I often use photos, msgs, anything with timestamps really to determine timeframes. But photos are the best because other useful info can extrapolated from them.
This one had to be just before the blackout, taken at 01:45. So I figure I hap an 8 hour-long nap… Which is good.
Arnold says that no one needs more than 5 five hours of sleep per day and if you disagree you should sleep faster. So I may skip napping until Thursday.
PS. That is not porn on my computer screen. It’s Tinder, I’m looking for a soulmate.
If life hygiene means the same thing as hygiene, then I do that. I like to stay clean(as in washed). As for sleep schedule, I do that too, but not with grams of tren in me. Thank fuck I’m off the meth - that thing and schedule don’t go together.
Tren, on the other hand, seems manageable. No issues whatsoever as long as I keep it under a gram. Well, half a gram is perfect, three quarters a bit pushing it. A gram is get strapped in and brace yourself. Two grams I’m about to experience for both the first and the last time.
I only take valiums when trensomnia gets bad. That’s for medical reasons. Trust me, if I wanted to get fucked up I’d just do meth(alcohol, crack cocaine, heroin too. meth is just the drug of choice and I was always on it).
Counseling? I’ve stopped doing meth, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, consuming sugar, eating shit food, started training. What could I possibly need counseling for?
As for relationships, I don’t have any. I’ve always been an introvert(a nerd, avid book reader, in love with numbers, obsessed with physics). Used to be extremely easy to find a company to smoke crack together at any time. I don’t really know how else to connect with people.
I’ve been to AA and met some nice people. It’s not like they invited me for a chess match after the meeting was over or anything…
Why the fuck would I want to go to church? To meet people who even dumber than I am?
Yep. Once such checkup went particularly poorly. Right before walking into the doctors office I realized that I’ve got bags of meth in my pockets. Seemed disrespectful having that on me in doctors meeting. So excused myself to the restroom and snorted everything there was. They locked me up in the loony bin on the top floor of the Bangkok hospital with 24 hour guard watch, no doors. Long story, funny story…
I can suggest a few recipes that work: inject a gram of testosterone concentrated in 2cc. Or run for hours and hours until your legs give in.
The bloods I posted were done ~two weeks post tren cycle, during trt of 250mg test per week plus often 30 dbol as a preworkout. On-cycle markers are obviously worse. I do bloods ofter, can post if there’s interest.
Now, the other things that you mentioned(left ventricular hypertrophy, or neurotoxicity). I am very interested in learning about those things. Can you maybe explain in smiple terms and recommend a good book on the subject? I’ve tried to speak to private doctor, find out what test can be done to avoid ending up like Zyzz? Can’t say I managed to get much info out of her.
I have no interest in any sport. And I have no interest in bodybulding without peds. Lazy or silly, right or wrong, cheating or whatever. It’s just what I like and I’m doing it. I’m not hurting anybody. Anyone who wants to judge me feel free.
Have been hearing predictions of my early demise for as long as I can remember myself. Boo hoo.
2 grams of trenbolone, 1 gram of masteron, 0.5 gram testosterone. all enanthate esters.
Several times you mention that you believe that I’m trolling. I can’t see how your claim could make sense in any kind of way. Doesn’t concern me what you think either.
You know what, I’ve responded to every single question / remark / suggestion that were worth responding to in this thread.
Well you’re hurting yourself. But it’s certainly better than meth.
Anyway, you have to know you’ll never be the same as Zyzz because of genetics. Looks like you have pretty much narrow shoulders compared to him. Just be your best self
I missed a fun one just as well, I’m basically an idiot when it comes to gear.
I’m definitely pro-use… even recreationally, and I’m not totally sold that I wont consider it in the future, but as a natural lifter currently… I’m still getting bigger, faster, and stronger everyday… I would think the real fun would be capping out naturally and then possibly having an entire threshold of potential that you can now achieve (without wasted effort though years of understanding)
Also… in a real world application, recovering, and also using gear is not the best solution I’ve heard. Not only are you still recovering but you’re already pumping yourself with gear that I’ve seen countless horror threads about from otherwise vitruvian models of health and discipline. Once again, I’m extremely uneducated in the matter, but it’s just my armchair observation.
vI’ve been participting in online ocmmunities for 2 decades(run onlyne bussiness for most of my adultl life) so I like to believe that i’m good at ignorignuntternu stuoiwr etd not pay attention to idioitic posts.
I’m up for a challenge. Are you? Help me get to look like him and I’ll gift you 1000GBP plus undying fanboy plus plastered allover social media(more guys willing to pay for uour advice).
Hell, do this with steroids I’ll take and do whatever you say. I’d eat god shit if thar=t ess psr o fgjt ksn.
But looks like you you’re fckk og shit k . Zyzzarms sr,d dnot idtsink wr motursnnu at such bdy fsy.
Excuse soe of my jibber-jabber, I often re-tpe text 3 times and still can’t understnd what;s wrottet. I notice correlaion betweej coherence and the valium concentration in the system. At least it;s not xanax, I;d get benned aween ago and not even remember I was ever a memeberlll
I a recovered. The problem is gone. I can get meth at any time even right now at 5am, free of charge too. I can go to crackhouse of my choosing and even move in there if I choose to. I did not run from the problem. I dealt with it head on. Took 7 years but I won. I kept a bag of crystal in my wallet at all times to pracice being stringl. I’ve done all I could think of.
I even came up with a title of my biograohy if I ever get to write one: The Meth Diaries: my life as a n idiot,
The reason for all the sharing and honesty is mostly egoistical: today it helped me feel better, get through the day smoother. I spend hours sitting here thinking about offing myself. And I don’t mean crying out for help posting some stupid suicidal thoughts bs on fb, looking attention etc. No, just quietly not wanting to keep going on anymore.
It’s kind of ok though. I could never actually go though with that because balls not big enough.
Vulnereable? Yes. Embarrased? Sure. But most importantky alive.
So we conclude that the second ypothesis is the correct one: it’s all trenbolone that’s fucking me(a gram of it). That is bad news because I injeced 20cc more tren in my asscheks earlier today - that was 7 overfilled syringes of tren all injeted at the same time. Dairy says i’m at three grams of trenbolone per week now. I’ve got mixed feelings about this.
just as well, I’m basically an idiot when it comes to gear.