Am I a Terrible Person?

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[quote]titan123987 wrote:
Hi,

I have been reading t nation for years I have just never posted. I think I have really poor self awareness. I was thinking the other day that I might be a bit weird/mad/a terrible person.

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Or? And/or? All of the above? They’re all pretty vague terms anyway. The specifics give them meaning. So why do you think you might be “a bit weird/mad/a terrible person?”

Okay.

Well yes, some people will say that this makes you a terrible person; an evil, misogynistic, raping…

You probably need some legal advise. England can be a bad place for men to live.

Okay…getting a new car or something? Holiday?

Wait what? Why would you take out a loan and then quit your job? That’s a very poor set of decisions to make right there.

Well it’s not the end of the world. You’re only 25. There’s a lesson to be learned from all this. Poor decisions as you seem to be aware.

Okay…maybe that’s part of the reason for the poor decisions and the excessive spending? Maybe?

Hookers and blow eh? That sounds expensive.

Wait, what? Coming home with his “hammer?” As you were trying to rob people?

You couldn’t what? Rob people? Well that’s a good start. Robbing people is bad.

Well, there you go. How’s that going?

Oh. That sounds like another poor decision. Generally when you don’t like your job you plan an exit strategy; get a reference from your employer, find another job, then quit to start the new job.

Maybe the reason is because you made some stupid decisions and you were anxious and upset about the consequences of your actions. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist? There should be no stigma attached to mental illness. It sounds like you may have some mental issues possibly. Maybe you should get some help.

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Everybody thinks I am back at work now. But I am doing the same thing except I have 50 pounds left. I have been stealing my food for 2 months I sometimes steal things I do not even need. I sort of can’t carry on I really can’t do it I have no purpose and I just can’t tell people the truth about things. ever. I am very angry alot of the time.

I guess, despite rambling I am looking for an objective point of view from the safety of an online forum. Maybe somebody has been through a similar sort of things?

Cheers [/quote]

You’re not a terrible person. But you need to realise that stealing can harm other people and you need to stop doing things that harm other people. And you definitely should see a psychiatrist because what you’re describing sounds like mental illness to me. You’ve consistently made impulsive, bad decisions and you’re having to deal with the consequences of these decisions. You seem to realise you’ve got a problem and now you just need to get help. It won’t cost you any money. You can see a psychiatrist under the NHS.

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[quote]titan123987 wrote:
Im actually a really nice person to others. [/quote]

Does that include the folks you planned to rob with a hammer?

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[quote]roybot wrote:

[quote]titan123987 wrote:
Im actually a really nice person to others. [/quote]

Does that include the folks you planned to rob with a hammer?[/quote]

oh snap!

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Hey Titan, you made a good move by opening up your life to a discussion panel on a meathead training forum. this will be a good start towards your redemption.

the posters here all have your best interest in mind and are prepared to give you some good advice.

heed them well, learn and live.

godspeed~

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^ uh not sure this counts as therapy. Banging hookers and doing coke doesnt make you a bad person its like everything else its fun but not too healthey… Just dont let it get outa control… As far as the robbing folks with a hammer yeah thats bad you will end up in jail and jail sucks. + no reason to hurt inocent peeps…Use your free health care and get some counseling for the anxiety and the weird thoughts. Also get a job or start a business so you can afford your hookers and blow without smashing folks.
Also this sounds like trolling but in the off chance its real above is my $.02 Thats 2 cents for you euro trash :wink:

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You’re just insane is all. Being a crazy person doesn’t necessarily mean you’re terrible, you’re just out of your mind.

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No one likes their job. Its unnatural to do the same shit every day to build someone else’s financial empire. Start you own business. This will give your life purpose if nothing else. Just make sure its something you genuinely are interested in.

If your credit is totally fucked now and you can’t start your business, do some backpacking (you can do it for basically free by volunteering in hostels along the way). Or join the military. Anything but sit at your mom’s house and do blow.

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Thanks for your posts. Getting christmas out of the way is a bit of relief. I think the best course of action is to stop going out. Thats the first thing. I can not handle going out and drinking etc thats the first thing that can be eliminate moving forward. I am strting a new job on 5th january doing work on a temporary to permanent basis for which is not sales based so that is good. I am looking at getting a debt management plan set up and I plan to just be more sensible if possible. I think being sober should help that a lot.

