown?
Enough to order, and eat, a Medium pizza from Domino’s. FMFL.
Morning weight was 216.2, which I shouldn’t be too mad about considering it is below last week’s baseline, but fucking dammit.
Going to do some extreme shit the next couple days to try to compensate, which may include doing a 14er tomorrow. IDK.
Seriously though, now I remember why I cut that shit out… money and munchies.[/quote]
hahahaha, its all about not being hungry when ya smoke. And just doing other things. I actually cant remember the last time i toked and just wnet on a binge, usually im to distracted by a movie or music to even consider making food. Also, pre bed toke FTW over anything
[quote]SSC wrote:
God, fuck my fucking life. I am very poor at dieting, apparently.
Last night a guy came over and had a fun plant. It had been quite some time since I partook in the ceremonial act of fun-plant smoking. So I did. And jeebus chryst did I get blown.
How blown?
Enough to order, and eat, a Medium pizza from Domino’s. FMFL.
Morning weight was 216.2, which I shouldn’t be too mad about considering it is below last week’s baseline, but fucking dammit.
Going to do some extreme shit the next couple days to try to compensate, which may include doing a 14er tomorrow. IDK.
Seriously though, now I remember why I cut that shit out… money and munchies.[/quote]
Hahaha performing the fun plant ceremony while dieting is dangerous. Especially if the ceremony goes too well and you end up communing with the spirits.
A friend of mine did that last year, then made the mistake of checking out the deals tab on the Dominos website. A medium pizza, pasta bowl, and sandwich were all ordered and eaten just because it was a deal. He probably only survived because it was a cheat day and he was super depleted.
So yeah, you could have done worse lol. Most of that gain was probably water from the salty balls fast food. I wouldn’t sweat it too much if I were you lol.
BTW, by fun plant you meant peyote amirite?
[quote]bignate wrote:
hahahaha, its all about not being hungry when ya smoke. And just doing other things. I actually cant remember the last time i toked and just wnet on a binge, usually im to distracted by a movie or music to even consider making food. Also, pre bed toke FTW over anything
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Well, that was definitely the issue. I was pretty damn hungry for whatever reason anyway, then party time + NBA Finals and multiple commercials for pizza and before too long, BOOM, there’s a guy knocking at my door with a sausage/pepperoni/philly steak pizza (awww yeah) awaiting my devourment.
And boy oh boy, devour I did.
Oh man, suck dick on a motherfucking motherfuck.
I decided to leave at lunch today (half-day out pass, yeah buddy,) so I could go home and chill prior to a big leg sesh today. I fasted until I got home (fucking feels awesome when tweaking with Gwen… NOT.) I had like ~8oz ground turkey + 4 pieces of Ezekiel with chunky coconut/peanut butter spread. Decent, that was around 12-12:30. I didn’t wanna eat much closer to the workout besides that.
Well fuck.
Today was so fucking gnarly. After all the quad shit I was staving off nausea SO FUCKING HARD. Like, indescribably so. My buddy/roommate actually made it in today (first time in, oh, 3 weeks, maybe more?) and he said I was pale as a ghost… and my eyes were all bloodshot. This was just straight-up not a pleasant sesh. Being 100 degrees outside (and meh warmish inside) did not help at all either. I could barely even drink water / my HP/BCAA shake or else I would’ve blown chunks. I’ll annotate accordingly below.
Also: Did the same Evan-inspired quad shit as last time, except bumped it up an entire plate. Fuck me fuck fuck fuck.
[u]Leg Brutality[/u]
Leg Extensions
25 x 15
25 x 15
25 x 10
Leg Press (Low and tight-stanced)
5pps x 50
6pps x 40
7pps x 30
8pps x 20
Cue insane nausea
9pps x 10 DROP SET
7pps x 30 DROP SET
5pps x 30
DC Extreme Quad Stretch
x60 seconds
Single-Leg Hammie Curls
35ps x 10
35ps x 10
35ps x 9 — 30 rep bottom half partials for each leg
Lying Leg Curl Machine (Just couldn’t stomach going heavy at this point, fml)
5 x 20
3 x 19 + 3 full ROM
1 x 23
End nausea
Good Mornings
135 x 10
Sumo Vertical Leg Press
2pps x 50
1pps x 40 RP
1pps x 30
DC Extreme Hammie Stretch
x~3 minutes per leg
Leg Press Calf-Extensions
3pps x 12 DC Style
2pps x 15
1pps x 15 RP
1pps x 12
Hanging Leg Raises
x25fucking whatever
Treadmill as such -
2 minutes warm-up
6 minutes @ 2.8MPH, 15 degree incline
12 minutes @ 3.0 MPH, 15 degree incline
17 minutes @ 3.5 MPH, 8 degree incline
3 minutes cool-down
Going to try to choke down some food. Fingers crossed I don’t go exorcist on some shit.
[quote]bigmac73nh wrote:
Hahaha performing the fun plant ceremony while dieting is dangerous. Especially if the ceremony goes too well and you end up communing with the spirits.
A friend of mine did that last year, then made the mistake of checking out the deals tab on the Dominos website. A medium pizza, pasta bowl, and sandwich were all ordered and eaten just because it was a deal. He probably only survived because it was a cheat day and he was super depleted.
So yeah, you could have done worse lol. Most of that gain was probably water from the salty balls fast food. I wouldn’t sweat it too much if I were you lol.
BTW, by fun plant you meant peyote amirite?[/quote]
Lolol… Glad to know it’s not just me, man. I legit use to be a 5/6/7+ times a day kind of toker, but had to cut that shit out due to money and the pursuit of getting lean. I can’t believe how remarkably weak-minded I was last night. Lessons learned, hard.
And yeah, it looks like the majority of it was water weight and poop. Lol. For whatever reason I hadn’t been very regular this week, so I bombed the living shit out of some fiber yesterday (like, 40 g or more.) Couple that with Gwen (always makes my bathroom movements much more intense and frequent for some reason) andI I lost about 4-5 lbs alone from pooping today. No joke. Was around 214 prior to the workout, we’ll see where I’m at on Sunday to assess the whole Skiploading situation.
And peyote… goddamn, man. I wish. I’ve been legitimately interested in trying that for the longest time, hahaha. Definitely not a very common find, however.