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Military sounds like the best option for you. You are mentally weak and lack purpose. The military will fix both of those for you.

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At 25 I do not feel like the military is the best option if I am honest. It did appeal to me when I was 20 but at the time I didn’t take the plunge and I feel I may have missed the boat. I am deffinitely looking at sorting out my career as that is essentially what will define how I experience my life so I need to it worthwhile. I wish I could do something like the peace corps you have in the USA

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and if you’re going to rob people, a knife works so much better than a hammer. Amateur.

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[quote]Yogi wrote:
and if you’re going to rob people, a knife works so much better than a hammer. Amateur.[/quote]

Thats true, you can 3 stabs to every swing.

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[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]Yogi wrote:
and if you’re going to rob people, a knife works so much better than a hammer. Amateur.[/quote]

Thats true, you can 3 stabs to every swing. [/quote]

Euros without guns give me a chuckle.

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I did think about joining the military a few years back when I was around 20 but I feel like that ship has sailed now I am approaching 26. Not sure it would be the right path for me to go down in all honesty plus like its already been mentioned, Im not the most mentally strong person so maybe they wouldn’t have me!

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[quote]pushharder wrote:

[quote]Magnetic88 wrote:
No one likes their job. Its unnatural to do the same shit every day to build someone else’s financial empire. Start you own business. This will give your life purpose if nothing else. Just make sure its something you genuinely are interested in.

If your credit is totally fucked now and you can’t start your business, do some backpacking (you can do it for basically free by volunteering in hostels along the way). Or join the military. Anything but sit at your mom’s house and do blow.[/quote]

Damn good post.

Cliff Notes? Get off your ass, you worthless motherfucker (whoever you might be) and do something with your life.[/quote]

Not directing this towards push, but

I hear this vague “do something” and it drives me insane. If someone knew what to do, would they not be doing it?

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[quote]jjackkrash wrote:

[quote]orion wrote:

[quote]Yogi wrote:
and if you’re going to rob people, a knife works so much better than a hammer. Amateur.[/quote]

Thats true, you can 3 stabs to every swing. [/quote]

Euros without guns give me a chuckle. [/quote]

Well, at least in Austria I can probably get a gun much easier than most Americans, we are what you would call a “shall issue” state.

Does not change the fact that the success of the Roman legions depended in part on the fact that stabbing is faster than swinging, hence the legendary legionaires thrust which went directly to the groin area, dealt from under his shield.

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The best thing you can do is seek help from a professional-- if you cannot afford it on your own, talk with your parents or just go in and talk with a doctor or administrative assistant for advice on a whim. Just really nothing else to be said here, get help from a professional psychiatric clinic. It really is the only way out if you cannot resolve the issue on your own.

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[quote]Aggv wrote:
If someone knew what to do, would they not be doing it?
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Just because people know what’s good for them doesn’t mean they want to do it, or even if they want to do it, they might not have the gumption to actually do it.

Do you think all the disgusting human sacks of Crisco one sees rolling through any given Wal-Mart are that way because they just don’t know any better? “Oh, gosh, if only someone had told me that eating a dozen and a half custard donuts washed down with four litres of root beer was bad for me. I had no idea. If only someone had ever written a book or had a TV show that would have informed me about healthy eating and exercise.”

Nah, bullshit.

OP, if you would rather drive yourself into debt by spending borrowed money on hookers and cocaine than work, save, invest and build something, well, hell, it’s your life.

There are no terrible people, only bad decisions. You have made, and look to be continuing to make, bad decisions. Stop making bad decisions. I suspect that you are not entirely stupid, nor completely insane, so despite Aggv’s implication, you likely know what decisions you need to make to get your life out of the hole you have dug. The first is to stop with the self-pity. The second is to put down the fucking shovel (or hammer, as may be).

Get a job. If you can’t find a job, volunteer. Not necessarily the army, if that’s not your thing, but yeah, find a way to make yourself useful somehow.

And for god’s sake have some fucking self-respect. Nothing inherently wrong with buying hookers and coke, but taking out a loan for your hookers and coke? Pathetic.

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[quote]titan123987 wrote:
Im not the most mentally strong person so maybe they wouldn’t have me![/quote]

Well, then, there’s always civil service.